unpredictability

sometimes.
humans are hard to predict.
i admit that i myself can be rather unpredictable.
most of the time we just seem to allow ourselves to be so easily affected by circumstances.
driving our "mood" up and down.

soemtimes i find myself totally odd.
in a sense i'm way out of what is predictable of the usual me.
but then again.
what is the usual me.

sometimes i find others unpredictable.
for one i can never really guess what's on someone's mind.
and i can never really know a person full well to make sensible predictions.

sometimes i comment that some people are unpredictable.
in fact, i myself am unpredictable.
perhaps.
it's just innate that we comment on the things we dislike in ourselves that we see in others.
i wonder.
just how odd humans can get.
in fact i wonder how odd i can get.

the unstable state of unpredictability.
sometimes can drive me nuts.
thinking of how sometimes i just behave in the most absurd manner.
and thinking of what is it on people's minds.

sometimes i really wish things were simplier.
or maybe i just wish i'm wiser.

mugathon

have been trying to really study.
not really totally fruitful.
still have yet to finish with what i need to prepare for the examinations.
gonna have to work harder!
go go jia you!
hehe.


these are some of what i've been snacking on.
yet. i miss my gummi choc.
the tube of meiji confectionery that i simply adore having as i study.
think i shall go get them tmr!

it has been quite a weekend.


saturday morning was at ntu with jj and ken.
thanks to brother ken we had a lovely venue to study.
he booked one of the rooms at the nie student hub.
air-conditioned place.
quiet. nice tables, chairs.
really very considerate of him to provide the snacks too.
the mugathon kit.


managed to only study with them only for a while.
cos had to tutor hanfeng.
ended up taking quite a lot of silly posed shots!


hehe. more!

evening was sean's 1st birthday.
he is so so so so cute.
he's becoming more and more handsome!
haha.


and it's so sweet to have sisters.
haha. see the card eunice wrote for sean!
how lovely.
the sweet innocence in children.
and the superbly delicious cake!


and the two cute siblings!
how lovely is their smile.
man. but this is one of the rare nice shots.
they keep eyeing the cake!
haha.

and today was a wonderful day.
the message today was thought provoking.
what kind of legacy am i leaving?
we are called to be the light.
yet sometimes i think i get so choked up by busy-ness.
that the vision seems blurred.
many things to constantly reflect upon in my life.
many things to change.
really thank God for His patience in dealing with me.
and for His provision for all that i need in this journey.

no matter how crazy the mugathon is.
ultimately. it's pleasant to have time to clear my mind.
to find that peace that nothing else can bring.
:)

and before i end.
some fun discoveries.
yes i'm easily fascinated!
haha.


this is some interesting yong tau foo.
the noodles is the thick bee hoon.
then got this special sauce served together with the noodles when you order them without soup.
really nice yong tau foo with some interesting stuff to choose.
haha.
it's near church office!
that was some satiating lunch.


saw some of the stuff cold storage is having as part of the christmas goodies sale.
haha.
baci chocs are really nice.
and they are lovely packaged into this champange bottle like thing!
cool!
and of course. the super cute fondue set.
man who can resist?
haha.
it's so cute.
but i didnt get that.
haha.


one last thing.
doesnt this date looks familiar?
hehe.
*hint*
dont worry it's no arithmetric progression or geometric progression.
found this on the hichew candy. its expiry date.
hehe.
sometimes i just observe the weirdest thing! hehe.

k out of here!
hehe.
time to continue with the mugathon!

the battle of the wits

this morning went to school for presentation.
end up not getting to even present my part.
didnt know the teacher was so strict with the timing of 15 mins.
and apparently the time limit was hit even before i got to speak.
goodness.
i wonder if the grading will be individual.
if so. i'm getting a big fat zero i suppose.
well. sometimes it just gets so crap.
you never really know what's on the minds of professors.
goodness.
time to pull up my socks for exams!

after that was bible study with christine.
somehow think that i never really prepare very well.
bleh. got to make sure that the next time the ambience would be better.
hehe.
i've got a lot to learn.

went out with peishan after that.
at first intended to catch the 3.50 show at jp.
but end up deciding not to rush and go the cathy to catch the movie instead.
so travelled down and managed to get tickets for the show!
finally got to watch it!


the movie was good!
although got quite some discrepancies from the manga.
but it was still nicely made.
of course i doubt it was possible to really film everything that the manga tried to potray.
and have viewers who totally never read the manga before understand.
the modifications added some spice i guess.
at least it wasnt like.
well i know all that was in the movie beforehand already.
hehe.
i like 'L'.
so cool.
so smart.
hehe.
i'm so glad that i went to finally catch the movie.
anticipating the sequel to it!
hehe.
gonna read the rest of the volumes of the manga!
hehe.


after that went to have dinner at thai express.
it's been a long time since i last dine there!
hehe.
and look at our hungry silly expressions!
hehe.

thanks girl it was an enjoyable day out.
time to get to mugging for exams!
hehe.

and i just learnt a new word!
hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia means the fear of long words!
how ironic.
blehh. humans are weird.

saturday

quite a fun saturday in my opinion.

started early.
went church office for children church teachers' training.
today's training was about praise and worship.
so we were learning the actions that go with the songs.
and dancing along.
really really fun.
but at the same time tiring.
sometimes it's nice feeling like a big kid.

after that was bible study.
very encouraging session.
and indeed a wonderful time spent.
God's Word is ever so powerful.
:)

lunched with the cell group and some other sisters.
and bought this nice muffin before i had lunch.
hehe. lovely stuff.
maybe i'll buy more next week if the store is still there.
i tried the cheese corn muffin.
got more interesting flavours!
oh my! hehe.

youth service was cool today.
had a guest speaker.
who came to share his testimony.
indeed amazing how God worked in His life.
an ex-drug addict to one of the ambassadors for the yellow ribbon project.
and he's working with the anti-narcotics units.
helping others in rehabiliation, etc.
God can do the extraordinary even through ordinary people!

was out with gloria and junjie for a while after service.
headed for town.
and it's been ages since i last shopped!
goodness.
was initially excited over the wistma atria basement.
thought that it was going to be something brand new.
end up only seeing the same few things around.
the usual famous amos smell.
the usual aquarium.
went isetan seeing that there was a sale.
and end up getting something!


a girly skirt!
haha.
and a good deal too.
got it at 16 bucks.
the original price was more than double of what i bought it at.


headed for ngee ann city there.
saw this competition to win a car.
so many people putting their hands on the car trying to just get that one free car.
oh man.
what a torture.


the public at the side who are bored of watching can even join in the fun.
oh man.
haha.
how odd.

within taka also got some fun stuff!


at b1 there's this really cute small sofa.
haha.
kawaii.
haha. so cute.
and the rocking horse too!
oh man.
but it's so expensive!
haha.

it was a short yet fun shopping trip!
haha.

low frequency

yes.
i realise the low frequency of my blogging.
nothing much to really blog about.

shall just update a little.
of course.
through the week.
there's been things that just simply bring smiles.
and there's been things that simply add on to the stress.
still. it's been a week.
and i'm thankful that i survived.

monday.
met up with christine for bible study.
a good start.
and it's time to prepare for next week!
i'm so glad that she is gradually opening up.
it's silly but i'm happy to receive sms-es from her.
cos it brings encouragement to me.

studied in school after that.
till i was quite shag.
end up slacking around at home once i get back.
worked on project a bit.
super crazy.

tuesday finally got the chance to have dinner with linda.
it's been so long.
really different when i'm not in hall anymore.
how odd.
it just feels different.
and it can be quite funny.
sitting in the room in the place where i used to be.
and yet feeling that out of place.
cos it's no longer the place that i occupy.
had dinner at cant 14.
where it's one of those we usually get to eat at when we're in hall.
but it's been so long since i last ate there.
things do change.
and in an oddly fashion too.

wednesday.
gave class a miss.
since it was presentation for other people.
and i was done with mine.
haha.
kind of bad to not turn up.
but i used the time to study and get some rest.

today.
had quiz.
hmm. i do wonder how i fared.
dont think it'll be fantastic though.

and i screwed up BIG time for my project.
was supposed to do the appendix.
and i messed it all up.
i hate it when i make mistakes.
cos. i always seem to make the BIG ones.
goodness.
i ought to be more careful.
but thank God we finished it.
though we were a little late for class.
still, we got it done.

how stressing.
next week shall have to do a presentation!
got to buck up.

and time to start preparation for the examinations!

i need to stay on the right focus.
i need to constantly monitor myself.
the lifestyle.
that i'm supposed to lead.
i'm learning to lead.
Lord, guide me, teach me.

the elitism saga

the whole saga about the article posted by wee shu min on her blog.
i havent been following.
so i doubt i'm in the position to comment.
and i dont really have much to comment.

but well. i guess there seems to be way too much attention given to a post.
probably due to the fact that she's the daughter of an mp afterall.

honestly.
i dont agree with her views.
at least i dont agree with those chunks that i briefly read through from what some
other people manage to extract from her blog before it got closed.

still.
there isnt a need for some extreme views to link it to elites in general.
i wouldnt brand myself as an elite just because of where i studied in.
elitism is a branding society places on a certain group of people.
of cos she recognised and acknowledged that branding.
but that's not always the case for everyone who studies in the top few schools in singapore.

i can only say.
she probably isnt matured enough.
given the comments that she posted.
i guess it's possibly due to the world that she has been exposed to.
afterall, i dont really think everyone can have such a wide worldview.

still.
my opinion is that.
some hastily generalise.
pointing fingers at all of the so-called "elites" in singapore.
some as much as a mistake she has committed.
posted replies or comments just as immature as she is.
thinking that their worldview is the right one too.

i dont say mine is a superbly fantastic view.
showing maturity and all.
but i just dont think it's right to generalise.
and i dont think that all the comments make sense.
of course there are i suppose.
i havent read them all.

oh well.
i dont think i've much to comment anymore.
i'm just bored.
and randomly posting some random thoughts.

time to get to mugging!

perspective shift

sometimes.
i think i do need the perspective shift.
half-full or half-empty?
indeed i've been blessed in many ways.
yet at times i overlook the blessings that i receive.
and magnify those problems.
time to really count my blessings.

some updates.

yesterday.
had dinner with some of the committee people.
ate at azabu restaurant.

conclusion
the food there isnt that fantastic.
the display on the outside looks quite good.
but personally i think the food is average.
and some of the waiters were rather rude in my opinion.
well.
it was quite a dinner still.


food galore!
clockwise from top left
display at the entrance of the store
bento - the height of the box isnt a reflection of the amount!
teriyaki bento which i had
tempura bento


desserts.
banana-ble.
mango-licious.
greentea-ish.
chocolate-ty.

today had been a long day.
kind of worn out.
but i'm glad God sustained me.
i reached school super early. but i'm glad because it gave me enough time to prepare.
i walked quite a fair bit around school to rush to one end to the other. but i'm glad that i worked out a bit since i dont usually get to.
i used up quite some strength carrying things around. but i'm glad that there were people to help.
i had presentation which i totally had no confident of the night before. but i'm glad there was encouragement by others.


i got my finger bruised while carrying things.
but i'm so happy that my booth stuff looks colourful.
at least from this picture it does.

i need to learn to see the 90% of blessings that i've got.
and not the 10% that i've missed out.