haha.
it's been some time.
linda say my blog gathering dust.
so i shall update a little.
before i pile up more content and have more lengthy posts.
heading for camp from 17 to 20.
so i guess it'll be good to write about what has happened thus far.
then when i'm back. write about the camp!
anyway.
just a summary.
cos i really want to go sleep soon.
and prepare myself to be fresh and ready to ignite!
hehe.
from 4 to 9 dec.
i was in segamat. this part of johor, malaysia.
went to 2 parts - jementah and pekan jabi.
on missions trip.
it was really an eye-opener.
the first time i took a train ride.
i've always passed by the railway tracks when i walk to and fro school then in my jc days.
but this is the first time i took the train.
was full of excitement for the trip.
definitely God showed His faithfulness during the trip.
He provided us with good weather on wednesday.
when we held a sports carnival there for the children and the youths.
i felt very blessed to see a beautiful scene even before the event started.
a few of us were just prayer walking at the sports field and before we started, we looked up to the sky and saw beautiful sun rays piercing through the clouds.
we just marvelled at the sight. and couldn't help wonder.
the glory of God is surely even a more magnificent sight than what we saw.
and that day. we just saw God bringing the children to the place.
though the event wasn't highly publicized. we saw 41 children coming that day.
and we had fun interacting with the children.
and i really believe God used us to sow seeds in the lives of these little ones and surely we made some impact.
i also saw how fortunate we are. how much we are provided with in Singapore.
in Singapore we have the luxury of many things.
the people there had such simple lives.
i wonder which is more of a privilege.
we went visiting some of the people.
talking to them and trying to share the Gospel with them.
some were more open.
it's just sad seeing how directionless these people were.
the people somehow don't have much that they look forward to in life.
still. i believe God is going to bring change in that place.
as we pray for the people there.
there's going to be something better that God will bring about.
i really enjoyed the time there.
my very first missions trip.
DEFINITELY more receiving than giving.
God has worked in my life and through my life.
feeling God's heartbeat for the people.
just capturing a glimpse of His love for people.
i felt so heavy a burden that my flesh was crying out.
it seemed so heavy to carry.
yet God brought assurance that His grace is more than sufficient to help me carry.
learning to take initiative.
many times during the trip.
i had to be reminded that i need to be less passive.
having to lead one of the teams on my first missions trip.
is a challenge. especially in a totally foreign place to me.
but i guess God is training me for what is ahead.
there's more that He's going to bring change in for my life.
definitely i'm one with many flaws.
but God is in the process of moulding and shaping.
don't expect me to be perfect.
i'm trying to just be better.
:)
learning to take time to wait upon the Lord.
missions trip. was a luxury.
having the time to just wait upon the Lord.
coming back. i just feel that i lack the time.
compared to the trip.
the peace. the clearer sense of direction.
that comes from soaking in His presence.
nothing can replace that.
and i need to be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit.
surely. i want to be a spirit-led child of God!
in the trip.
God also renewed the way i worship Him.
and i'm most glad.
just what i need.
i'm just thankful.
how God knows. my every need.
also. God was at work.
even before i left for the trip.
2 out of my 3 interviews were originally scheduled to be on 5th while i'm away.
thank God for His favour.
that i managed to shift them to a later date until i'm back.
it sure wasn't easy.
getting the busy partners (the big shots) to fit your time.
and i'm thankful.
praise God.
surely God is good. God is faithful.
and when i went for the interviews.
there was just this confidence.
and the peace of God.
and i thank God. all 3 companies made an offer.
so i didn't have to face rejection.
and i was telling God. please. i don't want to be rejected!
haha.
thank God for His favour.
and special thanks to linda.
who helped me with subject registration.
which was scheduled while i was away.
thanks girl.
i'm thankful that i got the time slots i wanted.
and i'm blessed with people who are willing to help.
i guess God really does send angels when you least expect Him to.
of course. life's not always smooth.
i suffered quite a hit this week.
just a few days back.
i walked out of my house.
literally. i know this sounds rebellious.
and i know i was acting horribly.
i really wonder how God's going to lead my family to Him.
cos when the fight broke out that night.
i felt totally horrible.
i know i wasn't being the exact good example at home.
i know i wasn't displaying Christ-likeness.
but really. i'm not perfect.
when i walked out.
i really almost wanted to give up.
looking at the way things are.
it just seems so hard to bring them to see the Way the Truth and the Life.
i cried and walked.
i know deep within i felt like i didn't know where i could go.
but i just walked.
and i'm glad that God knocked sense into me.
admist all that i was feeling.
i kept having so much 'impossibles' flooding my mind.
and i was telling God. show me stars. i've seldom got beautiful sight of stars.
Singapore was usually cloudy. and with the recent monsoon period. there just seems to be so cloudy. i was saying impossible to see the orion. (which in fact i really havent seen before until that night)
and just that instant i said that. i was snapped to my senses.
reminded of what God spoke of during the trip.
God doesn't have to do what i ask of Him just to prove that He is God.
He is God. and that is a fact in itself.
and upon coming to my senses. the Lord of all creation showed me beautiful stars that night.
and i saw the orion.
lovely.
i thank God.
for that reassurance that He's Lord of all. He is the One at work.
and so. i walked home.
sat down at the playground below my block.
and just read the book that i took out with me.
a horrible night. yet there was such peace that replaced all the negativity i felt.
i'm hoping. things at home will change.
really soon.
God use me.
ok. off to sleep.
and then off to camp ignite!
