deprived of sleep. woke up early on 2 consecutive days. early for me since now it's like a holiday for me although not quite. used to sleeping all the way till 11 plus on most days. 2 days waking up like 6 am and 8 am can be draining. now i am tired. work and things are slowly sipping my energy away. i seriously hope i can get pass 6 months of such kind of life.
have things planned up nicely for monday. now i am like packed up with small little things. going to order v.day gift for my mum in place of my sis who is still in atlanta. gonna buy some prayer's oil or something. gonna just be an errand girl. haha. then gonna make a trip down to ghim moh most probably to get the file punch mailed to my sis. and then gonna tutor zc. and then gonna push my jogging day forward to monday evening since the next day i'll be off gorging myself with new year goodies.
will be working even after chinese new year. and the thought seems to be a little scary come to think of it. haha. working 10 hours on fri. 8 on saturday. 9 on sunday. i gonna work hard and get as much money as i can. it's the one and only incentive i can think of for all the time i have been working. gonna make myself try save up lots. need to control my urge to splurge.
yea. deprived of cravings too. haha. have been thinking of coffee bean's ice blended pure choc. argh. awfully sinful. havent got down to getting it. cos the price is what i make myself hold back and stop indulging in those cravings. haha. well. hope that tmr will be better. :)
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Friday, February 04, 2005
early in the morning 6 o'clock
early in the morning 6 o'clock. pitter patter raindrops.... forgot the rest of the lyrics of that kiddy song that i learnt years back.
while. woke up early in the morning at 6 am today. a first time for 2005. no school yet and i dont have a 9 to 5 office job. so i dont usually get to wake up early. today morning woke up just to go jogging with ps. but well. she didnt quite get used to waking up early and so. late. haha. in the end we were jogging with those students from the primary school that came out for their school's morning jog. so funny. a huge batch of them and we had to avoid them. so funny. haha. good first attempt. next week will be better.
after that slacked a little at my house and that's why i came up with a new layout for my blog again. adjusted the positions and changed the pic again. finally get to learn a bit on how this whole thing comes about. haha. really html coding illerate.
later got to go work. start of my working weekend and i just hope that everything will be fine. and next week will be a break filled with fun and excitement for cny. cant wait to get ang bao. haha.
before i end. just sum up some things i did yesterday.
yesterday
slept till late late. online. tutored. then went harbourfront. got free goodies that came with my digicam purchase. shopped around harbourfront for a pouch for my digicam. fulfilled all those tasks and got home. nice sum up huh. i'm done.
while. woke up early in the morning at 6 am today. a first time for 2005. no school yet and i dont have a 9 to 5 office job. so i dont usually get to wake up early. today morning woke up just to go jogging with ps. but well. she didnt quite get used to waking up early and so. late. haha. in the end we were jogging with those students from the primary school that came out for their school's morning jog. so funny. a huge batch of them and we had to avoid them. so funny. haha. good first attempt. next week will be better.
after that slacked a little at my house and that's why i came up with a new layout for my blog again. adjusted the positions and changed the pic again. finally get to learn a bit on how this whole thing comes about. haha. really html coding illerate.
later got to go work. start of my working weekend and i just hope that everything will be fine. and next week will be a break filled with fun and excitement for cny. cant wait to get ang bao. haha.
before i end. just sum up some things i did yesterday.
yesterday
slept till late late. online. tutored. then went harbourfront. got free goodies that came with my digicam purchase. shopped around harbourfront for a pouch for my digicam. fulfilled all those tasks and got home. nice sum up huh. i'm done.
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
camera
finally got my digicam. canon ixus 40. silver. slim. small. nice. but just without a pouch to keep it well. will have to go canon and see what i can get there to keep it nicely. since i'll have to make a trip down to some showroom to get the free 128MB sd card. haha. happy. at least something that isnt crappy. tuition wasnt that bad afterall considering that it's my payday and i'll have next week off due to chinese new year. will slowly get things into place. i really need to plan out my time nicely. learning. trying. making an effort. i just get pissed off and complain here sometimes. but i guess i'll have to manage it through still. somehow i will. argh.
now i have to read lots. i just got some student's vocabulary book from my student. reading it to learn more words so that i can teach her. gonna brush up my grammar too. gonna read the manual to operate my digicam. gonna finish reading those books that i borrowed from the library. gonna read as much as i can to try to know how to apply scholarships properly. gonna do reading. haha. i want to be more intellectual. :)
good luck to me. well at least i feel positive for a moment. :D
now i have to read lots. i just got some student's vocabulary book from my student. reading it to learn more words so that i can teach her. gonna brush up my grammar too. gonna read the manual to operate my digicam. gonna finish reading those books that i borrowed from the library. gonna read as much as i can to try to know how to apply scholarships properly. gonna do reading. haha. i want to be more intellectual. :)
good luck to me. well at least i feel positive for a moment. :D
crap
down on my luck. sigh. keep being "welcomed" by crap. now i've got to tuition today at 6 pm. changed back again but pushed the time later. now i cant make a trip down to my grandmother's place. i hope i better dont get even more crap later. i gonna start wrecking things if that happens. wonder what's wrong with these people these days. cant really figure out why they always have things that come in and just change as and when they like. it messes up my plans for the day. it messes up my mood. it messes up almost every other thing. argh. now the simlim people better have to stock for my digicam in today or i really will get super pissed off. will just call them up. i hope they are really good retailers. i dont want to make another wasted trip. i dont have time for those shit anymore.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
results
today i broke my own record and woke up the earliest for the whole of this year. wrote that in my last entry when i was so bored early in the morning. 7.36 am. argh. stupid mosquitoes. to think they would irritate me on the first day of february. sigh. tough luck.
in the end i broke another record and finished reading one of those books i borrowed from the library. still have one more week to finish the other 3. i am a failure at reading. most prob will just dump them back and borrow again when i got the chance to read. a rather interesting non-fiction book. but there seems to be so many issues on christainty being brought inside. sometimes i just dont feel the link and skipped through those verses that they mention. what's going wrong with me i wonder. those 3 more books are more of general knowledge ones and i think i really gonna take a long long time to get back to them. haha. due next week. i really wonder if i can do miracles again.
went chinatown again. this time with my younger sis after she ended school. she wanted to find out where i got those cds at those super affordable prices. first time i made myself go chinatown to look around near the chinese new year. since many years back, the crowded streets of chinatown during cny has really kept me away from it. this is the first time i really sort of enjoyed walking down a bit. maybe cos it was afternoon and it wasnt exactly crowded. went last year on learning journey with my class but well that was learning journey. haha.
after that got home to tutor zecheng. nothing much except the usual stuff. he's getting along quite fine so that isnt a problem. it's one of my blessing to have him as a student for the time being. unlike some others that really give me problems.
went jogging later in the evening just now. haha. i acutally went with an empty stomach. i guess it most probably wouldnt make much diff. but well. i skipped dinner. i am too lazy to whip something up to eat. anyway. made some improvements and i did 4 rounds without stopping. gonna make myself sustain more rounds next time. but sigh. i am not those kind that are super fit to be able to do many rounds without stopping. ok well. i did 4 rounds. stopped. walked for half ran 1 walked for half ran 1 and then walked one round. and home i went. was rather short of breath. but well. now i am fine. i hate being an asthma child. argh. not seriously down with it. but it really takes me some effort to do jogging. and i rather myself be really fit and healthy.
tmr gonna make a trip down to simlim to get digicam. no tuition so that's basically the task for the day. might end up running errands for my mum again. walking most probably to ghim moh again. argh. it will become the consecutive wednesday that i go ghim moh. last week was postman me. this week maybe just errand girl me. might shop for medicine. i need pi pa gao. haha. might even give myself a nice nice treat to hawker lunch at ghim moh. haha. 2 years in my school near there. lunch there would really be nice. i am now trying to control the amount of money i spend. gonna make myself keep up to 30 bucks till the 7th. i am not going to make use of my money still before new year. i want to save up lots. haha. chinese new year resolution. haha. maybe an in thing huh. :)
in the end i broke another record and finished reading one of those books i borrowed from the library. still have one more week to finish the other 3. i am a failure at reading. most prob will just dump them back and borrow again when i got the chance to read. a rather interesting non-fiction book. but there seems to be so many issues on christainty being brought inside. sometimes i just dont feel the link and skipped through those verses that they mention. what's going wrong with me i wonder. those 3 more books are more of general knowledge ones and i think i really gonna take a long long time to get back to them. haha. due next week. i really wonder if i can do miracles again.
went chinatown again. this time with my younger sis after she ended school. she wanted to find out where i got those cds at those super affordable prices. first time i made myself go chinatown to look around near the chinese new year. since many years back, the crowded streets of chinatown during cny has really kept me away from it. this is the first time i really sort of enjoyed walking down a bit. maybe cos it was afternoon and it wasnt exactly crowded. went last year on learning journey with my class but well that was learning journey. haha.
after that got home to tutor zecheng. nothing much except the usual stuff. he's getting along quite fine so that isnt a problem. it's one of my blessing to have him as a student for the time being. unlike some others that really give me problems.
went jogging later in the evening just now. haha. i acutally went with an empty stomach. i guess it most probably wouldnt make much diff. but well. i skipped dinner. i am too lazy to whip something up to eat. anyway. made some improvements and i did 4 rounds without stopping. gonna make myself sustain more rounds next time. but sigh. i am not those kind that are super fit to be able to do many rounds without stopping. ok well. i did 4 rounds. stopped. walked for half ran 1 walked for half ran 1 and then walked one round. and home i went. was rather short of breath. but well. now i am fine. i hate being an asthma child. argh. not seriously down with it. but it really takes me some effort to do jogging. and i rather myself be really fit and healthy.
tmr gonna make a trip down to simlim to get digicam. no tuition so that's basically the task for the day. might end up running errands for my mum again. walking most probably to ghim moh again. argh. it will become the consecutive wednesday that i go ghim moh. last week was postman me. this week maybe just errand girl me. might shop for medicine. i need pi pa gao. haha. might even give myself a nice nice treat to hawker lunch at ghim moh. haha. 2 years in my school near there. lunch there would really be nice. i am now trying to control the amount of money i spend. gonna make myself keep up to 30 bucks till the 7th. i am not going to make use of my money still before new year. i want to save up lots. haha. chinese new year resolution. haha. maybe an in thing huh. :)
argh
look at the damn time now. 7.46 am. for goodness' sake. was woken 15 minutes ago simply because the mosquito bites on me are unbearable. got bitten by mosquitoes with 3 bites on my right leg, 2 on each hand. was itching like mad that i woke up and scratch myself and now i realised that i cant get back to sleep with the itch irritating me. stupid bugs. to think that i had only got into bed 3 hours and 46 minutes before now. i didnt really get quite a good sleep. wonder why. woke up a little to find myself at 6 plus cos i saw my younger sis combing her hair and getting ready to go to school. didnt check the time and fell back to sleep again. within that short period of time i got all those super itchy mosquito bites and now i am awake, not knowing what i can do at such an early hour in the morning. argh. freakingly stupid.
running out of
- ideas to write in my blog -
nothing new has been happening. i realised that what i have been doing is getting routinal. working and tutoring. that's why for some days i didnt add any new entries. i seriously hope more nice things come up so that i have things to write here instead of the same old stuff. i need something refreshing.
- cash -
went to sim lim square today to try get myself a digicam. however. went to shop and was told that that model is out of stock. sigh. no luck. tough luck. gonna have to make another trip down myself on wednesday i think to try and get it. hate it. means i gonna waste money on travelling again. getting the digicam would mean an amount cut off from my savings account. and i'll have to slowly put the money back into the bank once i get my pay. gonna do that by monthly instalments. gonna really have to scrimp and save a bit for the next few months. i want to really save a fair sum of money from all the work that i have been doing. well in the end got the memory stick first instead since managed to get it at another store. might as well save the trouble and i'll just get the digicam on wednesday. i am really hopelessly blur at these electronic gadgets. well spent 99 bucks. argh. now i really need to save save save. going mad about it. haha. although i am really fine with the price considering that it's a 512MB high speed sd card. well. but well i dont feel that good about wasting too much money. will have to put the money back in slowly when i got the money.
also went to look around at bugis after that. got myself a precious moment cross-stitch set. gonna try and get it done. sis, you have been wanting some precious moment cross-stitch. i got myself one. will try sew it really nicely and then it's yours as a gift. haha. no promise yet cos i dont know how it'll turn out. i try and make it really really nice. i hope you'll like it. that spent me some money. but i guess i am still in good control of the way i spend.
- time -
suddenly i realised it's so difficult to plan out my time. making me feels as if i am really really busy with things. well. my students are trying to change their tuition timings and it's really giving me a huge headache. i seem to be running out of the patience to be really nice and accommodate them. i really feel like giving up on one of them. argh. cant mention the name here i guess. i want to. but i cant. simply cos my mum knows the person's mother. she's giving me a lot of problems. either being late. or now even cutting the lesson's time and i still have to make it up some other time. argh. i really hate this. and today even got a message from her to change the tuition days. and now i have to re-schedule my time. and now i have to go down to her place again. i really getting sick and tired of it. now on my wednesday i have to tutor another student who happens to live around the same area as her from 3 to 5 and after that go to her place to tutor. most prob from 5.30 to 7.30 or maybe 6 to 8. who knows. argh. and gosh. i gonna take more than an hour to get home. this is very very freaking. and i really cant help but think that it's really gonna wear me out any time. but there's no other days that i can fit time in for her perfectly. major headache and i hate this. somemore it isnt exactly easy to teach her. argh. i am really really troubled over this and getting really stressed up by this.
now monday i tutor 5 to 6.30. tuesday 5 to 6.30. wednesday 3 to 5 and maybe 5.30 to 7.30 in 2 weeks time. thursday 3 to 4.30. and fridays to sundays work! gosh. i hate this kind of life. i rather have a job that takes up hours of time each day but i have at least one free day to myself. i dont even have it now. it seems slack to most people. my mum thinks that i have so much and enough time at home. but personally. i am beginning to think that it's really hard to plan my time in properly with all these indecisive people. argh. damn stressed.
- control -
i am getting more and more moody maybe. i just feel irritated. i try my best to plan everything such that i am in control and have time to myself and enjoy this break that i have. i am trying to be happy. to really enjoy what it is like to earn money for myself and get to spend it the way i will like and enjoy it. but somehow screwed up people come in and screwed up my life. i really get very pissed off by the fact that they just come in and mess things up for me. sometimes my mum does that unknowingly. i cant do anything but sigh and try do what i can. my tuition students does that to me too. but i cant flare up at them simply they have their reasons and even if they dont. i really dont know how to put it to make them understand the situation i am in and how desparate i need time to myself to handle my own life and not having them interfere. they wont be bothered about it and i doubt they care. some students really dont give me problems. but i can say one person giving you problems is already equivalent to giving you hell. argh. at the rate i am going and i just can vent my frustrations on those idiots. i am really going to explode within me. i really wonder what i am going to do for the next few months as i continue on. before i stop working. what's going to happen i really wonder.
nothing new has been happening. i realised that what i have been doing is getting routinal. working and tutoring. that's why for some days i didnt add any new entries. i seriously hope more nice things come up so that i have things to write here instead of the same old stuff. i need something refreshing.
- cash -
went to sim lim square today to try get myself a digicam. however. went to shop and was told that that model is out of stock. sigh. no luck. tough luck. gonna have to make another trip down myself on wednesday i think to try and get it. hate it. means i gonna waste money on travelling again. getting the digicam would mean an amount cut off from my savings account. and i'll have to slowly put the money back into the bank once i get my pay. gonna do that by monthly instalments. gonna really have to scrimp and save a bit for the next few months. i want to really save a fair sum of money from all the work that i have been doing. well in the end got the memory stick first instead since managed to get it at another store. might as well save the trouble and i'll just get the digicam on wednesday. i am really hopelessly blur at these electronic gadgets. well spent 99 bucks. argh. now i really need to save save save. going mad about it. haha. although i am really fine with the price considering that it's a 512MB high speed sd card. well. but well i dont feel that good about wasting too much money. will have to put the money back in slowly when i got the money.
also went to look around at bugis after that. got myself a precious moment cross-stitch set. gonna try and get it done. sis, you have been wanting some precious moment cross-stitch. i got myself one. will try sew it really nicely and then it's yours as a gift. haha. no promise yet cos i dont know how it'll turn out. i try and make it really really nice. i hope you'll like it. that spent me some money. but i guess i am still in good control of the way i spend.
- time -
suddenly i realised it's so difficult to plan out my time. making me feels as if i am really really busy with things. well. my students are trying to change their tuition timings and it's really giving me a huge headache. i seem to be running out of the patience to be really nice and accommodate them. i really feel like giving up on one of them. argh. cant mention the name here i guess. i want to. but i cant. simply cos my mum knows the person's mother. she's giving me a lot of problems. either being late. or now even cutting the lesson's time and i still have to make it up some other time. argh. i really hate this. and today even got a message from her to change the tuition days. and now i have to re-schedule my time. and now i have to go down to her place again. i really getting sick and tired of it. now on my wednesday i have to tutor another student who happens to live around the same area as her from 3 to 5 and after that go to her place to tutor. most prob from 5.30 to 7.30 or maybe 6 to 8. who knows. argh. and gosh. i gonna take more than an hour to get home. this is very very freaking. and i really cant help but think that it's really gonna wear me out any time. but there's no other days that i can fit time in for her perfectly. major headache and i hate this. somemore it isnt exactly easy to teach her. argh. i am really really troubled over this and getting really stressed up by this.
now monday i tutor 5 to 6.30. tuesday 5 to 6.30. wednesday 3 to 5 and maybe 5.30 to 7.30 in 2 weeks time. thursday 3 to 4.30. and fridays to sundays work! gosh. i hate this kind of life. i rather have a job that takes up hours of time each day but i have at least one free day to myself. i dont even have it now. it seems slack to most people. my mum thinks that i have so much and enough time at home. but personally. i am beginning to think that it's really hard to plan my time in properly with all these indecisive people. argh. damn stressed.
- control -
i am getting more and more moody maybe. i just feel irritated. i try my best to plan everything such that i am in control and have time to myself and enjoy this break that i have. i am trying to be happy. to really enjoy what it is like to earn money for myself and get to spend it the way i will like and enjoy it. but somehow screwed up people come in and screwed up my life. i really get very pissed off by the fact that they just come in and mess things up for me. sometimes my mum does that unknowingly. i cant do anything but sigh and try do what i can. my tuition students does that to me too. but i cant flare up at them simply they have their reasons and even if they dont. i really dont know how to put it to make them understand the situation i am in and how desparate i need time to myself to handle my own life and not having them interfere. they wont be bothered about it and i doubt they care. some students really dont give me problems. but i can say one person giving you problems is already equivalent to giving you hell. argh. at the rate i am going and i just can vent my frustrations on those idiots. i am really going to explode within me. i really wonder what i am going to do for the next few months as i continue on. before i stop working. what's going to happen i really wonder.
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