seeing stars

just went through 2 hours of torture.
bleh.
it was a totally crazy experience trying to register for the timetable next semester.
and i'm glad all the waiting paid off.
indeed in all circumstances God is faithful.
i got the subjects the timetable that i had planned!
really thank God. :)
now my eyes are super tired.
given that whole 2 hours focusing on the terminal and having to react almost instantly when you see 1 vacancy.
the whole experience is just totally out of the world.
but i wish i'll never have to go through it again.

now back in hall for the night.
gonna have meeting.
though i dont particularly feel like joining.
how i wish that they'll end really really early.
so that i can still catch a bus back home.
hall is quiet now.
and i just dont really want to be stuck here all by myself.

cant move until the end of the month though.
the new room is unavailable yet.
so i guess i can only wait.

now i am so sian.
first thing is something unsettled.
next thing is that i'm hall alone.
and i totally dont like the feeling.
plus i just finished one battle. and i dont feel like going through one more later during the meeting.
in addition i've got work to do yet i dont really feel the momentum to get it done. super high inertia.
sigh. everything falls into place. yet sometimes i just feel as if it's out of place.
it's just me screwing things up i suppose.
argh.

anyway.
some super random pictures.


a new layout at linda and my room now!


it's back to where it first was when we moved in.
the shelves are now i between our beds.
how autistic-looking.


and a really late post of this picture. this is a gift i got last week.
from my tutee.
who went japan for holidays.
really very cute-looking.
the box is in the shape of those japanese slippers. or do you call them clogs?


and inside are really pretty little colourful sweets.
how really nice.
hehe.
i havent got down to eating them yet though.

ok shall abruptly stop here.
i'm too sian to write anyway.
wish me luck for the night.
bleh.

i just wish that things are really alright.
maybe i'm just thinking too much.

when things dont come your way

it still isnt the end of the world.
one thing to bear in mind.
things may seem out of your control but God is still in control.
and that itself gives hope.

today.
woke up so super duper late.
if you read the earlier entry.
yes i woke up very late.
and didnt get to meet up with ps.
sorry girl.
i dont know why i was that tired also.
maybe i was just way too sian.

project meeting today was disastrous.
i think sometimes we tend to make assumptions.
the member who was supposed to get the video done.
he mentioned he had portable speakers and so we assumed he had a laptop and he would be bringing his.
in the end he didnt cos he doesnt have a laptop.
and at first we were glad that the member that was late would be bringing his laptop.
but. his laptop doesnt have a dvd drive.
and the guy with the video burnt the file into a dvd cos it was too huge.
in the end we had to try and find an internet cafe.
only to realise singapore does not have good internet cafes.
the one we first went did not have terminals with dvd drives.
the next one we went had a few terminals with dvd drives. but are in windows 98. so they dont automatically detect usb devices.
and so we couldnt get our file transferred out.
in the end travelled down to one of the group member's place.
wasted close to 2 hours - waiting and all the trouble.

end up i was almost late for cell.
the meeting time was 7 pm.
and i only ended project meeting at 6.45 pm.
thank God that i still made it in time.
cos the rest were held up by stuff too.

a rather interesting session tonight.
changed the venue.
and held it in nature instead of at gloria's place.
surprisingly we ended early.
i wonder what's on next week.
hehe.

well.
apparently.
stupid zhien made a stupid comment again.
argh.
i hope things are still ok though.
i have no idea if my apology was accepted.
but honestly, i'm sorry for being rude.
bleh. stupid me again.

the aftermath of slight depression

what does it mean to be ok.
i really wonder.
i often remember some friendster bulletin that i read before.
mentioning about when girls pause for a while and replies they are ok.
actually they are not.
not that i disagree with that. but personally i dont pause for a while to reply i'm ok.
i reply almost without hesitation.
but i doubt that necessary means i'm actually ok.
which i myself realise.
well. the hesitation doesnt have any significant meaning maybe?

a lot of thoughts running through my mind.
so i'm getting a little confused.
a little out of my mind i think.

really sincere apologies to ps for this morning.
i woke up really tired.
and plus the weather. i decided not to give you a wake up call that early just to tell you it's raining so how?
i went back to sleep after that and ended up only waking up at 1 pm.
a little crazy timing to wake up for this holidays.
it's almost like i'm having jet lag only 3 weeks after i get back.
funny.
anyway i'm sorry our plan to meet up failed.
will catch up with you real soon.

i wonder if the sleeping way over time.
is an effect of the slight depression.
or is it just me having severe lack of sufficient sleep for the past few days.
maybe.

anyway. a rather nonsensical entry here.
got to have to go out and do project later.
dont really have much in my mind now to talk about.
a confused girl.
bleh.

wednesday

morning was class.
next week gonna have 4 classes instead.
got an extra make up class.
but well. good thing is the deadline for the project and assignment is extended!

met linda and chiewlin after class today.
since they were in school for subject registration.
went to the room to pack up a bit of things.
hopefully that helps to make things easier if i get to move.
argh.
but i'm kind of sian of moving now though.
it's a chore.
i cant imagine having to move house next time!
gosh.

after that we had lunch at the hall canteen.
before i head back home.


claypot beancurd.
hehe.


i like this one.
salad chicken.
tastes really good.
hehe. but not those that should eat too much of.
highly fattening cos of the salad cream.
and can get quite sick of it if you eat too much.
hehe.
but well it's really nice still.
thanks chiew chiew for sharing with me.
hehe.

after that got back home for a shower before going out for a while.
went ps.

walked around for a while.


now there's carl's jr at ps too!
super cool.
havent ate at carl's jr before though.
things look super huge and super ex.
haha.

and i caught sight of a super amazing thing.


the world's largest chocolate bar.
a kitkat bar!
damn cool.
super yummylicious.
hehe.
*drools*


2.67 tonnes in weight!
hehe. the details.
so super duper amazing!
what a creation!
i want to make a big big chocolate bar too!

well.
a bit sian now.
but got things to do.
so shall just try to bury myself in work.
bleh.
slightly depressed zhien out.

super independence day

4 july independence day.

a rather simple day in class.
except for this really unique german film.
the experiment.
set in germany modified after the stamford prison experiment.
kind of dramatised it.
but a rather impactful film.
only watched the first half of it today.
tomorrow we shall get to watch the last part.
hehe.
gonna be quite exciting i think.

nothing much really today.
except getting back home after school.


had lunch at home today!

after that met linda to shop at queensway shopping centre.
walked for a while.
and good thing is she got what she wanted to get!
a pair of running shoes.
and a cool cap too!

and since we were at at area.
we decided to have dinner at ikea instead of joining the guys earlier at tiong bahru plaza.




our dinner! chicken wings and fries.
hehe.
i simply love the chicken wings there.
hehe.

after that took the bus down to tiong bahru plaza.
and luckily we reached on the dot.

superman returns.
was a really nice movie.
funny.
action-filled.
but yea. some really lame parts.
still, i enjoyed the movie.
haha.
had a good laugh.
and a really hilarious time.
i love that superkid!
superboy~

and like zhixuan's sms read.
returning as saviour.
hearing the pleas of everyone.
struggling with normal and supernatural abilities.
being pierced at his side.
self-sacrifice.
returning from the dead.
promising to be always with us.
so much deep meaning behind a movie.
i wonder why some people fail to look deeper and simply take things that are on the surface.
the truth lies deep within. it doesnt need a disclaimer.
unlike those who surface to seemingly show the truth yet doesnt.
blessed are those who see that God is good!

now i'm kind of tired.
feel as if i'm deprived of sleep for these few days.
eeks.
gonna go off and catch some rest.
a worn out zhien.
gone.

long days

the past 2 days had been rather long days for me.
yet fulfilling.

sunday.

morning was service.
i truly believe that God works in the most amazing ways.
i've been troubled with things which i really couldnt make proper decisions about.
for one.
taking up the role of a gl for the hall orientation camp.
an offer given to me which i really didnt know how to reject.
taking it up meant giving up on a lot of things.
compromising my personal commitments.
both tuition and church since they clash with the weekends.
praying helped.
initially when i was contemplating over the issue i had thought only about being unable to attend church services.
He brought me to see that i also had my tuition too.
so much things that i just cant forsake just to get myself involved with orientation.
though missing church was a good enough reason for me to decide not to take it up.
i didnt exactly know how to reject the senior.
and i doubt it was easy to convey to her how missing one or two weeks of church does make a difference. a HUGE one.
i guess having to skip tuition gave me additional reason to forgo taking up such a task.
plus advice from a fellow brother convinced me that indeed it's high time i learn to give a hard NO.

went for the afternoon service too.
and indeed the message was powerful.
was supposed to leave around 6 pm so that i could have enough time to travel down to bugis.
yet, i decided that i should just stay on till the service ends.
and well. the most cab down to the national library to watch anuja's dance performance.
in the end the service ended at 7.10 pm.
yet the invitation stated that audience are to be seated by 7.15 pm.
but i guess it's natural in singaporeans to be late.
the show was supposed to start at 7.30 pm.
by the time i got down it was around 7.28 pm.
really thank God that i managed to get a cab cos i got quite disheartened when there were a handful that were hired when i stepped out of the church office.
and thank God that despite the red lights i managed to get down on time without having to be locked out of the drama centre.
due to the lack of seats in circle1 where the rest of the class were at, i had to go up to circle2.
i was like. man i've got to watch this all alone? how weird.
was frantically calling people on their phone.
but well. they didnt pick up my call.
so just had to go up to circle2. bumped into michelle who was also late and so in the end i had company too.

and anuja's performance was truly fantastic.
though it was a pity that i really didnt understand the story behind the dance.
and i'm utterly hopeless in dance appreciation.
but she has a super duper good sense of rhythm which totally amazed me.
such a wonderful gift!
and her movement is just so graceful.
goodness.
i can never be that talented in dance.
to think she committed 12 years just to that.
i think i got bored of being in choir after 6 years?
or maybe even shorter than that.

anyway. pictures.
haha. well as usual. i try to snap around when there's special stuff with my phone even if i dont have my digital camera with me.


right side of circle 2 of the drama centre at the national library.
a little dark. given the lousy resolution of my phone's camera. i cant really do much.
hehe.


the left side of circle 1 and 2.


the auditorium as seen from circle 2!


the seats! a little nonsensical to take this but well.


and this really superb work of art at the reception.
had to be extra careful not to ruin it by walking too close to it though.

after that the few of us went to grab a bite at mos burger at bugis junction.
hungry me got a meal since i gave dinner a miss. :)

and so that summed up my super long sunday.

today. monday.

back to school today.
thanks to edwin, i managed to get a ride to school today.
so got to save up transport fare.
but. i ended up being about half an hour late for class.
cos. class was supposed to start at 9 am.
but i hopped on the car from where i lived at 5 mins after 9.
woops.

had project meeting after class today.
and i've got another one tomorrow.
bleh.
got to really get my things done.
and i'm so sadded by it.
i've got to get the stuff prepared before tmr's meeting.
yet. dl-ing the file is already gonna take so long.
it's only less then 20% done.
goodness.
maybe i'll have to wake up early tmr morning instead to do it.
argh.

after class went east coast park.
travelling from one end of singapore to another is indeed a LONG journey.
hehe.
thanks to the presence of car.
a wonderful invention indeed.
hehe.
but well my presence was kind of unnecessary.
since there werent any sisters around.
and the brothers had planned soccer for the day.
so i basically only had to sit under the shade.
watch them play or just admire the wonderful scenery.
enjoy the sun and enjoy the breeze.
and only once did i have to be the water-girl.
under escort of course.
haha.
sitting down for some time can just make one feel like sleeping.
haha.
get to talk to some of the brothers that i usually dont get to really interact with during church services while they take a break from playing.
generally a really lazy afternoon.
but i guess it was nice to be out.
especially getting out of somewhere more city.
though singapore itself is a city.
but well somewhere not the heart of the city.
and i dont get to go east coast park that often anyway.
being a westerner.

more pictures.


the sun the sea the greenery.
splendid!


with coconut trees too.


more coconut trees!
and with people pitching tents.
how cool.
hehe.




and the brothers got high on football fever!

after that went down with a few of them to church office.
and then tried to help out with stuff here and there.

got back rather late.
kind of tired.
but waiting to watch a tv show.
before i hit the sack.
and then wake up in the morning to get my project stuff done.
bleh.
i dont think i can wait till it finish dl-ing.
now it still havent hit 20%!
argh.

indulgence

ate quite a fair bit today.
hehe.
glutton zhien on the eating spree!

this morning had tuition.
and again she cried.
sigh.
i wonder how i can stop her from whining just because i gave her 7 pages of homework.
eeks.
i think i need to instill some discipline in her.
hehe.

i need to instill some discipline in myself too.
i've been cheating on that few hours more of sleep each day.
which is a big deal honestly if you see it as a lack of discipline.
a total sloth attack.

anyway.
afternoon was youth service.
and seriously looking forward to youth rally.
i think it's gonna be a truely refreshing experience.

after that went to makan with fish and zhanming.
went to the prata place near church office.
and shared ice-cream prata with fish.
hehe.
wat a new thing.
haha.
ice-cream prata.
can you imagine?


well it's not hard to imagine. especially when i'm a total photo freak when it comes to food.
tada. a picture of the crispy side.


the ice-cream under the crispy prata!
nepolitan ice-cream with this really crispy prata!
hehe.
quite cool.
yummy!
and this is what both of us called appetizer.
haha.

after that zhong, geraldine and eddie came along.
at first decided to go to suntec to eat.
but settled for ikea in the end.
hehe.
convenient for me anyway. so i dont mind.
hehe.


saw this really cool thing.
it says "why did 244051462 people visit IKEA worldwide so far this year?"
saw this while we were queueing for seats at the cafe. it was near the staircase.
i must say the way they get seats for people was quite an efficient system.
at least dont have to go searching for seats on our own.
and having to fight in those kiasu manner.


we managed to get a window seat.
and so this was the view i took from where we were.
hehe.


chicken wings.
hehe.
yummy.
my main dish for the night!
i simply love them.
hehe.


and for dessert.
this triple layer cake.
chocolate!
hehe.
sweet.

after that walked around ikea for a while.
then we walked all the way to queenstown mrt where some of them took the mrt.
i walked back home.
i guess that little exercise was necessary given the indulgence.
haha.

think the indulgence stopped here?
think again.
hehe.
since when is zhien so NOT gluttony?


walked to the hawker nearby with sis when she asked if i wanted to get dessert.
haha.
and i got myself chengteng!
haha.

enough of the indulgence for the day.
now i've got to really start working.
cos. i realised i've way past the deadline.
and one thing i've got to really be glad of is that my boss is in a good mood recently.
he has been rather lenient.
and i think i should more or less be done with one of my articles.
hehe.
zhien got to start her engine and work!