hmm. was on my way home from work on the bus today. saw this almost drunk guy sitting opposite me. he was with another lady. then. for some moment in the bus journey. he suddenly raised his voice and sprouted nonsense. at least i didnt quite get what he said. i gave that "what the hell" look. then i looked at the expression on the lady's face. she was so embarrassed. i think if i were her i would want to just get off the bus and pretend i dont know that guy. sigh.
was thinking what would happen if i were to drink. turned 18 already and i havent drank a drop. i wonder what's going to happen if i were to try. i dare not. cos the scene on the bus was something i totally detest. i cant imagine myself behaving like that if i were to get drunk. i always have this idea that i can get knocked out simply by a small amount of alcoholic beverage. sigh. anyway. i dont think it's good to drink. one way to destress some may say. but a personal opinion.
say i am way too conservative. i dont really care. i hate to see people smoke. i hate to see people drunk. hmm. i can just stay away from those stuff without those educational talks they hold. hmm.
work today. still ok. quite slack. i am not doing much. supposed to do washing today cos there is lack of people. however, end up i still didnt do cos someone beat me to it. argh. years since i ever get to wash things at work la. i only stand at the counter. gosh. it's boring.
knock me out. life is so boring and argh. i am not that happy at times. still.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Saturday, April 16, 2005
vain pot
sigh. i am becoming a bimbo soon. an ugly one somemore. that means i am slowly turning into a stupid ugly girl. argh. damn it. first thing, my intellectual capacity is gradually shrinking. so i am getting closer to becoming one stupid girl. next thing, i am shopping a lot. damn. will elaborate later. keep buying clothes. eeks.
today had 4f gathering. so once in a life time thing. the last time i went for a gathering was 31 dec 2004. they had another gathering some time back in feb if i am not wrong but i was working and so gave it a miss. how nice. although there were just some of us. 5 to be exact. haha. cos the guys are striked off the list since they are stuck at ns. some of the girls were busy.
anyway. we had dim sum at outram park that side. took a long walk before we actually got to that place. cos we werent familiar with the area. but gave us a chance to chat during the walk so it's good too. we had lots to catch up with.
the dim sum was good. haha. red star restaurant or sthg. delicious. first time i ate so much for breakfast. omg. fried wanton with delicious prawns inside. totally awesome egg tarts. droolicious chee chong fun with prawns inside. not to forget the char siew and the har gao. omg. totally fantastic. dim sum is so good. haha. the thing is i am a person who is picky about food so there are still loads that i didnt try. haha.
we just ordered and ordered. lol. end up paying 13 bucks or so per person. quite ok i think. cos after that we didnt take lunch also. so for 2 meals. and such nice food. hmmm.
the only thing is staff arent exactly those who you see in restaurants in town. the service. i shant really comment. ok. and there is no menu. which is really funny cos we are so used to having one. and we were at a loss what to pick. haha. interesting experience.
after that we went to walk around chinatown there. looked at clothes at some places. ok. of course not those for people that are older. went around those giordano, hang ten places there. went to og. giordano there was having a 20% off sale or sthg. so i end up getting 2 tops. one spag one v neck. the spag to be worn inside the v neck top. lol. crap. spent quite a fair bit of money but still ok cos it's already considered ok for price of lycra tops. get what i mean when i splurge? i am buying things. argh. ahhhh.
i am thinking of getting my hair done cos i am beginning to find it messy. argh. i am becoming a vain pot. argh. seems like no point being one cos i am ugly enough. it doesnt really help much. arghhh. eeks. damn. freak. need to go to beijing 101 or yunam hair centre to help speed up hair growth soon le la. i am pissed. i want to change hairstyle also hard cos my hair is growing at a freakingly slow speed. lol.
i am trying to also save up to invest in contact lenses. omg. that i still havent really decided. that can come later. haha. i still have one last pair of contacts now. lol. it's silly. argh. i am beginning to really sound like some super vain ugly idiot. gosh.
tuition got cancelled. was out then already. end up shopping as mentioned just now. was supposed to have guitar practice today at that tuition time. i told them i got tuition and so cant go for practice. end up tuition cancelled. i was still outside. need to get home and get guitar and go for prac if i want. of course the lazy me decided that i shall not rush. haha. my friend ask me now about tutoring and mentioned about the guitar thing. sigh. haha. i am some stupid person. already so retarded at playing still didnt make effort to rush down and practice. sigh.
after that went home. online a while. then after that rushed off to grandma's house. cos celebrating her birthday today. dinner was buffet. and i ate a lot again. gosh. haha. was a little bored initially. cos there is nothing on tv and the comp there the male cousins were playing sthg i dont have any idea of. haha. after that jinhong showed us some video of his fishing trip. had a good time laughing. haha. an eye-opener. then chat around. made lots of noise. haha. so it was still quite fun. took some pics which i will upload later. sigh. not much energy left to do much.
was on the bus back home and i was so tired that i dozed off and almost fell off the seat. gosh. how silly. haha.
ok. gonna have to get sleep. i am tired. need to really rest cos tmr will have to work for 9 hours. i hope i can take it without dozing off while standing. i am beginning to have weird stunts like that already. good luck to me.
today had 4f gathering. so once in a life time thing. the last time i went for a gathering was 31 dec 2004. they had another gathering some time back in feb if i am not wrong but i was working and so gave it a miss. how nice. although there were just some of us. 5 to be exact. haha. cos the guys are striked off the list since they are stuck at ns. some of the girls were busy.
anyway. we had dim sum at outram park that side. took a long walk before we actually got to that place. cos we werent familiar with the area. but gave us a chance to chat during the walk so it's good too. we had lots to catch up with.
the dim sum was good. haha. red star restaurant or sthg. delicious. first time i ate so much for breakfast. omg. fried wanton with delicious prawns inside. totally awesome egg tarts. droolicious chee chong fun with prawns inside. not to forget the char siew and the har gao. omg. totally fantastic. dim sum is so good. haha. the thing is i am a person who is picky about food so there are still loads that i didnt try. haha.
we just ordered and ordered. lol. end up paying 13 bucks or so per person. quite ok i think. cos after that we didnt take lunch also. so for 2 meals. and such nice food. hmmm.
the only thing is staff arent exactly those who you see in restaurants in town. the service. i shant really comment. ok. and there is no menu. which is really funny cos we are so used to having one. and we were at a loss what to pick. haha. interesting experience.
after that we went to walk around chinatown there. looked at clothes at some places. ok. of course not those for people that are older. went around those giordano, hang ten places there. went to og. giordano there was having a 20% off sale or sthg. so i end up getting 2 tops. one spag one v neck. the spag to be worn inside the v neck top. lol. crap. spent quite a fair bit of money but still ok cos it's already considered ok for price of lycra tops. get what i mean when i splurge? i am buying things. argh. ahhhh.
i am thinking of getting my hair done cos i am beginning to find it messy. argh. i am becoming a vain pot. argh. seems like no point being one cos i am ugly enough. it doesnt really help much. arghhh. eeks. damn. freak. need to go to beijing 101 or yunam hair centre to help speed up hair growth soon le la. i am pissed. i want to change hairstyle also hard cos my hair is growing at a freakingly slow speed. lol.
i am trying to also save up to invest in contact lenses. omg. that i still havent really decided. that can come later. haha. i still have one last pair of contacts now. lol. it's silly. argh. i am beginning to really sound like some super vain ugly idiot. gosh.
tuition got cancelled. was out then already. end up shopping as mentioned just now. was supposed to have guitar practice today at that tuition time. i told them i got tuition and so cant go for practice. end up tuition cancelled. i was still outside. need to get home and get guitar and go for prac if i want. of course the lazy me decided that i shall not rush. haha. my friend ask me now about tutoring and mentioned about the guitar thing. sigh. haha. i am some stupid person. already so retarded at playing still didnt make effort to rush down and practice. sigh.
after that went home. online a while. then after that rushed off to grandma's house. cos celebrating her birthday today. dinner was buffet. and i ate a lot again. gosh. haha. was a little bored initially. cos there is nothing on tv and the comp there the male cousins were playing sthg i dont have any idea of. haha. after that jinhong showed us some video of his fishing trip. had a good time laughing. haha. an eye-opener. then chat around. made lots of noise. haha. so it was still quite fun. took some pics which i will upload later. sigh. not much energy left to do much.
was on the bus back home and i was so tired that i dozed off and almost fell off the seat. gosh. how silly. haha.
ok. gonna have to get sleep. i am tired. need to really rest cos tmr will have to work for 9 hours. i hope i can take it without dozing off while standing. i am beginning to have weird stunts like that already. good luck to me.
Friday, April 15, 2005
.f.r.i.e.n.d.s.
took this off my friend's blog. sry. haha. i just thought of doing this, my friend.
"friends.
i have little.
five fingers are more than enough for the number to be displayed.
but yes, when you meet the really good friends
the ones who really understand and appreciate you,
so what if you may only have one or two?
they are enough."
indeed. i have to agree. i find myself in such a situation too. i know of few people to really make up friends. friends whom i trust, can share my joy and my pain with.
i once heard of one such saying. by the time you die, you are able to name out 5 people whom you have regarded as real friends, you are one of the luckiest people who have ever lived on this earth. i have always believe in this saying.
i know of many people. acquaintance to be specific. there are a handful of people who i know of that i can talk to. i can ask to go out with. i can discuss certain issues with. issues such as school, work. nothing really that emotional and deep within me. i hate to have to say this but i know the way i treat this group of people i know. indeed they are a bunch of caring people. indeed they are really fun people to be with. indeed they have brightened up my day most of the time. i am thankful for that. but sadly, i am one who doesnt trust easily. or should i say. i dont open up to them about most things.
i find myself double-faced at times. and i hate that. i hate to be like that. cos it's really upsetting to have to lead such a life. there is a me that i hide from many. there is a me that i dont show to many people. what most people see me on the surface. there is a different me. in fact very different i must say.
still. i appreciate the fact that i have a few people that i really identify as my friends. a big thank you. you all should know who you are. you all are those who have seen the me. the old me. the new me. the bad me. the good me. i am really glad that there's you people around when the chips are down. you people are the one who understands why i react to certain things in a certain way. you people are the one whom i dont not have to say a lot to but can still read my mind like a book. you people are the one who can sit beside me silently and understand what goes on between us even when words arent coming out of our mouths.
friendship. a relationship that is fragile. some of you out there might want to ponder over this issue about friends, as i have over my friend's reflections in her blog. think about the real friends that you are able to count. have you reached 5? lucky you. try 10 maybe? i am still on my quest to search for those who can make up part of the 5.
"friends.
i have little.
five fingers are more than enough for the number to be displayed.
but yes, when you meet the really good friends
the ones who really understand and appreciate you,
so what if you may only have one or two?
they are enough."
indeed. i have to agree. i find myself in such a situation too. i know of few people to really make up friends. friends whom i trust, can share my joy and my pain with.
i once heard of one such saying. by the time you die, you are able to name out 5 people whom you have regarded as real friends, you are one of the luckiest people who have ever lived on this earth. i have always believe in this saying.
i know of many people. acquaintance to be specific. there are a handful of people who i know of that i can talk to. i can ask to go out with. i can discuss certain issues with. issues such as school, work. nothing really that emotional and deep within me. i hate to have to say this but i know the way i treat this group of people i know. indeed they are a bunch of caring people. indeed they are really fun people to be with. indeed they have brightened up my day most of the time. i am thankful for that. but sadly, i am one who doesnt trust easily. or should i say. i dont open up to them about most things.
i find myself double-faced at times. and i hate that. i hate to be like that. cos it's really upsetting to have to lead such a life. there is a me that i hide from many. there is a me that i dont show to many people. what most people see me on the surface. there is a different me. in fact very different i must say.
still. i appreciate the fact that i have a few people that i really identify as my friends. a big thank you. you all should know who you are. you all are those who have seen the me. the old me. the new me. the bad me. the good me. i am really glad that there's you people around when the chips are down. you people are the one who understands why i react to certain things in a certain way. you people are the one whom i dont not have to say a lot to but can still read my mind like a book. you people are the one who can sit beside me silently and understand what goes on between us even when words arent coming out of our mouths.
friendship. a relationship that is fragile. some of you out there might want to ponder over this issue about friends, as i have over my friend's reflections in her blog. think about the real friends that you are able to count. have you reached 5? lucky you. try 10 maybe? i am still on my quest to search for those who can make up part of the 5.
reason
there is always a reason behind everything. whatever it is.
today i realised there is one particular reason why i am borned to be a human. the thing is i cant be a fish. i cant swim. went swimming with ps today. we went near noon time. was thinking that the weather will be fine so we can get a good tan also. end up. we were swimming for only around 15 minutes or so and it began to drizzle. how stupid. only managed to swim a few laps within that time. omg. ok. i am lousy at swimming. first thing is i totally embarrassed myself when i displayed my so-called breast-stroke to ps. haha. now she knows what i mean by i cant do breast-stroke. haha. second thing is the only free-style that i know is so sucky. argh. i cant even do one lap without stopping. sob sob. first time i ever try to swim laps. usually really play with water and swim widths instead of lengths of the pool. aiyo. super cannot make it. argh. and i swim really slowly. aaaahhh. what the. nvr mind.
the rain stopped after some time and we continued swimming. end up i did 9 and a half laps that's all. how sad. but my left arm was kind of pain after that already. maybe i did wrongly. cos it kind of really hurt till i dont want to tahan and swim anymore le. sigh. must improve myself le. then after that just sat at the poolside and got ourselves tanned. we were chatting there. ps commented that we might have scared those guys away with our voices. cos we were chatting and chatting. haha. well. that i'm not sure. ask them for the answer maybe.
after that had a really great lunch at ps' house. blessing. her mum is fantastic at cooking. wah. i was so satisfied with the meal. haha. to the extent that i didnt bother to eat much during dinner at work. haha. ps say i was picky so end up like only left with some ingredients and i dumped the rest into her bowl. lol. bad habit that she's the only friend to tolerate that. thanks girl. haha. but with lesser ingredients cos of my personal choice the noodles was still superb! yay. after that watched jay chou's mv! haha. drools. (oh damn. this is so bimbo. not me not me!)
after that walked back home and got ready to go work. the rain got heavier as i was walking back home. sigh. bully me. i think the exercise was good although i swam so little laps. i was feeling so tired that i slept on the bus while going to work. even dropped my water bottle. embarrassing. poor bottle of mine. another dent. sry. i am a bad owner but dont run away please. then i decided to keep it in my bag before more such stunts happen. slept on. zzz. was almost reaching and i was still sleeping. if not for a phone call. i would have slept on.
whole day wait for phone call. set my phone on loud mode. sigh. no luck la. ps. the person totally forgot about me. haha. left me off the list. so bad. i dont want to wait le la. haha. i heck le. now very tired. i want to sleep.
tmr going to have an eventful day and i am so so so happy.
today i realised there is one particular reason why i am borned to be a human. the thing is i cant be a fish. i cant swim. went swimming with ps today. we went near noon time. was thinking that the weather will be fine so we can get a good tan also. end up. we were swimming for only around 15 minutes or so and it began to drizzle. how stupid. only managed to swim a few laps within that time. omg. ok. i am lousy at swimming. first thing is i totally embarrassed myself when i displayed my so-called breast-stroke to ps. haha. now she knows what i mean by i cant do breast-stroke. haha. second thing is the only free-style that i know is so sucky. argh. i cant even do one lap without stopping. sob sob. first time i ever try to swim laps. usually really play with water and swim widths instead of lengths of the pool. aiyo. super cannot make it. argh. and i swim really slowly. aaaahhh. what the. nvr mind.
the rain stopped after some time and we continued swimming. end up i did 9 and a half laps that's all. how sad. but my left arm was kind of pain after that already. maybe i did wrongly. cos it kind of really hurt till i dont want to tahan and swim anymore le. sigh. must improve myself le. then after that just sat at the poolside and got ourselves tanned. we were chatting there. ps commented that we might have scared those guys away with our voices. cos we were chatting and chatting. haha. well. that i'm not sure. ask them for the answer maybe.
after that had a really great lunch at ps' house. blessing. her mum is fantastic at cooking. wah. i was so satisfied with the meal. haha. to the extent that i didnt bother to eat much during dinner at work. haha. ps say i was picky so end up like only left with some ingredients and i dumped the rest into her bowl. lol. bad habit that she's the only friend to tolerate that. thanks girl. haha. but with lesser ingredients cos of my personal choice the noodles was still superb! yay. after that watched jay chou's mv! haha. drools. (oh damn. this is so bimbo. not me not me!)
after that walked back home and got ready to go work. the rain got heavier as i was walking back home. sigh. bully me. i think the exercise was good although i swam so little laps. i was feeling so tired that i slept on the bus while going to work. even dropped my water bottle. embarrassing. poor bottle of mine. another dent. sry. i am a bad owner but dont run away please. then i decided to keep it in my bag before more such stunts happen. slept on. zzz. was almost reaching and i was still sleeping. if not for a phone call. i would have slept on.
whole day wait for phone call. set my phone on loud mode. sigh. no luck la. ps. the person totally forgot about me. haha. left me off the list. so bad. i dont want to wait le la. haha. i heck le. now very tired. i want to sleep.
tmr going to have an eventful day and i am so so so happy.
huge sigh
the missed call wasnt what i was waiting for. not fair! haha. that person called ps nvr call me!
@#!%#!%@!@$@$&^%#%
why can like that?!?!?! (whines whines whines)
ok that's very unlike me. sigh. ya. end up found out who called me. after ps told me to call back.
sigh. back to the sighing mood. aiyo. my mood swings are terrible now. eeks.
anyway. end up calling teeseng still. lol. cos after that i was so bored and ya. i end up didnt go back to sleep more. the flu got better. was laughing like mad when talking to him. so long nvr see him lo. haha. i can imagine seeing charcoal next time liao. he's already dark enough. haha. army's going to make him darker. ok. enough said about my buddy. but he's really funny. at least i was laughing like mad. not that bored. he sounds like having fun. sigh. i want to go army also le. haha. at least can be fit fit. no need rot at home and feel like a lump of lard. they should let the guys experience staying at home rotting lor. i hate that feeling. like very useless like that. sigh. huge sigh. (see?! my mood swings again. argh!)
swimming tmr with ps. i hope i am still good at it. sigh. so long nvr seriously swim. usually is play with water. lol. the little child in me. hmm. let's pray for a good day ahead.
@#!%#!%@!@$@$&^%#%
why can like that?!?!?! (whines whines whines)
ok that's very unlike me. sigh. ya. end up found out who called me. after ps told me to call back.
sigh. back to the sighing mood. aiyo. my mood swings are terrible now. eeks.
anyway. end up calling teeseng still. lol. cos after that i was so bored and ya. i end up didnt go back to sleep more. the flu got better. was laughing like mad when talking to him. so long nvr see him lo. haha. i can imagine seeing charcoal next time liao. he's already dark enough. haha. army's going to make him darker. ok. enough said about my buddy. but he's really funny. at least i was laughing like mad. not that bored. he sounds like having fun. sigh. i want to go army also le. haha. at least can be fit fit. no need rot at home and feel like a lump of lard. they should let the guys experience staying at home rotting lor. i hate that feeling. like very useless like that. sigh. huge sigh. (see?! my mood swings again. argh!)
swimming tmr with ps. i hope i am still good at it. sigh. so long nvr seriously swim. usually is play with water. lol. the little child in me. hmm. let's pray for a good day ahead.
Thursday, April 14, 2005
one missed call
sigh. i am sick today. as usual. down with flu. but today. maybe cos of my mood also. i feel like i need to rest. i went to sleep after tutoring. was holding the phone in my hand before i went to sleep. sigh. cos waiting for call. ps say the person might call. and so i slept with the phone in my hand. yet. i still had a missed call. i woke up 10 minutes after that call had been made. sigh. useless. phone in my hand in loud mode with vibration and i can still miss the call. is it just me or is it cos i am sick. argh. got number to call back but i am not one who likes to call back to a number whom i dont even know who is over at the other end. cos it's dumb to just say "hello. who called?". that's my opinion. sigh. wait again tmr? i'll be working then. sigh. no luck.
i still arent feeling a lot better after sleeping. i gonna sleep more. sigh. intend to call teeseng later. haha. just for fun. since he's still in camp and i thought it would be interesting to call and try and be funny. i am so bored. but argh. i might just end up sleeping past that time. at first still got the mood to play around. but now. what can a sick person do. i better sign a peace treaty with the flu bug soon. it is forever declaring war on me over years and i totally have no resources to fight against it. hmm. i should get to writing one soon.
it's just another thursday and i am quietly at home. well. time to rest.
i still arent feeling a lot better after sleeping. i gonna sleep more. sigh. intend to call teeseng later. haha. just for fun. since he's still in camp and i thought it would be interesting to call and try and be funny. i am so bored. but argh. i might just end up sleeping past that time. at first still got the mood to play around. but now. what can a sick person do. i better sign a peace treaty with the flu bug soon. it is forever declaring war on me over years and i totally have no resources to fight against it. hmm. i should get to writing one soon.
it's just another thursday and i am quietly at home. well. time to rest.
my brain's gender?!
| Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male |
Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you! |
out of boredom i did this. i wonder how true this is. hmm.
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