time to stop being lazy

haha.
i'm such a lazy bum.
haha.

well. it's time to just try and blog sthg.
since i've been slacking most of my time away.
it's been one week. since the end of exams.
which means one week of holidays already.
and i don't think i've accomplished much.

i think i took my last week recuperating from the exams.
haha.
exams seem so traumatizing.
but i guess i traumatized others more when i rejoice that exams are over.
and many of them are still busy with theirs.

this week is a bit more fruitful i guess.
but still.
i think i need to make better use of my time.
since i'm leaving on next tuesday le.
a few things that MUST be settled before i leave.


went for a visit to my 'playground' after so long.
haha.
the national library.
and borrowed a couple of books.
hehe. i guess it's a way to make myself more useful while i'm at home.
haha.


went out with mum today.
sis joined us later.
hehe.
took this while we were waiting to see the doctor.
and we both look so tired.
haha.
but still, it's a nice pic with mum.
hehe.


and mum got me a new pair of shoes.
haha.
both she and sis were commenting about how worn out my shoes were.
so she got me a new pair!
hehe.
yippie!
and she happily threw my shoes away while i was napping this afternoon.
haha.
my mum's one funny character at times.
i totally enjoyed myself today!
haha.


and christmas is just round the corner.
hehe.
i can't wait.
and i want a beautiful christmas tree.
oh i so love a white one!
haha.
though the significance of christmas is not in the trees of course.
i just thought it'll be so pretty to have one.
hehe.

oh well. i'm running out of inspiration.
tmr got to wake up.
and get started working on interview preparations!
oh man. i think i'm way too slack.
bleh.

zhi'en! buck up!

finalement les examens sont terminés!

les papiers étaient difficiles
mais je remercie toujours Dieu

je peux seulement espérer que les resultats seront bons
il est tout dans des Ses mains

:)

[edited]
the english translation. hehe.

title: finally the examinations are over!

the papers were difficult
but i still thank God

i can only hope that the results will be good
it's all in His hands

crunch time!

take a look at where i 'strategize' and prepare myself for the battle.
my table is in a total mess.
need to clear up after exams le.

seriously hope i do well.
very packed exam schedule.

whatever it is.
Lord, be glorified.
i hope i'll be a good testimony.

the battle begins

tmr!
i better wake up in time.
gosh.

i feel unprepared.
eeks. i can't seem to remember what i study.
am i even absorbing?
bleh.
sigh.
i need help, Lord!

i hope i emerge victorious.
the battle begins tmr.
6 more days to the end of it.
and the results will be unknown until dunno when.
well.
i seriously hope i do well.

in Him i trust.

living in a pressure cooker

isn't exactly fun.

less than a week to exams.
and i've barely started.

4 papers.
friday to wednesday.
the first time ever.
that my exams is packed together.

i can only pray that i do well.
doing my best.
and leaving the rest to God.

i've got to start mugging.
so much to cram.

i look forward to the end of it.
haircut.
missions trip.
interviews.
more rest.
meeting up with people (ps, teeseng, etc.)
youth camp.
christmas.
thanksgiving.

ganbatte zhien!

and to those having exams!
all the best.


thanks linda. i got a pleasant surprise this morning.
really sweet. :)

beyond words

how i'm feeling now.
i really have no idea how to express.
words.
they just seem to be limited in describing.
if you were to ask me how i am.
i really have no answer.
because i don't know how to say.

it just came so suddenly.
hurts. probably to put it simply.

at times i don't feel the pain in my heart.
yet. there are moments where it's just as if my heart is being squished.
there's that pain.
not to mention that there are always things that add on to the pain.

what else can i say?
i really don't know how.
how to say.
probably i've long forgotten what it is like.
to cry till i really let it all out.

many memories are being brought back.
loads of replay.
that i'm still trying to handle as they come.
i need better control of my thoughts.
lest they drive me nuts.

i don't know how else i can handle.
the surge of emotions.
the pain.
the situation at home.
everything.
i guess one thing i can really be thankful is that God is near.

broken-hearted i may be.
but that's how i can be closer to Him.
i just have to surrender.
and leave it to Him.

my strength.
my refuge.
my greatest source of comfort.

enough said i guess.
cos i really can't put it to words.

maybe i'll soon come to understand what it is like to be in 'serene chaos'.

*boo*

haven't blogged in ages.
so i guess it's time to just update a bit.
since i have a bit of time to slack now.
after a really crazy week.

well.
life's pretty normal.
just that got some additional exciting stuff.
but more or less i'm still who i am.
haha.
i wanna meet up with people.
but i guess everyone's busy with the impending exams.
i can feel the heat of it all too.
hehe.

i had a really crazy week.
but i thank God.
supposed to have 3 presentations and 1 quiz.
but one of my presentations managed to be shifted to next week.
so i've got time to work on it.
and a slightly lesser workload for this week.
the presentation today went smoothly.
i'm glad and very thankful.
the quiz. kind of tough.
but well. i really can't tell how i fare.
i was kind of tired.


still. in the smallest ways. i try to destress.
well. at least this shows that my brain is not totally dead from all the mugging.
i can still have some 'creativity'.
i wouldnt say my art is fantastic.
but at least seeing that makes me happier.
^.^


one of the recent saturdays.
mum had off. so some of her friends and relatives came over.
haha.
cute little sean came too.
he's grown a little taller. and definitely cuter!
haha.
gosh i sound like a pedophile. eeks.
but he seriously is cute, isn't he?
haha.
but he's highly hyperactive.
i couldnt really get him to take a proper photo.
so while he looks cute in this. i look super odd.
haha.


on tuesday this week. the cell group went city hall for a time of bonding.
a simple dinner.
and after that nic gave us an assignment.
to build the highest possible pyramid with the limited postcards he had.
out in the open with wind. bleh.
haha. had some failed attempts.
but we end up managing to get something decent out.
and took loads of whacky shots with it.
hehe.

exams coming real soon.
there just seems like there's so much to do.
i need better time management skills.
and i need to focus.
bleh.

zhien out. i can't really think of what to blog already.
soon. soon.
i'll blog more interesting stuff.
ciao.