drained

been really busy these few days.
and i just got back from battlefield.
haha. sounds really exaggerated.
but well. i have never realised that agms can be that freaky.

time to reflect on what i've landed myself into.
horrid horrid horrid.
i'm stressed.
but well. stress is motivation in some form.
my goal - to meet the deadlines and shut people's mouths from complaining.
seriously, not that i say there isnt any problem.
but i really want to do something about the problem.
since i've already got myself into some shit.
haha.
i wouldnt want to sink deeper.

been really deprived of sleep these few days.
almost couldnt wake up for tuesday and wednesday class.
gosh. thanks to linda. i could make it for class.
i couldnt be awakened by my alarm. so she had to help wake me up.
gosh. really. thanks.
and cos of my meetings that take up hours, she's there to help out.
my my.

gonna have to begin a shit schedule.
activities, school, tutoring.
juggle juggle juggle.
man, by end of uni, i'll be some pro.

haha. lalala.
whatever it is. gonna have to make it through.
nonetheless, i appreciate the sweet things in life.
tutoring can be shag.
but really lovely to receive something from my student today. a notebook. but still a really really sweet gesture. and of course, sms from another one.
:)
zhien gonna chiong and make it through!

tough luck

finally got something to do on my weekend.
at first planned to go ice-skating with cheryl, winnie and shirley.
havent ice-skated before so thought no harm trying.
but end up the rink is closed early today at 7.30 cos of some thing they organising there.
sigh. no luck.

end up deciding to go play pool at bukit timah. so took bus all the way down.
was dozing off on the bus la. how anti-social.
bleh.

then found the place. end up no table yet so put on waiting list.
then walked around. cos got nothing to do, went walking around courts, which was kind of lame.
but well. at least that passed time.
then got contacted and wanted to go play le.
end up they didnt allow us to play cos of age limit.
sigh.

after that thought of going to elsewhere to play.
ended up in paradiz there playing.
played for one plus hour i think.

wasted quite a fair bit of time cos no luck and end up walking around.
but after that got home.

well. so long since i met them. kind of good to catch up i guess.
although like dont know what to say.
but well, who ask me so anti-social last time.
bleh.

whatever. back to chionging tutorials. hopefully i can really get things done.
i am super unproductive during weekends.
major weekend slacker weekday mugger zhien!

lovely

one week pass again.
time is passing.
break is drewing near.
which also means more things are setting in.
and exam dates are coming nearer too.

had a really busy week.
since sunday night, i havent been able to sleep earlier than 2 am.
last night was the latest. although there isnt classes today.
slept at 4 am. but well. at least got 6 hours of sleep.

next week gonna be a busy week too.
monday gonna have a graded presentation.
hope i get pass that. it's gonna be so freaking.
sigh.

my quest for this weekend is to finish up my tutorials for the coming week.
5 modules of tutorials. already down with 3. [by skipping some that i really cant do]
gonna have to chiong them all since i'm not gonna have time to do them on the weekday nights.
sigh. this is so stressing.

deprived.
need to go out and really have some fun.
dont really want to be stuck with "business" all the time.
school. project. school activities.
sigh. my life cant revolve around all these.

and i received this nokia newsletter today.
find the phone rather lovely.
dont know la. others may not agree. i have lousy taste.
haha.
very samsung like.
but i think it suits what i have in mind.
nokia phone. cos i very used to it.
flip phone. hehe.
silver in colour. lala.
but also dont really know if the features are that good.
haha.
but well. time to dream and hope to get it before i get deterred from getting it.

lazy

the laziness is getting into me.
gosh.
very tired.
4 consecutive nights sleeping later than 2 am.
only had around 4 hours plus of sleep for the previous night.

met up early in the morning with the group to get things done.
then end up having to miss the 10.30 am lecture.
i feel so damn shit.
miss lecture later dont understand what is going on.
it's super crap.
alamak.
help me la.

now i'm so tired.
losing the momentum to do anything.
but i'll need to start doing tutorials for next week cos i'll be so busy for the next week to do them.
argh. gosh.
some divine powers please help me.

bleh.

school's in

back in school.
chionging ever again.
things are starting to get busy and i really hate the way my schedule is packed to the max.

been getting rather stressed out by a group written report that is due on thursday this week at 1 pm. (see how precise the deadline is? gosh!)
currently, the word count still hangs way above the word limit and i wonder how much can be slashed.
and my group mates have yet to give me the latest copy of the written report, which really worries me.
want to try to start cutting down on the words but i simply cant cos i dont have the latest one.

came back to hall on sunday and have already been called to a meeting.
starting to feel like i'm some regular.
really funny lor. as if 随传随到 like that. on 24-hour alert.
so had to attend a hall meeting from 11.30 pm all the way till 2 am.
end up sleeping only at 2 plus.

monday had a totally horrid day.
started having group discussion at 9 am for the written report thing.
then went for class at from 10.30 am to 2.30 pm.
then continued with group discussion which end up didnt achieving much.
then had another discussion with another group for the presentation for wednesday (tmr).
argh. after that then finally got a break.
had dinner then slack around a bit.
joined in inter-wing games. played floorball. haha.
so long since i played that.
so dumb. tripped over an opponent's stick and fell. how totally embarrassing.
cos our game was scheduled at 12 am, ended up sleeping at 2 plus AGAIN.

today.
had class early at 8.30 am.
today is a rather short day of school so i guess it was not that bad.
after class. went to play badminton with sis till 2. after that lunched with her at canteen 2.
went for group discussion AGAIN (omg) at 3 pm. then spent 3 hours going through the whole report. organising the ideas and slashing out unnecessary parts.
till it was 6 pm. ended up with a slightly lower word count but a rather organised report.
hopefully tmr can get things done soon. i'm so freaked out.
have enough of all these liao.
it's sickening to meet up and meet up and meet up and not get sthg productive.
argh.
*bang head*
after that had a meeting to discuss hall stuff. had to help out a bit.
came back to room.
was supposed to do cleaning up. but well, we pushed it back AGAIN.
went jogging around certain parts of the campus with linda.
quite bad ah. so long nvr follow my jogging routine, become highly unhealthy.
gosh.
now waiting for laundry stuff to be done.
gonna have to sleep at 2 plus am AGAIN.

3 consecutive nights. tmr might just be the 4th.
cos the deadline of the written report.
and i have tutorials for thursday to complete before i sleep.
gonna be late by the time i get back to hall from tutoring. sigh.
this is so crap.

stress. squeezed dry of time.

bleh. i'm ranting like mad.
lalalalalala.

weekend

a joy to get back home. bum around during the weekends.
i'm making it a point to finish as much of my schoolwork on friday before i get home.
such that when i'm home i really get to enjoy every minute and second of it.

when i got back. finally got to see the little surprise that ying had for me.
really sweet of her to have written a note for me.
thanks girl.
i was so happy to read it la.
girl! i brought the note to hostel. will read it when i feel like it. again and again.

it's wonderful.
i finally got chance to catch up with animes.
caught eps 145 and 146 of naruto after so long.
and watched so much of gundam seed destiny that i've practically exhausted the eps that i have.
gonna have to get more of them.
:)

and finally got to eat at nydc.
went with sis.
lovely meal.
had mushroom ham baked pasta. yummy delicious!
and cream of mushroom was the soup of the day. and i must say the cream of mushroom is so so so splendid. gosh.
too bad we both were so full to get the great desserts. hehe. some other time la.
gonna have to work out all those that i have taken in la. :(
but still. i've managed to satisfy my own craving. hehe.

and mum baked fish fillet for me. so nice of her.
now i seem like to be so pampered.
getting back home. mum would make nice things if she can.
both ying and her who really wouldnt get to see me till the weekends would really be nice to make my weekend really good.

the pleasures of having a really wonderful family.
i like the way they care for me.
i guess in this world. they are the rare few who would really care from deep down within.
sis, ying and mum. love ya lots!
thanks for the wonderful weekend!

now planning how to put photos in my room. hehe. i want pics of my family!

my list of hunks!

hehe. some crappy entry that i thought of.
it's gonna sound super bimbotic. lalala.
in no order of merit ok?
i just think they are amazing anime characters!

hunk#1

my my my.
look at that super duper nice looking smile.
he's edward. edward elric from full metal alchemist.
well. he is the full metal alchemist.
damn cool. he's super good at alchemy. talented soul.
my my. should see the way he performs alchemy without having to draw a transmutation circle.
how lovely. how cool. how damn shiok.
*screams*
those who watch full metal alchemist would definitely agree with me that he's good at alchemy and definitely is a good brother! oh my. how wonderful he is.

hunk#2

next up is roy mustang. another character from fma.
my my. a total ladies-magnet in the show. and he really is.
so cool. he's the flame alchemist. like ed, he's another state alchemist.
but he's indeed really really cool. cos his rank is super high. gets his promotion like nobody's business.
colonel mustang! ahhhhhhhh.
he looks forever damn cool.
and of course, he's smart. brains and all.
the calibre.
*faints*

hunk#3

please for goodness sake dont ask me who this is.
i'll whack you.
obviously it is naruto! uzumaki naruto. lalala.
the best ninja in his team in my opinion. haha. i think he's better than sasuke. sry those sasuke fans. but well, i'm biased. i like him better.
and simply cos of that. i didnt include sasuke in my entry. haha.
but well. naruto is really one cheeky fellow. really very funny guy.
he's good at his ninja techniques although he forever takes long to learn them.
but watching so much eps right, cant help it. the heart will melt when you see him try so hard.
aiyo. he's such a dear thing.
and his determination - cant help but be impressed.
he's definitely one guy that makes good his promise!

hunk#4

*scream scream and more screams*
athrun zala. one of the characters in gundam seed and gundam seed destiny.
my my. a really damn good co-ordinator.
pilot of aegis. then pilot of justice. pilot of saviour.
all 3 are red mobile suits. and he looks really suave in them.
he's really good with them.
although at times i feel he can be so dumb that i feel like whacking him on the head. haha.
but well. it's just part of the show.
and yeap. nonetheless, he's still cool and talented.
fantastic friend.
*drools*

hunk#5

another really cool co-ordinator.
kira yamato.
pilot of strike. after that piloted freedom.
a total genius. even athrun can be defeated by him.
he's created to be an elite co-ordinator.
really good with the gundam. he was able to change the operating system of his own mobile suit such that no one else but him can pilot it.
and he came up with the os for other mobile suits such that naturals can use them and then end up producing the same kind of powerful effect like a co-ordinator.
a guy driven by strong emotions. sometimes rather indecisive.
but still. he's one impressive dude when on the gundam.
*wooooooooooo*

that's my list for now. 5 interesting hunks in my opinion.
they are cool. suave. totally awesome.
haha.
dumb entry but well. just for fun! :)
my own pleasure that is.

it's a matter of choice

I think that somehow, we learn who we really are and then live with that decision.

~ Eleanor Roosevelt ~

in life, we all have to make decisions.

whatever it can be.

to choose which path to take.

to choose which school to go to.

to choose which career to take up.

to choose which country to visit during that short period of holiday.

to choose the friends around us.

to choose to be with the special someone or not.

things like that.

simple things even. they all require us to decide.

honestly, i must admit that it is never a simple process.

to come up with a decision.

it takes a lot.

first, to think of the choices you have. what are the pros and cons.

then, to imagine what you would end up with for each of the choice you have.

afterwhich, to ponder if you would start to be upset over not choosing the other. the regrets.

following that, coming to a decision after being very worn out thinking so much.

next, starting to think that if you have ended up with a wrong choice.

and then, crying over it cos there's no way to turn back time to change the decision made.

some may rejoice for having made a choice they are happy about.

but we always dont know.

we always never ever know for sure what the future holds.

what is the right choice? what then is the wrong choice?

who can tell? right or wrong?

for one, what is right to someone may be sthg that is wrong. so who says.

"you've made a right choice."

you can only tell that to yourself.

upsetting isnt it. that life like this sucks to the core.

i feel weak.

weak cos i dont have the ability to help determine what is right.

if only i can tell.

but if i can tell. i would be dictating the rules of this world. cos i can simply tell every single soul on this earth. this is right. that is right. no, that's wrong.

i cant. for i am weak. but i crave for that power. the ability. yet.

nothing comes free.

for one, i know i am no saint.

i know that i cant decide.

decisions are determine by the self.

i've made decisions for myself most of the time.

i cant say that i am sure i have never ever regret any of those that i have made.

sometimes, deep in my heart, i have mumbled so many times "if only"

regrets. i am living with them.

but whatever it is. life goes on. regrets or not. they just follow you that's all.

following doesnt mean i cant move on. cos it's easy.

human beings can be forgetful people.

it's easy to escape. to cast aside the regrets temporary. to cast them in a hidden dark corner where no one really can discover.

to run and hide till the day that regret surfaces again. till then, there'll be a way to face it.

of course, it may seem cowardly to hide.

but they are solace. in my opinion. i dont mind hiding.

if it's the way i can move on. i'll hide the regrets. bury them deep down in this pit within my heart, my mind.

then i'll supress them with whatever comes new.

it's hard to decide.

then live with it.

it's easy to say. but it's hard to put it to action.

i've made decisions i still cant really live with. but it's a choice i've made. and i am trying to convince myself that with time to come, i'll be able to smile and tell myself that it's a tough journey but i've proven that my choice was right.

whatever it is.

time is a factor. whether that day comes we'll cry again, or we'll smile.

it'll come. till then. that's another thing to consider again.

decisions. i cant tell you what to do.

sry. if only i can.

i only hope that you'll be able to move on.

with whatever that decision is.

please do. be happy. cos i think that's all it matters.

the going might be tough. but it isnt the first time you've braved it all.

please. whatever it is. my shoulder is here for you to lean on.

i sincerely hope that there'll be smiles. among those tears.

and there'll be the sunshine after the rain.

It is our choices...that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.

~ J. K. Rowling ~

childish craze

yahoo!
finally got down to watching a movie in the cinema.
watched valiant today with sis at jp after her class.

last night siewling came over to bum around in the hostel.
piggy me end up sleeping until i didnt join her and linda for breakfast. lala.
but today was good.

had meeting in school.
after which nothing else. basically my fridays are rather free.
so it's good.

so went cinema at jp to watch valiant.
kawaii.
so cute so cute.
i like the animation.
and it sounds so military. so cute so cute!
i love cartoons. i love anime.
omg.
hehe. and bought nachos to eat! lalala. cheesy cheese cheese.
the only thing that was embarrassing was that i tripped over the steps while trying to get to my seat in the cinema.
the right knee still hurts a little. but well. i felt quite dumb.
yet another fantastic stunt of mine.
could hear those people seating near the aisle where i tripped giggling la.
sigh.
nonetheless. good thing is the cinema is dark enough.
dont think most people can recognise me and that they'll bother to.
haha. so still enjoyed the movie.

after that shopped around.
and i got myself a disney tee from giordano.
oh man. i like i like. i like a lot.
but each is like 20 bucks.
kind of broke for now.
shall buy one or two more when i get my next pay.
ah ah ah.
so cute so cute.

man i sound deprived of my childhood.
getting so excited over cartoons and disney.
lala. but who cares. they are so lovely.
whatever it is.
i'm lovin' it. (hehe.)

t-rust

Never trust anything that can think for itself if you can't see where it keeps its brain.

~ J. K. Rowling ~

woke up with a horrid dream.
i wouldnt say it's a nightmare as yet.
the shocking factor wasnt there. i didnt wake up in a shock.

but it was horrid enough.
i wonder how in the short time span of an hour, i could have such images in my mind.

in the dream,
there was this group of foreigners that my mum brought around singapore.
and the particular scene was that i ended up having to show this group a place to buy things.
in the end, they turned out to be thieves. stole from the place.
i was observing them and kind of predicted that they had done sthg bad before they left the place and the alarm rang.
frantic me was running as fast as i can. screaming for my mum to see if she's around.
ended up boarding a bus, which i somehow assumed got me home.
called my mum on the phone and was like screaming into the mouthpiece.
was crying and crying blaming her for putting me alone with a bunch of thieves.
then i was telling her how scared i was. and to think the only thing i could even think of in my dreams was my studies. i was rattling on and on about if i get caught i would most probably blemish my records and what will happen to my studies and all.
before the whole dream ended,
i landed up at this mrt station, somehow, i was supposed to be taking a bus.
at there, there was policemen around waiting to arrest me or sthg.
after that i woke up.

sounds like some dumb dream.
but i was totally freaked out.
close to tears but got back to reality.

thinking about it.
i wonder. what if i really were to end up in a fairly similar kind of situation.
who were the people i want very much to trust that i have done nothing wrong.
who are those who really will trust that i have one nothing wrong.
who i can trust.

in a sense, i did trust the bunch of people in my dreams until they stole.
how then do i know who to trust.
and not end up with a misplaced trust?
in life, who is it that we can trust?
indeed, in order to be trusted, we must trust.
but what happens when your trust is betrayed?
i wonder how i will deal with it.

anger?
what can anger do when you land up in this situation where the misplaced trust puts you in a place of no return?
anger would only be sthg you bring along with you, and you think of how much you hate the person. and of course, how much you hate yourself to have trusted.

forgive and forget?
often easier said than done.
how sadly, it is easier if you can forgive. but can you really forget?
what about the trust you can no longer put in that person?
doesnt that mean you havent forgotten?
simply cos what happened previously that you can forget, you cant trust the person anymore. isnt it so?

smile and live with it?
sounds like some indifferent person.
is it that easy to even smile?
what more live with it?
a mistake made. in a sense.
smile and tell yourself not to make it again?
then continue on with life?
sounds like the ideal.
but how to not make such a mistake again?
there isnt anything called trust level detector as yet in this world.
lie detector?
a person who might not lie, can still be someone you cant trust.

how then?
cant think of other reactions to this.
really. i wonder.
how much it takes to start learning to trust.
how much it takes to then take bold steps to trust.
how much it takes to fix a broken heart, when the trust is misplaced.
how much it takes to start all over again.

right now, i dont have that kind of strength. mental strength.
i dont have that kind of ability to trust anyone that much.
i dont have the confidence in someone to the extent that i can say. "this person isnt like that. i trust him/her." if that day that requires it should come.
yet, i have people whom i want to be able to trust me.
sounds like sthg too much to ask for.
i wonder. how i can start.
to trust so that i can be trusted.

tension

i'm tired. yet i am stressed out at the same time.
tutorials for next week that i have to chiong.
and of course, the written group assignment that is due next week.
so many things to do. it seems.
i am kind of worn out.
today had 5 hours of class followed by 3 hours of group discussion for the project.
now i am so so brain-drained. and now i am so tired.
as i am doing my assignment, i'm beginning to doze off.
yet i have to tell myself that i have to manage through cos i simply dont have the time to take a break.

my my.
i wonder how i am going to manage my school modules.
i am beginning to not understand a lot of what is being taught.
this is how damn shit.
i feel dumb. and i hate myself for being unable to understand the concepts.
it's stressing.
argh.
messed up.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
how can i get things done. and get sleep at the same time.
sleepwalk?
sigh.

sleepy

been sleeping like a pig these few days.
for the past 2 days i almost couldnt wake up for class.
thanks to linda whom i woke up with my alarm, which was meant to wake me up.
sigh. i guess i am slowly getting used to sleeping on the bed here.
so much so that i sleep to the extent of not wanting to get up.
gosh.

classes starting soon at 10.30 am.
gonna be a long day ahead.
hehe. smuggle food into class cos i've got a straight5 hours of classes.
so lunch is practically gone.
gonna have group discussion for my assignment due next week after that.
gosh. i'm so going to be dead.

yesterday had voting for jcrc.
haha. how funny.
i've got my voting rights as a student in the hall.
lalala.
it was kind of dumb.
the bunch of us were laughing as we got out of the voting room.

hostel life - so far so good.
i'm rather stressed out cos of the workload in school.
often said that university is slack. but i dont really feel like it is.
maybe cos i try to make an effort to do all my tutorials although the teachers dont check through them.
today shall gonna come back and start chionging my tutorials for next week. so that i'll give myself time for the assignments due and then relax.

lalala. i'm dying to do sthg more fun and exciting.

entry #200

the 200th post.
man. this blog has come a long way.
more like this blog had contained loads of rubbish.
and i have no intention of stopping my "throwing junk" habit.
haha.

basically.
here comes more crap.
lalala~

today. as usual. school.
but i'm so happy.
done with my tutorial for the week.
ahhh. i'm so happy. proud of myself man.
now can work on the project.
and then start chionging for the tutorials again for next week.
sigh. life's like that for school.
so far still making a point to do tutorials i guess.
but most prob might give up when more stuff other than schoolwork starts coming in.
i certainly do not hope i become that slack.
haha.
afterall my rice bowl depends on this years later.

finally tried taking the shuttlebus around campus today.
and got close to seeing what my new hall will be like.
man, it's gonna be far from the academic block. which means more walking.
but well. the shuttlebus thing is rather convenient if not for the fact that the frequency can be quite low.

today. finally got down to doing some exercise.
i've been such a lazy bum ever since i got into hostel.
played badminton with sis in school after class today.
lala. i love badminton.
at least running while playing isnt as boring as just jogging around.
in my opinion that is.
now that the racket is in the hall, i guess i should make as much use of it as i can.

then went to help sis for her project.
had to be her model for photojourn. haha.
so dumb. picked a bad model.
lalala. basically i sit there and smile to my very best.
i guess only minority of the shots turned out satisfactory.
haha. i'm seriously not cut out to be a model.
smile a while then cannot take it already.
haha. and of course, the looks dont meet the requirements.
but whatever. haha.

here are the pics. lala. rather nice yet me not that nice. haha.

well. not a bad day.
hall jcrc having rally soon.
wonder if i should go down and listen.
i can just vote without listening to those speeches i guess.
since there are some seniors that i know of.
sigh. lazy bum lazy bum.

there goes my entry #200.
total crap.
haha.

expect more crap.

such a sweet little thing

here are some pics that i took when i was at my aunt's place to celebrate my cousin's 3rd birthday.

she's such a sweet little thing.

although she can get really hyper and playful at times.

she's still so loveable!

this is a picture my sisters and i took with the birthday girl. :)

my my. i like this little cousin of mine. so kawaii.

hmm. i also like the soft toy belonging to my cousin! hehe. she has such a cute winnie the pooh bear soft toy!

parting

Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, That I shall say good night till it be morrow.

~ William Shakespeare ~

a chinese saying goes 天下无不散之筵席 (tian1 xia4 wu2 bu2 san4 zhi1 yan3 xi2).

indeed. there's time where we go separate ways.

there'll come to one day where we'll have to part.

sent off 2 of my jc classmates today.

they're most probably on the plane now still.

and i've only got about 1 hour of sleep ever since i've got home.

now it is. in different places.

they are now flying somewhere among the clouds. somewhere in the other part of this world.

and now, i'm back to where i've always been. home. staying here for as long as i can until there comes a time where i'll leave this place for a period of time. someday.

i hate parting scenes.

i'm not one who tears in front of people.

yet at these situations, i'll feel the tears coming out of my eyes.

and i'll have to try my very best to hold back tears.

cos i've always thought that crying is sthg that's contagious.

to say i feel nothing having these 2 friends leaving would be lying.

afterall, they've been people who really created fond memories of my jc life.

as i look back, they would have made a difference. to me. and to the class.

they've been people i worked with not just for class stuff. but also on other occasions.

sending them off. i was wondering if i ever made it to going on an exchange.

such kind of scenarios will happen again.

i wonder if i'll be able to take it.

to be like lindy, walking through the departure gate and then taking bold steps to face whatever is going to come.

although we know that there'll be a time when they'll be back for occasional visits. but. who can be certain when will the next earliest meeting be?

no one can tell.

to be able to be like the 2 of them, leaving behind certain things that they've been so much used to throughout their lives.

i wonder how much strength that needs.

parting. when will the next meeting be?

good-bye for now. when will be the next "hey" "hi" "yo".

well, they might just come back with "what's up?" instead.

how much will we all move on?

how much will things change?

how much would we all have learnt with the time that passed?

the group is getting smaller and smaller as we all move on. progress. and get to where we've always dreamt of reaching.

the next bunch of people is going to leave some time soon. time flies. it's gonna be soon.

how much longer can i hold back the tears and smile and wave and wish them all the best?

if parting is part and parcel of life.

i guess i just have to start getting used to the way things are.

whatever it is.

i'll be looking forward to the day when it's the meeting after the parting.

We only part to meet again.

~ John Gay ~

my 2nd airport stayover

now sitting in pacific coffee company.
i've just finished a tall cup of chocolate chillino.
what a thing to drink early in the morning.

i've been at the airport for close to 9 hours.
havent really caught a wink.
so i guess my thoughts are gonna be super incoherent.
and of course. this is gonna be a whole load of rubbish.

earlier today, i have already gulped down a short cup of cappuccino.
oh man. caffeine intake is crazy.
walked from t2 to t1 cos the sky train was under service then.
then stayed at the viewing gallery for hours.

sent lindy off already.
now waiting to send sarah off.
sigh. wonder when's the next time we'll ever get to meet up.

kind of trying really hard to stay awake.
already had breakfast at burger king.

i guess i gonna really sleep on the train ride back.

lalala.

took some pics. gonna upload them when i get back to hostel wher i can transfer the pics.
well. it had been a great night whatever it is.
shag but at least it's something different.

:)

randomness

just some random update.
sigh. nothing much happening these few days.
that's why i dont really bother to update.

basically it's just school stuff all day long.
i have devoted my time to doing tutorials.
haha. and i am well in time for classes.

thursday went with ps and linda to queensway shopping centre.
walked around but didnt manage to find nice sneakers that ps wants.
then end up went to ikea to eat.
had the hotdog bread thing.
then went to the cafe and indulge in chicken wings.
haha. damn sinful. even got myself ice-cream after that la.
oh my oh my.
haha. but it's like finally i'm out somewhere shopping around.
school and hostel kind of make me feel lazy getting around.

today. supposed to have no classes,
but because of the national day holiday, there was make-up class scheduled.
so there was class in the morning.
after that lunched and then went back hostel to start doing my tutorials cos i am too lazy to bring them back home to complete my tutorials over the weekends.
haha. end up after that going for interviews for the cca recruitments.
sigh. i hate interviews.
whatever. can only wait and see for results.

now back at home and i'm tired. bleh.
end up still having to bring a textbook home to do my homework over the weekends.
sigh. aiyo. school is basically mugging.
and i dont feel good not going my tutorials and going there empty-handed.
bleh.
i am a super hopeless mugger!
lalala.

weekends.
whatever it is. some fun?
i certainly hope so.

happy national day

just some random blog entry.

kind of bored.

40 years of nation-building they call it.
indeed, singapore has come a long way.
i dont really feel the joy of national day.
although i really love the fact that it's a special occasion for my country.
not cos it gives me a public holiday break.

it's sad in a way.
years of working. i've missed out years of ndp.
since i was 15. have been working every single public holiday when i can.
to the extent that public holiday mood no longer sets in me any more.

i dont feel the excitement of watching the ndp parade.
although i would really love to watch fireworks at marina south.
i totally have nothing against my country.
i love singapore the way it is.
really. no matter what.
i cant say i am totally passionate and all.
but i like this place. it's indeed somewhere i call home.
somewhere i'm familiar with. afterall, i've spent my life so far here.
i've grown here.
i would love to go to visit other countries and take a chance to look around different parts of the world.
but i know that i would want to come back. so long as the people i treasure are here.
i would come back to this place. where i have fond memories of. where i have my family and friends.

gonna still continue working tmr.
although it's just tutoring for 2 hours.
might just for once sit down and watch ndp and really get into the mood of it.
but well. i might just make use of the time and move back to hostel and spend time alone.
instead of moving in on wednesday.
sigh. thinking through.

whatever it is.
happy 40th birthday, my country, my home, singapore.
happy national day.

豆腐宅急便 gloves to ali

i float like a butterfly, sting like a bee
keys to ignition are like gloves to ali
to and fro, water in the sea, the sunrise is my peace
- repeat

i ride the distance, nature in me
nirvana coming through, with my delivery
to and fro, mountains and the sea, the twilight sets me free
- repeat

have this song uploaded as my bg music. love this man.
from initial d soundtrack.

d&d

just got back home from hall's d&d.
supposed to be dinner & dance.
but for me, it was more of dine & dine.
cos i basically went there to eat.

feel as if i've wasted my money.
not because it's not fun.
but simply because i just go there for this 10 course dinner and that's it.
the bunch of people are staying over, which i am uninterested in. since i'll be tutoring tmr morn.
didnt take pics with people cos like i said, i just sit there and eat and eat.
haha.
kind of dumb.
i'm tired.

feel like sleeping and sleeping but there's tutoring tmr.
gonna spend the weekend doing my tutorials so that i'll be able to catch up with classes next week.

*anti-social, super mugger zhien*

home sweet home

back at home after spending one week in hostel.
haha.
like finally.
i'm home!
hehe. it's good to be home.
everything is just so nice when it's home.

i love my bed.
i love the way the things are at home.
this is gonna be a long break at home.
since next week is gonna be national day.
most probably gonna finish up as much tutorials this weekend and then hopefully i can slack next week.

:) i love being at home!
well, i like being in hostel too.
it's just that. there's no place like home.
*man, i sound super in the mood for ndp!*

Mid pleasures and palaces though we may roam,

Be it ever so humble, there's no place like home.

~ John Howard Payne ~

nonsensical words

here comes junk.
i am bored so i decided that i should just do sthg.
finally got the internet settings done and now i can access websites other than my school webpage using my laptop in the hostel room.
basically for the past 2 nights i only have 5 hours of sleep each day.
feel deprived because i used to sleep double of that.
bleh.
hostel life is getting into place rather slowly.
just that i'm down with flu again since tuesday and now it's still not gone.
rather irritating having to blow the nose every now and then.
argh.
but well.
at least things are going on fine.
i'm doing my tutorials like the day before they are due for classes.
rather last minute but at least i try to get them done.

having class at 1030 today. gonna have 5 hours of class in a row.
gosh.
hope i can keep awake till then.

new additions to my hostel room.
got myself a printer at student's offer price.
which makes things more convenient since now i can print my notes in the room when i have to.
had coloured paper over the board. thanks to linda's contribution.
now my table is a little more colourful.
and of course. my table is like full.
haha. compared to my table, linda's is very spacious. haha.
gosh.

this is my table at the moment. full of stuff?

this is me with my cushion in my hostel room!

schooling

now i'm in my hall's computer lab blogging.
simply cos somehow i cant access other websites other than the school webpage with my laptop in the room.

and i'm in some intensive mugger mode.
i have tutorials due tmr and i've yet to start.
wonderful!
haha. later i'll have to go back to my room and start getting it done before morning class tmr.

made some friends.
now that's it's 2nd day of week 2.
finally found someone with the exact same timetable as me.
interesting!

yesterday was friendship day for hall.
so end up having some campfire thing at 8 pm.
lasted all the way till 10 plus.
then after that had the very first attempt using the hall's washing machine.
and how splendid!
i'm not cut out to use washing machine.
must really start planning my career as they advise us so that i earn enough to hire a maid.
damn damn damn.
but well. it's fun.
then end up doing tutorials till 2 plus am. then have to wake up at 7.30 am today for classes.
gosh.
how hopeless. i'm pia-ing last minute.
*at least the effort is there ok...*

so far so good. having fun living in hostel.
although discipline is really low.
judging from the fact that i've yet to start doing my tutorials for today.
i wonder what i have accomplished.
haha.
day 2 of hostel life. more days to go.
certainly have got to do sthg to make things better.
how superb if i am able to have my work done and get loads of fun at the same time.
sigh. dream on.

whatever. crappy entry.
i wish my laptop is super duper perfect. then now i wont be having a headache over things.
super crap. i'm some computer idiot la.
- . -
this is ultimate torture.