finally there's some good news. and i am more than glad to welcome good news. i have enough of those bad stuff.
well. i am so proud of my sister! haha. she did well and i am really really glad. i hope my results that are coming out soon will be just as good. then my mum will really be happy. good luck to me. congratulations to my dearest sister. now everything is fine. good! yay!
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
end of it all
one week. that's all it took for things to change. how interesting a human mind can work. fast change of mind. indeed. one week. that's all. it's the end.
past few days i was a happy girl. happy happy happy. princess-y and all. things went on well. everything was so nice and sweet and ya simply too good to be true.
no one stays happy forever i guess. maybe that's why now it has to change. now it has to end all those happy happy days. it's time for me to stop wandering in dream land and get back to reality. the harsh realities. life sucks. it does. doesnt it. it just simply changes people. changes things so fast. and before you know it. that's it. happy days are gone and more sad days to come. "yahoo!" (oh. wow....)
now i feel super crapped up. super dumb. i wonder what prompt me to be like that for the past few days. i shouldnt have opted to be a happy girl. should have chosen to let life be simple and revolve just about myself and it's just gonna be me me me and nothing else but me. i shouldnt have decided that i should give myself a chance to try sthg so "fun" (i'm sure). ended up with only sad sad things to pick up. i played with fire. now i pack up the mess myself. argh. what else can i do except tell myself that tomorrow will be better? i certainly hope so.
messed up at work today. doing all sorts of weird things simply cos my mind would just wonder off. it's bad. kind of like. maybe cos i skipped work for one day. maybe. or it's just that. that is bothering me. cant be bothered to tell anyone what exactly that is bothering me. it shall just be my own business and i will rant on and on here making no sense of what i am talking. hmm. good keep it that way. my diary went out of space. or else i wouldnt be ranting here. i will get an addition to my diary. soon. someday. argh. cant be bothered. i've got more things to care about.
past few days i was a happy girl. happy happy happy. princess-y and all. things went on well. everything was so nice and sweet and ya simply too good to be true.
no one stays happy forever i guess. maybe that's why now it has to change. now it has to end all those happy happy days. it's time for me to stop wandering in dream land and get back to reality. the harsh realities. life sucks. it does. doesnt it. it just simply changes people. changes things so fast. and before you know it. that's it. happy days are gone and more sad days to come. "yahoo!" (oh. wow....)
now i feel super crapped up. super dumb. i wonder what prompt me to be like that for the past few days. i shouldnt have opted to be a happy girl. should have chosen to let life be simple and revolve just about myself and it's just gonna be me me me and nothing else but me. i shouldnt have decided that i should give myself a chance to try sthg so "fun" (i'm sure). ended up with only sad sad things to pick up. i played with fire. now i pack up the mess myself. argh. what else can i do except tell myself that tomorrow will be better? i certainly hope so.
messed up at work today. doing all sorts of weird things simply cos my mind would just wonder off. it's bad. kind of like. maybe cos i skipped work for one day. maybe. or it's just that. that is bothering me. cant be bothered to tell anyone what exactly that is bothering me. it shall just be my own business and i will rant on and on here making no sense of what i am talking. hmm. good keep it that way. my diary went out of space. or else i wouldnt be ranting here. i will get an addition to my diary. soon. someday. argh. cant be bothered. i've got more things to care about.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
sweet thursday
hehe. nice day. nothing much. but still nice.
early in the morning. went to run errands for my mum. ended up with nothing. cos it's like not within my abilities to help. then end up stranded at clementi for some time. wanted to wait till the bookshop open and buy some stuff before i get back. haha. bumped my manager while i was loithering around the area. haha. now coincidental. haha. then after that got myself kfc for lunch. damn. monday had kfc. yesterday had mcs. today kfc. getting really sick of fast food. goodness. the eating is killing me. haha. luckily not gaining much cos i am dont eat anything else for the rest of the day if i eat fast food most of the time.
afternoon tutored zc. went there dressed properly to go to rj later. then he was commenting and ya. usual. he criticised more like it. haha. doesnt matter la. cant be bothered le. haha. after tuition went to meet shiyun and sarah at j8. shopped around a bit then went for dinner. was wondering what to eat. i just said. no fast food. haha. ended up eating at thai express. the first time i eat a proper main course there. haha. not bad. haha. not as spicy as i thought. maybe i chose the right one. and the mango dessert thing was superbly delicious. loved that. haha. today eat like mad. tmr got to go run. haha. ps. we already agreed. haha.
drama feste today. went to sit in as audience after 2 yrs working backstage. haha. not bad. some interesting plays. some rather chiem ones. haha. but still. nice to watch. afterall. cos of sarah. we got free tix. haha. cool. thanks girl. yap. basically that's all for today. enjoyable. with something new afterall. wont make me that bored. ya. nice day.
early in the morning. went to run errands for my mum. ended up with nothing. cos it's like not within my abilities to help. then end up stranded at clementi for some time. wanted to wait till the bookshop open and buy some stuff before i get back. haha. bumped my manager while i was loithering around the area. haha. now coincidental. haha. then after that got myself kfc for lunch. damn. monday had kfc. yesterday had mcs. today kfc. getting really sick of fast food. goodness. the eating is killing me. haha. luckily not gaining much cos i am dont eat anything else for the rest of the day if i eat fast food most of the time.
afternoon tutored zc. went there dressed properly to go to rj later. then he was commenting and ya. usual. he criticised more like it. haha. doesnt matter la. cant be bothered le. haha. after tuition went to meet shiyun and sarah at j8. shopped around a bit then went for dinner. was wondering what to eat. i just said. no fast food. haha. ended up eating at thai express. the first time i eat a proper main course there. haha. not bad. haha. not as spicy as i thought. maybe i chose the right one. and the mango dessert thing was superbly delicious. loved that. haha. today eat like mad. tmr got to go run. haha. ps. we already agreed. haha.
drama feste today. went to sit in as audience after 2 yrs working backstage. haha. not bad. some interesting plays. some rather chiem ones. haha. but still. nice to watch. afterall. cos of sarah. we got free tix. haha. cool. thanks girl. yap. basically that's all for today. enjoyable. with something new afterall. wont make me that bored. ya. nice day.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
silent
haha. my blog seems now so blank blank blank. no one tags. i seldom blog. haha. nothing much going around here for me la. i dying to go back to school to study. although it means tests ah. homework. it's been sooooo long since i wore my school uniform.
haha. i sound a little bit bonkers like that. who the hell would want to go school. but i miss schooling. sleeping in lts when i really cannot take it. haha. talking to classmates during breaks ah. chionging tutorials in empty classrooms when we need them for the next lesson. trying to ghim moh every other day simply cos we were so sick of the canteen food ah. old campus is old. but it has nice memories. the new campus will most probably bring back that much wonderful memories. no doubt schooling means tests, ccas, every single academic aspects. but i love to go school. it's where my friends are. it's where i start running off from when they have celebrations cos i want to go back to my secondary school. those were those days. so far. i just seem to work my heart out. and slack at certain days. waiting for the time i do tuition. come home. online. gb. goes on week and week. tests are brain stimulating. working like that now isnt intellectually challenging me as yet. ok. i guess i am a mugger. bookworm. geek. nerd. whatever. haha.
later tutoring zc again. he's super smart so i aint that worried. the rest of my students have tests coming up and i certainly hope they do well. things are getting along fine apart from me getting easily bored about having to repeat the routine.
of course i am stressed. results are coming out soon. i am just trying to make myself not think of it. it's good not to think i guess. i am not having nightmares. i am not freaking out. i am not fainting any moment yet. i guess those who are waiting for results are also super stressed out. i just want to relax while i can. i had nightmares during 'o's and i dont want that to happen again. haha. but that nightmare was lame. lame lame lame. i dreamt that i havent do my examinations yet. and i didnt know that it was scheduled that day. chinese. wah. that one can sian diao. nvr study for chinese really equals dying. haha. but well. i have already completed the whole 'o' level exams when i got the nightmare. just woke up feeling as though i havent. haha. kind of stupid. but well. that episode is over. now another one is up. no nightmares yet and i am more than glad. i sleep rather well these days. not really brooding over lots of things. which i certainly think is good. i hope i can survive handling the pressure until i get results. of course. i hope i do well. who doesnt?!
haha. i sound a little bit bonkers like that. who the hell would want to go school. but i miss schooling. sleeping in lts when i really cannot take it. haha. talking to classmates during breaks ah. chionging tutorials in empty classrooms when we need them for the next lesson. trying to ghim moh every other day simply cos we were so sick of the canteen food ah. old campus is old. but it has nice memories. the new campus will most probably bring back that much wonderful memories. no doubt schooling means tests, ccas, every single academic aspects. but i love to go school. it's where my friends are. it's where i start running off from when they have celebrations cos i want to go back to my secondary school. those were those days. so far. i just seem to work my heart out. and slack at certain days. waiting for the time i do tuition. come home. online. gb. goes on week and week. tests are brain stimulating. working like that now isnt intellectually challenging me as yet. ok. i guess i am a mugger. bookworm. geek. nerd. whatever. haha.
later tutoring zc again. he's super smart so i aint that worried. the rest of my students have tests coming up and i certainly hope they do well. things are getting along fine apart from me getting easily bored about having to repeat the routine.
of course i am stressed. results are coming out soon. i am just trying to make myself not think of it. it's good not to think i guess. i am not having nightmares. i am not freaking out. i am not fainting any moment yet. i guess those who are waiting for results are also super stressed out. i just want to relax while i can. i had nightmares during 'o's and i dont want that to happen again. haha. but that nightmare was lame. lame lame lame. i dreamt that i havent do my examinations yet. and i didnt know that it was scheduled that day. chinese. wah. that one can sian diao. nvr study for chinese really equals dying. haha. but well. i have already completed the whole 'o' level exams when i got the nightmare. just woke up feeling as though i havent. haha. kind of stupid. but well. that episode is over. now another one is up. no nightmares yet and i am more than glad. i sleep rather well these days. not really brooding over lots of things. which i certainly think is good. i hope i can survive handling the pressure until i get results. of course. i hope i do well. who doesnt?!
Sunday, February 20, 2005
what a day
working is tired. see my mood. kind of drained today. ying had some prob and wah ended off the day with more crap. haha. stupid boss of hers. thank goodness.
but well. good news too. i managed to get my saturdays off. got some time to myself and can attend class gatherings whenever i can i hope.
keeping my blogs really short these days. cos there's nothing much to complain about. and also nothing to really mention in particular. i am just happy the way things are so far.
but well. good news too. i managed to get my saturdays off. got some time to myself and can attend class gatherings whenever i can i hope.
keeping my blogs really short these days. cos there's nothing much to complain about. and also nothing to really mention in particular. i am just happy the way things are so far.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
happy saturday
i am a lucky girl. :)
havent been blogging these few days simply because i come online and i gb most of the time. haha. ok. back to gaming again. yes, indeed. but well there isnt much to write anyway. life's getting really repetitive for me. conclusion: it's sickening to step out into society and work. i rather study. go school. gossip and talk rubbish. haha.
just felt like posting. cos today is happy day. and i find this part of the song lyrics nice. (sounds cute)
手机 静不下来 你的简讯我看了又看 甜蜜当然却让我不安 会不会就突然中断
心跳 静不下来 一想到你我就乱又更乱 是个负担 放弃又太难 告诉我胆小鬼怎么恋爱
havent been blogging these few days simply because i come online and i gb most of the time. haha. ok. back to gaming again. yes, indeed. but well there isnt much to write anyway. life's getting really repetitive for me. conclusion: it's sickening to step out into society and work. i rather study. go school. gossip and talk rubbish. haha.
just felt like posting. cos today is happy day. and i find this part of the song lyrics nice. (sounds cute)
手机 静不下来 你的简讯我看了又看 甜蜜当然却让我不安 会不会就突然中断
心跳 静不下来 一想到你我就乱又更乱 是个负担 放弃又太难 告诉我胆小鬼怎么恋爱
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
oh it's wednesday
went ang mo kio to give tuition today. supposed to give tuition to 2 students in different areas in amk but well. one end up cancelled and now i am at home having nothing to do cos it am supposed to be teaching till 8 and reach home at 9. instead. i reached home 2 hours early. slacking in front of the comp as usual. and now really dont have anything else to do except to try and crap sthg over here. sigh last minute cancellation for tuition. was almost about to board the bus to get to that student's place when the mum called from office to tell me that she has things on in school, just ended, need to prepare for test tmr and so cancel the tuition. luckily i didnt board the bus when i picked up the phone. weird instincts on my part. helped me save up the bus fee which was amazingly lucky. sigh. now back to a messed up schedule again. dont really know when i can really really have a proper schedule. things are going to get worse when i start uni in a few months time (a few months i hope). with the workload from school and everything else jumbling in. i hope i dont get messed up more and more. co-operate my dearest students. co-operate. but well. like they'll bother to. that's why i love taking over sis's student even though he can be kind of intellectually challenging for me. he loves to study so much that i dont have to worry that he'll cancel classes out of fun. and i also of course love my own p2 little girl whose mum will bring her down to my house for tuition and i'll always know one week in advance if she isnt coming. one problematic student. one that seems ok but weekdays might serve as a problem when i start school. i dont like let them mess up my time and i am also scared that i mess theirs. the problem of tutoring. so far, at least i am managing well. at least i dont hate this job that i have been taking. i just hate them changing and changing. other than that, i am happy. i dont mind teaching. in fact, if they can really get good grades. i will be just as happy as their parents would be.
nothing much for me for today. i am just bored. sometimes. it's just so contradicting. i dont want to stay at home that much. cos i have nothing much to do at home. except singing along as i play those music cds or sit in front of the comp. gaming or chatting. at this rate. my specs gonna get thicker. i gonna look geek-ier ( is there such a word?!?!) although it's just purely out of gaming, tv and computer. neither do i want to go out that much. it burns a hole in my pocket that pains my heart cos i am working everyday purely for money. isnt it so? i am trying to save up to make up for the amount i have spent on my digicam. and i want to just save up. so that i can spend when i really would love to. something like a short vacation when my sis gets back. my one and only goal now. to earn money. that's it.
nothing much for me for today. i am just bored. sometimes. it's just so contradicting. i dont want to stay at home that much. cos i have nothing much to do at home. except singing along as i play those music cds or sit in front of the comp. gaming or chatting. at this rate. my specs gonna get thicker. i gonna look geek-ier ( is there such a word?!?!) although it's just purely out of gaming, tv and computer. neither do i want to go out that much. it burns a hole in my pocket that pains my heart cos i am working everyday purely for money. isnt it so? i am trying to save up to make up for the amount i have spent on my digicam. and i want to just save up. so that i can spend when i really would love to. something like a short vacation when my sis gets back. my one and only goal now. to earn money. that's it.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
happy birthday
happy birthday to all. it's everyone's b'day today! cos it's the 7th day of chinese new year. chinese should all know. it's ren2 ri4. people's day. so it's everyone's b'day. wishing all good health and happiness. haha. :) hope it's a good day for everyone.
for me, so far so good. i slept a lot. haha. was woken up by the postman that sent me the parcel from my sis who's still in atlanta. her v day gift for us although it's just one day late. like i said. better late than never. i am happy that it reached. lucky i manage to pull myself out of the bed. if i miss this parcel. everyone else will get me. haha. anyway. i unwrapped the one for me. it's a denim tote bag. thanks girl. really really nice of you. haha. you got me that cos you say i am lack of girly stuff. haha. looks nice. thanks. and the snoopy card is fabulous. you made my day girl. haha. see my mood? elated! i am so happy. really. thanks girl. you must have spent a lot of money and effort to get us nice things. really thank you. i appreciate the nice gifts that you have got. i have 2 nice sisters. ying gave me present too. chocolates and sweets. nice.
other than that. nothing much for today. going for tuition later. and i will go jogging. that's all for today. really a smooth flowing and pleasant day. and i am more than glad that it is.
for me, so far so good. i slept a lot. haha. was woken up by the postman that sent me the parcel from my sis who's still in atlanta. her v day gift for us although it's just one day late. like i said. better late than never. i am happy that it reached. lucky i manage to pull myself out of the bed. if i miss this parcel. everyone else will get me. haha. anyway. i unwrapped the one for me. it's a denim tote bag. thanks girl. really really nice of you. haha. you got me that cos you say i am lack of girly stuff. haha. looks nice. thanks. and the snoopy card is fabulous. you made my day girl. haha. see my mood? elated! i am so happy. really. thanks girl. you must have spent a lot of money and effort to get us nice things. really thank you. i appreciate the nice gifts that you have got. i have 2 nice sisters. ying gave me present too. chocolates and sweets. nice.
other than that. nothing much for today. going for tuition later. and i will go jogging. that's all for today. really a smooth flowing and pleasant day. and i am more than glad that it is.
Monday, February 14, 2005
happy valentine's day
the day for love, romance. haha. not for me. haha. a little break for me. after the weekend part-time job. it's back to tutoring before the weekend fever starts again.
woke up early today. collected flowers for my mum for v.day. happy v day. from my sis to her. just another errand girl. haha. i realised flowers are shockingly expensive on this day itself. the bouquet that i got cost 30 bucks at the florist in the market. a little broken promise by the florist though. she told me 20 bucks the one week ago when i ordered. high inflation that is amasingly shocking. haha. well. still got it and it looks really sweet. most probably flowers are sweet for the receivers but a heartache for the giver. really toss out the pocket just to get one nice nice bouquet.
after that went to watch constantine. yay. i got the ticket stubs as evidence! haha. finally got down to watching one movie for this year! rather interesting show. a little freaking at the start. soon get numbed by all those scenes. the ending seems a little off. but well nice show still. i spent 6.50 what. so i guess it's still ok. the money is still worth spending. hehe.
after that walked from ps to taka and then talked to mum a little then went back home for tuition. haha.
got v day gifts. from ying. chocolates and sweet stuff. :) well happy girl me. at least not totally empty handed. ooh and i got coffee bean pure chocolate ice-blended. today is a sweet day. haha. i gonna get into trouble eating so much sweet stuff. hehe.
woke up early today. collected flowers for my mum for v.day. happy v day. from my sis to her. just another errand girl. haha. i realised flowers are shockingly expensive on this day itself. the bouquet that i got cost 30 bucks at the florist in the market. a little broken promise by the florist though. she told me 20 bucks the one week ago when i ordered. high inflation that is amasingly shocking. haha. well. still got it and it looks really sweet. most probably flowers are sweet for the receivers but a heartache for the giver. really toss out the pocket just to get one nice nice bouquet.
after that went to watch constantine. yay. i got the ticket stubs as evidence! haha. finally got down to watching one movie for this year! rather interesting show. a little freaking at the start. soon get numbed by all those scenes. the ending seems a little off. but well nice show still. i spent 6.50 what. so i guess it's still ok. the money is still worth spending. hehe.
the ticket stub
after that walked from ps to taka and then talked to mum a little then went back home for tuition. haha.
got v day gifts. from ying. chocolates and sweet stuff. :) well happy girl me. at least not totally empty handed. ooh and i got coffee bean pure chocolate ice-blended. today is a sweet day. haha. i gonna get into trouble eating so much sweet stuff. hehe.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
sunday the 13th
haha. definitely not the unlucky day. rather ok ok day for me.
woke up at 12 noon today when i am supposed to get out of my house at that time for work. lol. slept too much. in the end. got up washed up bathe and settle everything in 15 mins. haha. ok. i can be really fast if i want to i realised. after that went off to work without lunch and breakfast. i am mad la. i am.
work as usual. but today didnt really made mistakes. although i am bored. and at some point i was dying of boredom. work is nothing but the same old things. today better. not really bothering. dont want to complain that much too. might just help make things better. being grouchy most probably wont make me feel any better.
nothing much today. more things for tmr. going to collect flowers for mummy. then going to catch movie. then tutor. haha. seems eventful and i am glad to have things to do.
woke up at 12 noon today when i am supposed to get out of my house at that time for work. lol. slept too much. in the end. got up washed up bathe and settle everything in 15 mins. haha. ok. i can be really fast if i want to i realised. after that went off to work without lunch and breakfast. i am mad la. i am.
work as usual. but today didnt really made mistakes. although i am bored. and at some point i was dying of boredom. work is nothing but the same old things. today better. not really bothering. dont want to complain that much too. might just help make things better. being grouchy most probably wont make me feel any better.
nothing much today. more things for tmr. going to collect flowers for mummy. then going to catch movie. then tutor. haha. seems eventful and i am glad to have things to do.
Saturday, February 12, 2005
trash
sigh. worked today. 8 whole hours. feeling really trashy again. really. hate working there. hate working with my mum. i cant stand it when i keep getting nagged at. somehow. it seems as if everything i do is wrong. controlled. irritated. working there really sucked. if only i had vowed nvr ever to go back there again. it's really really outrageous. the pay is lousy. the management is crappy. my mum is naggy. the hours are crazy. whatever la. everything is lousy. somewhere else might just be way better. sickening. now even have to listen to her crap about me being at fault for snapping at her. whatever la. not going to stand this anymore. really dont see a point in trying to just follow her although i may not think that it makes sense. really dont see a point to show her respect although she doesnt even show me any. dont see a point in tolerating her crap and getting myself feel so lousy all day. whatever la. not going to care. too bad if she now gets a cold shoulder. too bad if she have me snapping at her all the time. i totally cant be bothered. i sound rebellious. but really. i dont care. i rather she dont talk to me then she open her mouth just to nag at me for small little things. meeting irritating customers simply dont help to make my day any better. stupid people who are greedy for simply any kind of offers. unreasonable ones to. one pointed finger and made what a stupid commented that made me totally so pissed. jerk. mind you. i am well-educated. not some cheater out to get your dirty money. you think i really care if you buy things from the stall or what? what i care if my pay. stupid. if i wasnt working i'll most prob scream in her face. stupid AUNTY. go back and watch tv and gossip la.
deprived of weekend celebrations. sec 4 and jc class both had outing today. missed both. worked and only to get nagged at. if only. want to watch movies. haha. constantine. (seems totally cool. ) seoul raiders. (tony leung! haha. not that crazy over him. but tokyo raiders was kind of interesting and this should too. ) howl's moving castle. (from creator of spirited away. sounds really really fun!) need all the fun i can get. shall find time and people to watch them with me! really way too bad if i miss out everything just because of work. it should be a break for me. so i should really really try enjoy myself while i can. i feel like i am working so much for almost nothing. although i already spent a lot on my digicam. but i seem to be paying it back fast. sigh. maybe i should just work and work and get the money. dont know. dont want to just do that. feel like quitting already. have enough. sigh. major bad mood. i am irritated. might just end up snapping at anyone else too. argh. mad. bad. sad.
deprived of weekend celebrations. sec 4 and jc class both had outing today. missed both. worked and only to get nagged at. if only. want to watch movies. haha. constantine. (seems totally cool. ) seoul raiders. (tony leung! haha. not that crazy over him. but tokyo raiders was kind of interesting and this should too. ) howl's moving castle. (from creator of spirited away. sounds really really fun!) need all the fun i can get. shall find time and people to watch them with me! really way too bad if i miss out everything just because of work. it should be a break for me. so i should really really try enjoy myself while i can. i feel like i am working so much for almost nothing. although i already spent a lot on my digicam. but i seem to be paying it back fast. sigh. maybe i should just work and work and get the money. dont know. dont want to just do that. feel like quitting already. have enough. sigh. major bad mood. i am irritated. might just end up snapping at anyone else too. argh. mad. bad. sad.
Friday, February 11, 2005
third day of chinese new year
no celebrations for day 3. getting back into place with work and tutoring starting from today.
went jogging alone early in the morning today. ps couldnt make it cos of sthg. so i went on myself. didnt really wanted to drag myself out of my bed when ying woke me up today. sigh. have been sleeping till so late the past few days. difficult to wake up and cut on the sleep. in the end still manage to get myself up after pyschoing myself with the fact that i ate too much the past few days during the chinese new year celebrations. looks like my exercise plan is getting into place. greater discipline. hopefully everything gets on fine and i can continue as such for some time. at least till i shed some weight. haha. really. want to be a little healthier. expecting more and better results out of this big plan of mine. haha. kind of stupid. but it'll stay for as long as i stay determined about it.
gonna have to return my library books today and i have yet to read most of them. will return them before i go work today. argh. now i have to make another trip to try and get the books to read again. will need one for my application for scholarship if i am bent on getting one. eeeks. sigh. hate to do reading but well i dont really have a choice. maybe will try and find one at the library when i go return. will need to go earlier then. so that i wont be late for work.
might get ang bao today for starting of work. well. some incentives please. i am starting work today with 10 hours at that place and i really wonder how i can survive. pray hard.
also, results are coming out soon for ying. which means soon mine will too. hope everything goes fine.
ok. everything i am writing is in a mess. sigh. thoughts running wildly. so many things going in my mind and i am not really making an effort to organise them when i blog. this is bad. that is if i am doing my essay. haha. my teacher will most prob kill me. talking about school. really miss going to school. it beats stoning at home and having to work long hours. school can be brain-draining but at least we sit in class and talk crap during the breaks. now when i work. i stand for as long as i work and stone during breaks. it's so different. studying is easier maybe. fine. i am a mugger. haha.
went jogging alone early in the morning today. ps couldnt make it cos of sthg. so i went on myself. didnt really wanted to drag myself out of my bed when ying woke me up today. sigh. have been sleeping till so late the past few days. difficult to wake up and cut on the sleep. in the end still manage to get myself up after pyschoing myself with the fact that i ate too much the past few days during the chinese new year celebrations. looks like my exercise plan is getting into place. greater discipline. hopefully everything gets on fine and i can continue as such for some time. at least till i shed some weight. haha. really. want to be a little healthier. expecting more and better results out of this big plan of mine. haha. kind of stupid. but it'll stay for as long as i stay determined about it.
gonna have to return my library books today and i have yet to read most of them. will return them before i go work today. argh. now i have to make another trip to try and get the books to read again. will need one for my application for scholarship if i am bent on getting one. eeeks. sigh. hate to do reading but well i dont really have a choice. maybe will try and find one at the library when i go return. will need to go earlier then. so that i wont be late for work.
might get ang bao today for starting of work. well. some incentives please. i am starting work today with 10 hours at that place and i really wonder how i can survive. pray hard.
also, results are coming out soon for ying. which means soon mine will too. hope everything goes fine.
ok. everything i am writing is in a mess. sigh. thoughts running wildly. so many things going in my mind and i am not really making an effort to organise them when i blog. this is bad. that is if i am doing my essay. haha. my teacher will most prob kill me. talking about school. really miss going to school. it beats stoning at home and having to work long hours. school can be brain-draining but at least we sit in class and talk crap during the breaks. now when i work. i stand for as long as i work and stone during breaks. it's so different. studying is easier maybe. fine. i am a mugger. haha.
second day of chinese new year
started off by waking up the latest for today. lol. well i slept the lastest anyway. 4 am. was up playing sims 2 cos i couldnt think of anything to do and i dont really want to sleep that early. haha. weird logic. but i just did it. haha. woke up only when my aunt was here. haha. seems embarrassing cos i was greeting them with that sleepy look and i quickly went off to wash up a little first. haha.
lots of people came to our place today. kind of lively. which is good. i rather spend new year at home. went on skype and we all greeted sis online through that. was rather happy to talk to her. she sounded better also. that last few times she sounded so sad that it makes us feel sad a little too. mum made lots of nice nice nice food. we seldom really have the chance to eat what she cooks now that her working hours are so long. really really nice. love the hotdog in ketchup. abalone. chicken. prawn. "shark's fin". yummy. celebrations indicate an indulgence in good food. eeks. gaining weight. haha. who cares. enjoy. will do things to get rid of those excess later. haha. gu gu came. ah lan ah yi came. margaret auntie came. jinglong came. xiao yi came. really really lots of people. haha. mum was the busiest. having to chat with them and then prepare food early in the morning while i was still sleeping. we all enjoyed the treat. helped to clear up when the guest all left. washed the dishes like mad. so many. eeks. even mopped the floor. haha. so long since i really did some housework. haha. some form of exercise although not much.
after that messed around with the comp and planned some layouts for the blog.
went to ying ying's godmother's house after that. had fruit cake and butter cake for dinner. really yummy. haha. sweet tooth. really enjoy eating sweet delicacies. haha. ate and ate. haha. really nice to meet up after so long. havent really visited her for very long. 4 years according to my mother. new year really gives people chance to meet up maybe. it's good. really glad to see everyone happy and well.
that's all for day 2 of cny. tomorrow everything will be back to normal and i'll be working. back to the boring days. life goes on ever again. will be missing out on class gatherings for new year. but well. no choice. i'll be working.
lots of people came to our place today. kind of lively. which is good. i rather spend new year at home. went on skype and we all greeted sis online through that. was rather happy to talk to her. she sounded better also. that last few times she sounded so sad that it makes us feel sad a little too. mum made lots of nice nice nice food. we seldom really have the chance to eat what she cooks now that her working hours are so long. really really nice. love the hotdog in ketchup. abalone. chicken. prawn. "shark's fin". yummy. celebrations indicate an indulgence in good food. eeks. gaining weight. haha. who cares. enjoy. will do things to get rid of those excess later. haha. gu gu came. ah lan ah yi came. margaret auntie came. jinglong came. xiao yi came. really really lots of people. haha. mum was the busiest. having to chat with them and then prepare food early in the morning while i was still sleeping. we all enjoyed the treat. helped to clear up when the guest all left. washed the dishes like mad. so many. eeks. even mopped the floor. haha. so long since i really did some housework. haha. some form of exercise although not much.
after that messed around with the comp and planned some layouts for the blog.
went to ying ying's godmother's house after that. had fruit cake and butter cake for dinner. really yummy. haha. sweet tooth. really enjoy eating sweet delicacies. haha. ate and ate. haha. really nice to meet up after so long. havent really visited her for very long. 4 years according to my mother. new year really gives people chance to meet up maybe. it's good. really glad to see everyone happy and well.
that's all for day 2 of cny. tomorrow everything will be back to normal and i'll be working. back to the boring days. life goes on ever again. will be missing out on class gatherings for new year. but well. no choice. i'll be working.
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
first day of chinese new year
like any other chinese new year, i get to wake up late. slept all the way to 10 plus. and also like any other chinese new year, i went to my grandma's house on day 1. took 198. journey was quite long that i felt really sleepy. haha. by the time i really started to fall asleep it is almost reaching the place. sigh.
at first was kind of bored at my grandma's place. cos most of the cousins werent there yet. so it's rather quite. only the adults playing mahjong. so i went online. met sis online and chat a little. when more people came, they actually took turns to chat with her. i hope that made you feel better, sis. in the end was rather bored. just took the camera and started snapping at my cute little cousins. tong tong was the star of the day la. most of the pics and videos that i took include her. haha. rather ok. at first some of us tried doing some brain stimulating games. jie lian huan in chinese. haha. try to get those loops or small parts off this crazy mess. haha. in the end, some of us played cards and tried to gamble in small amount. didnt win much. on my part. a few cents of game. haha. i am not ambitious. i rather not lose much. so well. haha. dont expect to win much either. haha. well. trying to pass time. i need more luck than that to win more if i want to. haha. then later just walked around. see people play tv games. watch tv. watch them play mahjong. chat with them. blah. nothing much to do really. only ate. played. stoned. haha. gaining weight. new year is rather a spoiler to dieting plans. lol. well. after new year. haha. continue to then.
got home at 9 plus and well. time to rest. enough for day 1. nothing much. new year is just the same. except this time there is no sis. i guess it would indeed be more fun with you around sis. when bored. we have things to talk. so we wont end up really stoning and roaming around the crowded place. :)
at first was kind of bored at my grandma's place. cos most of the cousins werent there yet. so it's rather quite. only the adults playing mahjong. so i went online. met sis online and chat a little. when more people came, they actually took turns to chat with her. i hope that made you feel better, sis. in the end was rather bored. just took the camera and started snapping at my cute little cousins. tong tong was the star of the day la. most of the pics and videos that i took include her. haha. rather ok. at first some of us tried doing some brain stimulating games. jie lian huan in chinese. haha. try to get those loops or small parts off this crazy mess. haha. in the end, some of us played cards and tried to gamble in small amount. didnt win much. on my part. a few cents of game. haha. i am not ambitious. i rather not lose much. so well. haha. dont expect to win much either. haha. well. trying to pass time. i need more luck than that to win more if i want to. haha. then later just walked around. see people play tv games. watch tv. watch them play mahjong. chat with them. blah. nothing much to do really. only ate. played. stoned. haha. gaining weight. new year is rather a spoiler to dieting plans. lol. well. after new year. haha. continue to then.
got home at 9 plus and well. time to rest. enough for day 1. nothing much. new year is just the same. except this time there is no sis. i guess it would indeed be more fun with you around sis. when bored. we have things to talk. so we wont end up really stoning and roaming around the crowded place. :)
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
chinese new year eve
finally the day arrived.
started the day off with gunbound in the middle of the night all the way till 5 am. didnt sleep the whole night. haha. ended up getting scolded by my mum and nagged at by my sis who doesnt like to be nagged at. well. i have a family of control freaks so well. had a little argument with my sis. kind of typical. we always have something to quarrel about during new year's eve. they always say it's a clash in our zodiacs. but well. who knows. this time about me using the computer the whole night. sigh.
anyway. went jogging right after a night of computer games. felt accomplished. did 6 rounds without stopping. woohoo. haha. first time. was so proud of myself. happy. i achieved something. looks like i can increase the number of rounds soon. haha. after that walked 2 rounds to slowly cool down although one was enough. haha. while i was running. saw some taf club people from rv having to go for morning jogs before assembly. those people arent jogging. haha. strolling to be exact. if only they have imposed that last time. haha. i can go for those and get really more into shape. lol. ^^
after that got home took a shower and went to pray at a temple. paid respects to my grandmother and father. and then got home. tried to do a bit of reading but somehow cant really concentrate much considering the fact that i havent slept for around 20 hours or so. haha. thought i could survive with caffeine as some stimulating drug. haha. i'm sure. haha. but well. in the end still took a nap for 1.5 hours before i get ready for tuition.
straight after tuition went to mandai to pay respects to my father. and then headed off for my maternal grandmother's place for reunion dinner. so many cousins, relatives there. really into the festive mood. atmosphere was great. helped a little in getting ready for the dinner. chat with my cousins. sis called at around 8 plus. took turns to chat to her. first time there's chinese new year without her around. sigh. miss you lots sis. would really be nice to have you around. ate lots of nice stuff. i was practically gorging myself with the pineapple tarts. haha. i am mad. gonna gain weight after all the celebration. haha. was quite bored and went to 7-11 to get slurpee and ice-cream. went to the mac donald's at the cc nearby to get mc flurry and drinks. haha. then went back. played cards and then came back home to get things in place. haha. now watching tv. in about half an hour's time it's chinese new year.
happy chinese new year to all. enjoy this wonderful break. :)
started the day off with gunbound in the middle of the night all the way till 5 am. didnt sleep the whole night. haha. ended up getting scolded by my mum and nagged at by my sis who doesnt like to be nagged at. well. i have a family of control freaks so well. had a little argument with my sis. kind of typical. we always have something to quarrel about during new year's eve. they always say it's a clash in our zodiacs. but well. who knows. this time about me using the computer the whole night. sigh.
anyway. went jogging right after a night of computer games. felt accomplished. did 6 rounds without stopping. woohoo. haha. first time. was so proud of myself. happy. i achieved something. looks like i can increase the number of rounds soon. haha. after that walked 2 rounds to slowly cool down although one was enough. haha. while i was running. saw some taf club people from rv having to go for morning jogs before assembly. those people arent jogging. haha. strolling to be exact. if only they have imposed that last time. haha. i can go for those and get really more into shape. lol. ^^
after that got home took a shower and went to pray at a temple. paid respects to my grandmother and father. and then got home. tried to do a bit of reading but somehow cant really concentrate much considering the fact that i havent slept for around 20 hours or so. haha. thought i could survive with caffeine as some stimulating drug. haha. i'm sure. haha. but well. in the end still took a nap for 1.5 hours before i get ready for tuition.
straight after tuition went to mandai to pay respects to my father. and then headed off for my maternal grandmother's place for reunion dinner. so many cousins, relatives there. really into the festive mood. atmosphere was great. helped a little in getting ready for the dinner. chat with my cousins. sis called at around 8 plus. took turns to chat to her. first time there's chinese new year without her around. sigh. miss you lots sis. would really be nice to have you around. ate lots of nice stuff. i was practically gorging myself with the pineapple tarts. haha. i am mad. gonna gain weight after all the celebration. haha. was quite bored and went to 7-11 to get slurpee and ice-cream. went to the mac donald's at the cc nearby to get mc flurry and drinks. haha. then went back. played cards and then came back home to get things in place. haha. now watching tv. in about half an hour's time it's chinese new year.
happy chinese new year to all. enjoy this wonderful break. :)
Monday, February 07, 2005
monday
2 days to chinese new year.
today started off as usual. i woke up really late cos i stayed up till 4 am last night meddling with my class blog. haha. woke up and went to order flowers for v day. hope i really fulfil my sis's command to help her give my mum this wonderful surprise on the day itself. i really hope it can cheer her up. sis's parcel have yet to reach though. i wonder why. sis. if you read this. please note it's just 2 days to 2 weeks since i have sent the parcel to you. so please make sure you get it around this time. the new year card should have reached. and also. i just sent out the file punch to you today. anticipate it. i sincerely hope things dont go wrong. haha.
after that went to tutor. just before tuition, i received sms from linda to ask if i would like to join them to go look around at chinatown. haha. of course i agreed. and cos of that i cancelled the jogging idea. seems like i am more than happy to do that. haha. gonna try make myself wake up tomorrow morning to get the jogging done. have to really be strict with myself this time.
during tuition, zc commented that i keep wearing that same white shirt. yes. i keep doing that. haha. i have a limited wardrobe. he cant seem to understand. haha. i am not rich and i dont really splurge on clothes or whatever. haha. wait for cny. i'll have 3 new t-shirts to add to my wardrobe. hmm. hope that can keep him quiet for long enough. he always have comments. haha. will get used to it soon. but anyway. i just need to keep with his comments for less than 5 months. who cares. haha.
went chinatown after that. chinatown as usual is crowded. the atmosphere was there. everything seems nice. i'm usually not that excited about new year. so it seems perfectly normal that i sound a little indifferent. haha. it's just well interesting to go looking around. haha. took some pictures of the lightings. really splendid. really nice and well i must say it really suits the festive mood although it's really red. red red red everywhere. haha. it's auspicious so let it be. haha. it looks nice also. so i dont really mind. haha. will post those pictures up on my photos when i got the time. so my sis and friends can take a look.
nothing much for today. just went on as yet another day. i am a boring person and i am bored of it. haha. but well. time pass. i rather go to school now.
today started off as usual. i woke up really late cos i stayed up till 4 am last night meddling with my class blog. haha. woke up and went to order flowers for v day. hope i really fulfil my sis's command to help her give my mum this wonderful surprise on the day itself. i really hope it can cheer her up. sis's parcel have yet to reach though. i wonder why. sis. if you read this. please note it's just 2 days to 2 weeks since i have sent the parcel to you. so please make sure you get it around this time. the new year card should have reached. and also. i just sent out the file punch to you today. anticipate it. i sincerely hope things dont go wrong. haha.
after that went to tutor. just before tuition, i received sms from linda to ask if i would like to join them to go look around at chinatown. haha. of course i agreed. and cos of that i cancelled the jogging idea. seems like i am more than happy to do that. haha. gonna try make myself wake up tomorrow morning to get the jogging done. have to really be strict with myself this time.
during tuition, zc commented that i keep wearing that same white shirt. yes. i keep doing that. haha. i have a limited wardrobe. he cant seem to understand. haha. i am not rich and i dont really splurge on clothes or whatever. haha. wait for cny. i'll have 3 new t-shirts to add to my wardrobe. hmm. hope that can keep him quiet for long enough. he always have comments. haha. will get used to it soon. but anyway. i just need to keep with his comments for less than 5 months. who cares. haha.
went chinatown after that. chinatown as usual is crowded. the atmosphere was there. everything seems nice. i'm usually not that excited about new year. so it seems perfectly normal that i sound a little indifferent. haha. it's just well interesting to go looking around. haha. took some pictures of the lightings. really splendid. really nice and well i must say it really suits the festive mood although it's really red. red red red everywhere. haha. it's auspicious so let it be. haha. it looks nice also. so i dont really mind. haha. will post those pictures up on my photos when i got the time. so my sis and friends can take a look.
nothing much for today. just went on as yet another day. i am a boring person and i am bored of it. haha. but well. time pass. i rather go to school now.
Sunday, February 06, 2005
deprived
deprived of sleep. woke up early on 2 consecutive days. early for me since now it's like a holiday for me although not quite. used to sleeping all the way till 11 plus on most days. 2 days waking up like 6 am and 8 am can be draining. now i am tired. work and things are slowly sipping my energy away. i seriously hope i can get pass 6 months of such kind of life.
have things planned up nicely for monday. now i am like packed up with small little things. going to order v.day gift for my mum in place of my sis who is still in atlanta. gonna buy some prayer's oil or something. gonna just be an errand girl. haha. then gonna make a trip down to ghim moh most probably to get the file punch mailed to my sis. and then gonna tutor zc. and then gonna push my jogging day forward to monday evening since the next day i'll be off gorging myself with new year goodies.
will be working even after chinese new year. and the thought seems to be a little scary come to think of it. haha. working 10 hours on fri. 8 on saturday. 9 on sunday. i gonna work hard and get as much money as i can. it's the one and only incentive i can think of for all the time i have been working. gonna make myself try save up lots. need to control my urge to splurge.
yea. deprived of cravings too. haha. have been thinking of coffee bean's ice blended pure choc. argh. awfully sinful. havent got down to getting it. cos the price is what i make myself hold back and stop indulging in those cravings. haha. well. hope that tmr will be better. :)
have things planned up nicely for monday. now i am like packed up with small little things. going to order v.day gift for my mum in place of my sis who is still in atlanta. gonna buy some prayer's oil or something. gonna just be an errand girl. haha. then gonna make a trip down to ghim moh most probably to get the file punch mailed to my sis. and then gonna tutor zc. and then gonna push my jogging day forward to monday evening since the next day i'll be off gorging myself with new year goodies.
will be working even after chinese new year. and the thought seems to be a little scary come to think of it. haha. working 10 hours on fri. 8 on saturday. 9 on sunday. i gonna work hard and get as much money as i can. it's the one and only incentive i can think of for all the time i have been working. gonna make myself try save up lots. need to control my urge to splurge.
yea. deprived of cravings too. haha. have been thinking of coffee bean's ice blended pure choc. argh. awfully sinful. havent got down to getting it. cos the price is what i make myself hold back and stop indulging in those cravings. haha. well. hope that tmr will be better. :)
Friday, February 04, 2005
early in the morning 6 o'clock
early in the morning 6 o'clock. pitter patter raindrops.... forgot the rest of the lyrics of that kiddy song that i learnt years back.
while. woke up early in the morning at 6 am today. a first time for 2005. no school yet and i dont have a 9 to 5 office job. so i dont usually get to wake up early. today morning woke up just to go jogging with ps. but well. she didnt quite get used to waking up early and so. late. haha. in the end we were jogging with those students from the primary school that came out for their school's morning jog. so funny. a huge batch of them and we had to avoid them. so funny. haha. good first attempt. next week will be better.
after that slacked a little at my house and that's why i came up with a new layout for my blog again. adjusted the positions and changed the pic again. finally get to learn a bit on how this whole thing comes about. haha. really html coding illerate.
later got to go work. start of my working weekend and i just hope that everything will be fine. and next week will be a break filled with fun and excitement for cny. cant wait to get ang bao. haha.
before i end. just sum up some things i did yesterday.
yesterday
slept till late late. online. tutored. then went harbourfront. got free goodies that came with my digicam purchase. shopped around harbourfront for a pouch for my digicam. fulfilled all those tasks and got home. nice sum up huh. i'm done.
while. woke up early in the morning at 6 am today. a first time for 2005. no school yet and i dont have a 9 to 5 office job. so i dont usually get to wake up early. today morning woke up just to go jogging with ps. but well. she didnt quite get used to waking up early and so. late. haha. in the end we were jogging with those students from the primary school that came out for their school's morning jog. so funny. a huge batch of them and we had to avoid them. so funny. haha. good first attempt. next week will be better.
after that slacked a little at my house and that's why i came up with a new layout for my blog again. adjusted the positions and changed the pic again. finally get to learn a bit on how this whole thing comes about. haha. really html coding illerate.
later got to go work. start of my working weekend and i just hope that everything will be fine. and next week will be a break filled with fun and excitement for cny. cant wait to get ang bao. haha.
before i end. just sum up some things i did yesterday.
yesterday
slept till late late. online. tutored. then went harbourfront. got free goodies that came with my digicam purchase. shopped around harbourfront for a pouch for my digicam. fulfilled all those tasks and got home. nice sum up huh. i'm done.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
camera
finally got my digicam. canon ixus 40. silver. slim. small. nice. but just without a pouch to keep it well. will have to go canon and see what i can get there to keep it nicely. since i'll have to make a trip down to some showroom to get the free 128MB sd card. haha. happy. at least something that isnt crappy. tuition wasnt that bad afterall considering that it's my payday and i'll have next week off due to chinese new year. will slowly get things into place. i really need to plan out my time nicely. learning. trying. making an effort. i just get pissed off and complain here sometimes. but i guess i'll have to manage it through still. somehow i will. argh.
now i have to read lots. i just got some student's vocabulary book from my student. reading it to learn more words so that i can teach her. gonna brush up my grammar too. gonna read the manual to operate my digicam. gonna finish reading those books that i borrowed from the library. gonna read as much as i can to try to know how to apply scholarships properly. gonna do reading. haha. i want to be more intellectual. :)
good luck to me. well at least i feel positive for a moment. :D
now i have to read lots. i just got some student's vocabulary book from my student. reading it to learn more words so that i can teach her. gonna brush up my grammar too. gonna read the manual to operate my digicam. gonna finish reading those books that i borrowed from the library. gonna read as much as i can to try to know how to apply scholarships properly. gonna do reading. haha. i want to be more intellectual. :)
good luck to me. well at least i feel positive for a moment. :D
crap
down on my luck. sigh. keep being "welcomed" by crap. now i've got to tuition today at 6 pm. changed back again but pushed the time later. now i cant make a trip down to my grandmother's place. i hope i better dont get even more crap later. i gonna start wrecking things if that happens. wonder what's wrong with these people these days. cant really figure out why they always have things that come in and just change as and when they like. it messes up my plans for the day. it messes up my mood. it messes up almost every other thing. argh. now the simlim people better have to stock for my digicam in today or i really will get super pissed off. will just call them up. i hope they are really good retailers. i dont want to make another wasted trip. i dont have time for those shit anymore.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
results
today i broke my own record and woke up the earliest for the whole of this year. wrote that in my last entry when i was so bored early in the morning. 7.36 am. argh. stupid mosquitoes. to think they would irritate me on the first day of february. sigh. tough luck.
in the end i broke another record and finished reading one of those books i borrowed from the library. still have one more week to finish the other 3. i am a failure at reading. most prob will just dump them back and borrow again when i got the chance to read. a rather interesting non-fiction book. but there seems to be so many issues on christainty being brought inside. sometimes i just dont feel the link and skipped through those verses that they mention. what's going wrong with me i wonder. those 3 more books are more of general knowledge ones and i think i really gonna take a long long time to get back to them. haha. due next week. i really wonder if i can do miracles again.
went chinatown again. this time with my younger sis after she ended school. she wanted to find out where i got those cds at those super affordable prices. first time i made myself go chinatown to look around near the chinese new year. since many years back, the crowded streets of chinatown during cny has really kept me away from it. this is the first time i really sort of enjoyed walking down a bit. maybe cos it was afternoon and it wasnt exactly crowded. went last year on learning journey with my class but well that was learning journey. haha.
after that got home to tutor zecheng. nothing much except the usual stuff. he's getting along quite fine so that isnt a problem. it's one of my blessing to have him as a student for the time being. unlike some others that really give me problems.
went jogging later in the evening just now. haha. i acutally went with an empty stomach. i guess it most probably wouldnt make much diff. but well. i skipped dinner. i am too lazy to whip something up to eat. anyway. made some improvements and i did 4 rounds without stopping. gonna make myself sustain more rounds next time. but sigh. i am not those kind that are super fit to be able to do many rounds without stopping. ok well. i did 4 rounds. stopped. walked for half ran 1 walked for half ran 1 and then walked one round. and home i went. was rather short of breath. but well. now i am fine. i hate being an asthma child. argh. not seriously down with it. but it really takes me some effort to do jogging. and i rather myself be really fit and healthy.
tmr gonna make a trip down to simlim to get digicam. no tuition so that's basically the task for the day. might end up running errands for my mum again. walking most probably to ghim moh again. argh. it will become the consecutive wednesday that i go ghim moh. last week was postman me. this week maybe just errand girl me. might shop for medicine. i need pi pa gao. haha. might even give myself a nice nice treat to hawker lunch at ghim moh. haha. 2 years in my school near there. lunch there would really be nice. i am now trying to control the amount of money i spend. gonna make myself keep up to 30 bucks till the 7th. i am not going to make use of my money still before new year. i want to save up lots. haha. chinese new year resolution. haha. maybe an in thing huh. :)
in the end i broke another record and finished reading one of those books i borrowed from the library. still have one more week to finish the other 3. i am a failure at reading. most prob will just dump them back and borrow again when i got the chance to read. a rather interesting non-fiction book. but there seems to be so many issues on christainty being brought inside. sometimes i just dont feel the link and skipped through those verses that they mention. what's going wrong with me i wonder. those 3 more books are more of general knowledge ones and i think i really gonna take a long long time to get back to them. haha. due next week. i really wonder if i can do miracles again.
went chinatown again. this time with my younger sis after she ended school. she wanted to find out where i got those cds at those super affordable prices. first time i made myself go chinatown to look around near the chinese new year. since many years back, the crowded streets of chinatown during cny has really kept me away from it. this is the first time i really sort of enjoyed walking down a bit. maybe cos it was afternoon and it wasnt exactly crowded. went last year on learning journey with my class but well that was learning journey. haha.
after that got home to tutor zecheng. nothing much except the usual stuff. he's getting along quite fine so that isnt a problem. it's one of my blessing to have him as a student for the time being. unlike some others that really give me problems.
went jogging later in the evening just now. haha. i acutally went with an empty stomach. i guess it most probably wouldnt make much diff. but well. i skipped dinner. i am too lazy to whip something up to eat. anyway. made some improvements and i did 4 rounds without stopping. gonna make myself sustain more rounds next time. but sigh. i am not those kind that are super fit to be able to do many rounds without stopping. ok well. i did 4 rounds. stopped. walked for half ran 1 walked for half ran 1 and then walked one round. and home i went. was rather short of breath. but well. now i am fine. i hate being an asthma child. argh. not seriously down with it. but it really takes me some effort to do jogging. and i rather myself be really fit and healthy.
tmr gonna make a trip down to simlim to get digicam. no tuition so that's basically the task for the day. might end up running errands for my mum again. walking most probably to ghim moh again. argh. it will become the consecutive wednesday that i go ghim moh. last week was postman me. this week maybe just errand girl me. might shop for medicine. i need pi pa gao. haha. might even give myself a nice nice treat to hawker lunch at ghim moh. haha. 2 years in my school near there. lunch there would really be nice. i am now trying to control the amount of money i spend. gonna make myself keep up to 30 bucks till the 7th. i am not going to make use of my money still before new year. i want to save up lots. haha. chinese new year resolution. haha. maybe an in thing huh. :)
argh
look at the damn time now. 7.46 am. for goodness' sake. was woken 15 minutes ago simply because the mosquito bites on me are unbearable. got bitten by mosquitoes with 3 bites on my right leg, 2 on each hand. was itching like mad that i woke up and scratch myself and now i realised that i cant get back to sleep with the itch irritating me. stupid bugs. to think that i had only got into bed 3 hours and 46 minutes before now. i didnt really get quite a good sleep. wonder why. woke up a little to find myself at 6 plus cos i saw my younger sis combing her hair and getting ready to go to school. didnt check the time and fell back to sleep again. within that short period of time i got all those super itchy mosquito bites and now i am awake, not knowing what i can do at such an early hour in the morning. argh. freakingly stupid.
running out of
- ideas to write in my blog -
nothing new has been happening. i realised that what i have been doing is getting routinal. working and tutoring. that's why for some days i didnt add any new entries. i seriously hope more nice things come up so that i have things to write here instead of the same old stuff. i need something refreshing.
- cash -
went to sim lim square today to try get myself a digicam. however. went to shop and was told that that model is out of stock. sigh. no luck. tough luck. gonna have to make another trip down myself on wednesday i think to try and get it. hate it. means i gonna waste money on travelling again. getting the digicam would mean an amount cut off from my savings account. and i'll have to slowly put the money back into the bank once i get my pay. gonna do that by monthly instalments. gonna really have to scrimp and save a bit for the next few months. i want to really save a fair sum of money from all the work that i have been doing. well in the end got the memory stick first instead since managed to get it at another store. might as well save the trouble and i'll just get the digicam on wednesday. i am really hopelessly blur at these electronic gadgets. well spent 99 bucks. argh. now i really need to save save save. going mad about it. haha. although i am really fine with the price considering that it's a 512MB high speed sd card. well. but well i dont feel that good about wasting too much money. will have to put the money back in slowly when i got the money.
also went to look around at bugis after that. got myself a precious moment cross-stitch set. gonna try and get it done. sis, you have been wanting some precious moment cross-stitch. i got myself one. will try sew it really nicely and then it's yours as a gift. haha. no promise yet cos i dont know how it'll turn out. i try and make it really really nice. i hope you'll like it. that spent me some money. but i guess i am still in good control of the way i spend.
- time -
suddenly i realised it's so difficult to plan out my time. making me feels as if i am really really busy with things. well. my students are trying to change their tuition timings and it's really giving me a huge headache. i seem to be running out of the patience to be really nice and accommodate them. i really feel like giving up on one of them. argh. cant mention the name here i guess. i want to. but i cant. simply cos my mum knows the person's mother. she's giving me a lot of problems. either being late. or now even cutting the lesson's time and i still have to make it up some other time. argh. i really hate this. and today even got a message from her to change the tuition days. and now i have to re-schedule my time. and now i have to go down to her place again. i really getting sick and tired of it. now on my wednesday i have to tutor another student who happens to live around the same area as her from 3 to 5 and after that go to her place to tutor. most prob from 5.30 to 7.30 or maybe 6 to 8. who knows. argh. and gosh. i gonna take more than an hour to get home. this is very very freaking. and i really cant help but think that it's really gonna wear me out any time. but there's no other days that i can fit time in for her perfectly. major headache and i hate this. somemore it isnt exactly easy to teach her. argh. i am really really troubled over this and getting really stressed up by this.
now monday i tutor 5 to 6.30. tuesday 5 to 6.30. wednesday 3 to 5 and maybe 5.30 to 7.30 in 2 weeks time. thursday 3 to 4.30. and fridays to sundays work! gosh. i hate this kind of life. i rather have a job that takes up hours of time each day but i have at least one free day to myself. i dont even have it now. it seems slack to most people. my mum thinks that i have so much and enough time at home. but personally. i am beginning to think that it's really hard to plan my time in properly with all these indecisive people. argh. damn stressed.
- control -
i am getting more and more moody maybe. i just feel irritated. i try my best to plan everything such that i am in control and have time to myself and enjoy this break that i have. i am trying to be happy. to really enjoy what it is like to earn money for myself and get to spend it the way i will like and enjoy it. but somehow screwed up people come in and screwed up my life. i really get very pissed off by the fact that they just come in and mess things up for me. sometimes my mum does that unknowingly. i cant do anything but sigh and try do what i can. my tuition students does that to me too. but i cant flare up at them simply they have their reasons and even if they dont. i really dont know how to put it to make them understand the situation i am in and how desparate i need time to myself to handle my own life and not having them interfere. they wont be bothered about it and i doubt they care. some students really dont give me problems. but i can say one person giving you problems is already equivalent to giving you hell. argh. at the rate i am going and i just can vent my frustrations on those idiots. i am really going to explode within me. i really wonder what i am going to do for the next few months as i continue on. before i stop working. what's going to happen i really wonder.
nothing new has been happening. i realised that what i have been doing is getting routinal. working and tutoring. that's why for some days i didnt add any new entries. i seriously hope more nice things come up so that i have things to write here instead of the same old stuff. i need something refreshing.
- cash -
went to sim lim square today to try get myself a digicam. however. went to shop and was told that that model is out of stock. sigh. no luck. tough luck. gonna have to make another trip down myself on wednesday i think to try and get it. hate it. means i gonna waste money on travelling again. getting the digicam would mean an amount cut off from my savings account. and i'll have to slowly put the money back into the bank once i get my pay. gonna do that by monthly instalments. gonna really have to scrimp and save a bit for the next few months. i want to really save a fair sum of money from all the work that i have been doing. well in the end got the memory stick first instead since managed to get it at another store. might as well save the trouble and i'll just get the digicam on wednesday. i am really hopelessly blur at these electronic gadgets. well spent 99 bucks. argh. now i really need to save save save. going mad about it. haha. although i am really fine with the price considering that it's a 512MB high speed sd card. well. but well i dont feel that good about wasting too much money. will have to put the money back in slowly when i got the money.
also went to look around at bugis after that. got myself a precious moment cross-stitch set. gonna try and get it done. sis, you have been wanting some precious moment cross-stitch. i got myself one. will try sew it really nicely and then it's yours as a gift. haha. no promise yet cos i dont know how it'll turn out. i try and make it really really nice. i hope you'll like it. that spent me some money. but i guess i am still in good control of the way i spend.
- time -
suddenly i realised it's so difficult to plan out my time. making me feels as if i am really really busy with things. well. my students are trying to change their tuition timings and it's really giving me a huge headache. i seem to be running out of the patience to be really nice and accommodate them. i really feel like giving up on one of them. argh. cant mention the name here i guess. i want to. but i cant. simply cos my mum knows the person's mother. she's giving me a lot of problems. either being late. or now even cutting the lesson's time and i still have to make it up some other time. argh. i really hate this. and today even got a message from her to change the tuition days. and now i have to re-schedule my time. and now i have to go down to her place again. i really getting sick and tired of it. now on my wednesday i have to tutor another student who happens to live around the same area as her from 3 to 5 and after that go to her place to tutor. most prob from 5.30 to 7.30 or maybe 6 to 8. who knows. argh. and gosh. i gonna take more than an hour to get home. this is very very freaking. and i really cant help but think that it's really gonna wear me out any time. but there's no other days that i can fit time in for her perfectly. major headache and i hate this. somemore it isnt exactly easy to teach her. argh. i am really really troubled over this and getting really stressed up by this.
now monday i tutor 5 to 6.30. tuesday 5 to 6.30. wednesday 3 to 5 and maybe 5.30 to 7.30 in 2 weeks time. thursday 3 to 4.30. and fridays to sundays work! gosh. i hate this kind of life. i rather have a job that takes up hours of time each day but i have at least one free day to myself. i dont even have it now. it seems slack to most people. my mum thinks that i have so much and enough time at home. but personally. i am beginning to think that it's really hard to plan my time in properly with all these indecisive people. argh. damn stressed.
- control -
i am getting more and more moody maybe. i just feel irritated. i try my best to plan everything such that i am in control and have time to myself and enjoy this break that i have. i am trying to be happy. to really enjoy what it is like to earn money for myself and get to spend it the way i will like and enjoy it. but somehow screwed up people come in and screwed up my life. i really get very pissed off by the fact that they just come in and mess things up for me. sometimes my mum does that unknowingly. i cant do anything but sigh and try do what i can. my tuition students does that to me too. but i cant flare up at them simply they have their reasons and even if they dont. i really dont know how to put it to make them understand the situation i am in and how desparate i need time to myself to handle my own life and not having them interfere. they wont be bothered about it and i doubt they care. some students really dont give me problems. but i can say one person giving you problems is already equivalent to giving you hell. argh. at the rate i am going and i just can vent my frustrations on those idiots. i am really going to explode within me. i really wonder what i am going to do for the next few months as i continue on. before i stop working. what's going to happen i really wonder.
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