sis. mum told me you called her. we'll chat more on skype ok? dont be upset by things there. just like you miss us. we miss you too. i missed having you to chat with me sometimes while we both are lying in bed. talking about anything that just comes to our mind. then end off with a 'good night'. i always sleep very well after that. really miss having you around to complain about things that displeases you. and i miss having you around to let me complain about things too. miss having you around to shout across our room and the living room when we team up in gunbound. miss having you around to shop with me. miss having you around to teach me things whether it's with regards to life or what. miss having you around to reassure me that things are as bad i usually see them as. miss having you around to talk to me about every single thing that happens. miss having you around to tell me your tuition experience with that talkative smart boy. missed having your loud alarm ringing early in the morning on certain days that wakes me up sometimes but you can still continue sleeping. miss hearing your voice. miss going with you to the macs nearby to just satisfy our craving for mcflurry. miss having you to ask me if i want desserts in the evening. miss having you around just for any reason. i've always looked up to you. i wanted to be as capable as you are. or even better. i think you are able to survive the few months off in atlanta. you will be. in my opinion you can. no matter how tough it can be to handle relationships with the people. no matter how extensive the literature of those readings can be. no matter how tough going the whole exchange programme can be. no matter how difficult it is to live in a place which you are unfamiliar of alone. no matter how it makes you feel upset that you arent around. no matter how things can be bothering you. please hang on. i know you can survive this. no matter what i am here to support you in whatever you do. all the best. sis. just as much as you miss us. we miss you too. but you'll be back with us again in june. i believe time will pass and i really cant wait for the day you come back. your pooh is waiting for you and so am i. i am waiting for the parcel you sent. i can only say. whatever it is. i will love it. i have always liked what you get for me. this time will be no exception. i know you are waiting for what i sent too. it might just be those stuff that you need. plus something small from me. i do hope that's some small thing that can bring you joy. i really dont mind sending more if it can bring you the joy that can never be bought. i'll just work harder save more and spend on postage. :) i'll just end off. do take care and we'll talk on skype whenever we get the chance to. i'll wake up earlier. love you lots.
Friday, January 28, 2005
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
postman zhien
went to singpost today. mailed out those new year cards for mum and myself. madness. spent $3.45 on the postage just for those cards. sent out in total 20 new year cards. woah. even settled the parcel to send to my sis in atlanta. spent me slightly more than 50 bucks to send it off to the states by airmail. i was told i can opt for sea mail which will take weeks to send the package over. in the end, to get it done within 2 weeks. i paid 50 bucks just for that box of stuff. hmmm. looks like my wallet is really getting tighter and tighter. have to scrimp and save a little before i get my pay next week.
slacked off today after that. supposed to give tuition lessons to one student but had cancelled it the day before cos she had something on. now my thursdays are going to be packed with tuition also. argh. played sims 2 cos the connection and scv was under some maintanance as mentioned in some mail from starhub so i couldnt online and simply played computer games to pass time. sigh. i am wasting my time. i am just simply bored.
tmr morning gonna make myself wake up and go jogging with peishan!
slacked off today after that. supposed to give tuition lessons to one student but had cancelled it the day before cos she had something on. now my thursdays are going to be packed with tuition also. argh. played sims 2 cos the connection and scv was under some maintanance as mentioned in some mail from starhub so i couldnt online and simply played computer games to pass time. sigh. i am wasting my time. i am just simply bored.
tmr morning gonna make myself wake up and go jogging with peishan!
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
success vs failure
- success -
today went shopping with peishan at jp in the afternoon just before tuition. went to get my new year clothes. sry peishan to make you shop with me. you already got your new year clothes and still came with me cos i asked you too. thanks lots. really really appreciate that. i hope you arent too tired for work today. anyway. i managed to finish shopping for new year clothes. walked around jp today and tried on many clothes. first was op. saw this really sweet skirt at 36 bucks. haha. nice. but decide to give it a miss. put it into consideration first. well it was kind of hard to match it with the tops that i have anyway. will buy it next time maybe if i got more clothes to go with it. next went bossini and tried on a black 3-quarter pants. 42 bucks. eeks. haha. didnt buy it of course. we were still looking around. even went hang ten. john little. espirit. almost any other shop that can be found in jp. haha. in the end. i settled the shopping for clothes with a pair of jeans from bum equipment. a skirt from double index. a pair of flip-flops from bata. haha. spent so much in one day. to be exact a few hours of shopping. haha. well. most prob i wont be shopping that often for the next few months. i dont think i really got the time to after new year anyway. i gonna be a work machine. after that. we went looking around. got a big soft toy from cards n such for my elder sis for v-day. it's gonna sit quietly under my table until my sis gets back from atlanta. i've got it nicely wrapped so it wouldnt get dirty months later. then went to long john's for lunch. slightly fattening to take fast food. but well. the food court at jp is horrid. so i cant be bothered to wait for seats. but end up seeing lots of lian and beng people from secondary school's nearby. sigh. well. public place. i cant do anything about it. even went walking around a little after that. went to ntuc to get some stuff and then popular. even went to anderson's and we both shared an ice-cream. haha. we wanted to satisfy our craving yet dont want to eat up so much calories. well. girls do that quite often i guess. haha. in the end, we shopped for slightly less than 4 hours. headed back home to get ready for tuition while peishan went off to work. thanks lots for keeping me company. really really nice to shop with you. haha. next time when are financially more abled. we can go look look see see again. i shall try to shop less. so that i can save up. :)
- failure -
sigh. i was a failure today. ran again. cos i am trying to make it a habit to exercise a little each week. tuesday evening gonna be one day that i'll try keep up with. arranged with peishan to go jogging on thursday morning. haha. gonna try keep that as a constant thing. haha. i think i need to be fitter. anyway. today was a failure. why. maybe cos i was having flu and i insisted on going on with it. been having a blocked nose for the past few days and it just seem to bug me still. being asthmatic. well. i ran 3.25 rounds continuously and then stopped to walk. tried to continue but i just couldnt. felt a little uncomfortable and was trying to get my breathing properly back in place. stupid la. really very very unfit. i walked the rest of the 1.75 rounds. and after that stopped. sigh. ying went with me and she did 6 rounds continuously and then cooled down by walking 1 round. sigh. the huge difference. haha. i really need to make myself fitter. really not not not fit. hopefully thursday morning's jog will be better. hopefully can do more rounds. whether it's slow or not. ming1 tian1 hui4 geng4 hao3.
today went shopping with peishan at jp in the afternoon just before tuition. went to get my new year clothes. sry peishan to make you shop with me. you already got your new year clothes and still came with me cos i asked you too. thanks lots. really really appreciate that. i hope you arent too tired for work today. anyway. i managed to finish shopping for new year clothes. walked around jp today and tried on many clothes. first was op. saw this really sweet skirt at 36 bucks. haha. nice. but decide to give it a miss. put it into consideration first. well it was kind of hard to match it with the tops that i have anyway. will buy it next time maybe if i got more clothes to go with it. next went bossini and tried on a black 3-quarter pants. 42 bucks. eeks. haha. didnt buy it of course. we were still looking around. even went hang ten. john little. espirit. almost any other shop that can be found in jp. haha. in the end. i settled the shopping for clothes with a pair of jeans from bum equipment. a skirt from double index. a pair of flip-flops from bata. haha. spent so much in one day. to be exact a few hours of shopping. haha. well. most prob i wont be shopping that often for the next few months. i dont think i really got the time to after new year anyway. i gonna be a work machine. after that. we went looking around. got a big soft toy from cards n such for my elder sis for v-day. it's gonna sit quietly under my table until my sis gets back from atlanta. i've got it nicely wrapped so it wouldnt get dirty months later. then went to long john's for lunch. slightly fattening to take fast food. but well. the food court at jp is horrid. so i cant be bothered to wait for seats. but end up seeing lots of lian and beng people from secondary school's nearby. sigh. well. public place. i cant do anything about it. even went walking around a little after that. went to ntuc to get some stuff and then popular. even went to anderson's and we both shared an ice-cream. haha. we wanted to satisfy our craving yet dont want to eat up so much calories. well. girls do that quite often i guess. haha. in the end, we shopped for slightly less than 4 hours. headed back home to get ready for tuition while peishan went off to work. thanks lots for keeping me company. really really nice to shop with you. haha. next time when are financially more abled. we can go look look see see again. i shall try to shop less. so that i can save up. :)
- failure -
sigh. i was a failure today. ran again. cos i am trying to make it a habit to exercise a little each week. tuesday evening gonna be one day that i'll try keep up with. arranged with peishan to go jogging on thursday morning. haha. gonna try keep that as a constant thing. haha. i think i need to be fitter. anyway. today was a failure. why. maybe cos i was having flu and i insisted on going on with it. been having a blocked nose for the past few days and it just seem to bug me still. being asthmatic. well. i ran 3.25 rounds continuously and then stopped to walk. tried to continue but i just couldnt. felt a little uncomfortable and was trying to get my breathing properly back in place. stupid la. really very very unfit. i walked the rest of the 1.75 rounds. and after that stopped. sigh. ying went with me and she did 6 rounds continuously and then cooled down by walking 1 round. sigh. the huge difference. haha. i really need to make myself fitter. really not not not fit. hopefully thursday morning's jog will be better. hopefully can do more rounds. whether it's slow or not. ming1 tian1 hui4 geng4 hao3.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
freaky sunday
another bad day at work. whatever. i am getting clumsier and blurrer each day.
the string of bad things started happening with me spilling strawberry drink on my shoe. crap. now it has a pink patch right on the right leg and it looks horrid since i have a grey track shoes. damn. now i've got to wash it and hope that the weather dont play a horrible trick on me. i need to dry them so that i can wear them out if i want to. argh. this is sickening. curses. i need to go and think of a way to change my luck i think.
next was. i was refilling this sugar power. and the next thing was. i spilled them on myself again. whatever. this is getting really bad. i wonder how people can do that la. i am making a mess of my workplace. and a total fool out of myself. well. swept that off quite easily. i reacted a little faster or else i would have got everything on the floor. and i can imagine what happens to my pay if that happens.
after that. last one. phew. seems little but 3 horrid things happening at work is enough to make your day feel bad enough. i was supposed to coat the "thing" with chocolate powder. i threw it down and *puff* the powder flew up as though i was dusting some thousand year old furniture. my apron, shirt and a little of my face had powder on it! gosh. crappy day. what can be worse. this week. for the 2 days i worked. i have been having bad encounters.
really. i wonder why. is my luck getting really that bad. or am i getting fatter so i am clumsier. or i am simply just distracted for whatever reason that i dont even know of. argh. sigh. next week might be better. looks like i gonna hate it when thursday comes. cos friday, saturday and sunday is when i have to go work again and then well. things happen. wish me luck. i guess i need lots of it. whether which 3 of those reasons that's coursing this series of freaky accidents. sigh. what a day.
the string of bad things started happening with me spilling strawberry drink on my shoe. crap. now it has a pink patch right on the right leg and it looks horrid since i have a grey track shoes. damn. now i've got to wash it and hope that the weather dont play a horrible trick on me. i need to dry them so that i can wear them out if i want to. argh. this is sickening. curses. i need to go and think of a way to change my luck i think.
next was. i was refilling this sugar power. and the next thing was. i spilled them on myself again. whatever. this is getting really bad. i wonder how people can do that la. i am making a mess of my workplace. and a total fool out of myself. well. swept that off quite easily. i reacted a little faster or else i would have got everything on the floor. and i can imagine what happens to my pay if that happens.
after that. last one. phew. seems little but 3 horrid things happening at work is enough to make your day feel bad enough. i was supposed to coat the "thing" with chocolate powder. i threw it down and *puff* the powder flew up as though i was dusting some thousand year old furniture. my apron, shirt and a little of my face had powder on it! gosh. crappy day. what can be worse. this week. for the 2 days i worked. i have been having bad encounters.
really. i wonder why. is my luck getting really that bad. or am i getting fatter so i am clumsier. or i am simply just distracted for whatever reason that i dont even know of. argh. sigh. next week might be better. looks like i gonna hate it when thursday comes. cos friday, saturday and sunday is when i have to go work again and then well. things happen. wish me luck. i guess i need lots of it. whether which 3 of those reasons that's coursing this series of freaky accidents. sigh. what a day.
Friday, January 21, 2005
black friday
from white to black. from heaven to hell. haha. coincidentally i am wearing black tee today. argh. this is bad. haha. but today is black cos i was super unlucky at work.
first thing was i had to work on a public holiday. groans. no doubt the pay is a super big incentive. but the incentive also means more work as there's more people shopping. plus. i gave my class gathering a miss. cos i had to work. haha.
i went there super early. wonder why even the bus seems to be hinting me something. the bus journey didnt take long. i reached there way before the time i expected myself to reach. wanted to pass a card to my friend, whom i thought would be working today. in the end, i reached so early and yet. i didnt see her there. most probably she's not working today. unlike me. in the end i had to spend time rotting near the shop waiting for time to pass so that i can punch my card in and start work. argh. bad miscalculation of time.
at work. introduced many new things to me today. lots lots. haha. new promotion. new item. started off a little blur.
many people shopping today. so was very very busy. didnt really have much time to drink water. and my throat is dying of thirst. standing at the cashier and not getting to drink is hell. in the end, finally got a chance to quench my thirst. was trying to get a small plastic cup to get myself a drink. the next thing was i lifted my hand. whacked the container that was below the drinks dispenser to contain those drinks that drip off. splashed. i washed myself with lemonade. interesting. very very interesting. argh. unlucky. hey it isnt friday the 13th. why do this to me? crap. well. i had to clean up the cupboard cos the drink also splashed on it. mop the floor. clean up the mess. before i can get a drink. argh. tough luck.
after all the hustle and bustle. was so tired. haha. i almost can doze off standing at the counter. and i actually forgot to give change back to one customer. she was like. you didnt give me the $3 change. i was like. *tink* oh ya! oops. sry sry. sigh. what's this la. those who really dont know me will think that i am an idiot who really dont have an idea how to count and have to end up working part-time at those low-paid place. argh. what else can i say. i had an unlucky day.
now i am tired. dead tired. my classmates arent online yet. so most prob they have just ended the gathering and are on their way home.
sigh. from a typical normal smooth-going thursday to a crappy unlucky friday. what can be the worse change?!?!?
first thing was i had to work on a public holiday. groans. no doubt the pay is a super big incentive. but the incentive also means more work as there's more people shopping. plus. i gave my class gathering a miss. cos i had to work. haha.
i went there super early. wonder why even the bus seems to be hinting me something. the bus journey didnt take long. i reached there way before the time i expected myself to reach. wanted to pass a card to my friend, whom i thought would be working today. in the end, i reached so early and yet. i didnt see her there. most probably she's not working today. unlike me. in the end i had to spend time rotting near the shop waiting for time to pass so that i can punch my card in and start work. argh. bad miscalculation of time.
at work. introduced many new things to me today. lots lots. haha. new promotion. new item. started off a little blur.
many people shopping today. so was very very busy. didnt really have much time to drink water. and my throat is dying of thirst. standing at the cashier and not getting to drink is hell. in the end, finally got a chance to quench my thirst. was trying to get a small plastic cup to get myself a drink. the next thing was i lifted my hand. whacked the container that was below the drinks dispenser to contain those drinks that drip off. splashed. i washed myself with lemonade. interesting. very very interesting. argh. unlucky. hey it isnt friday the 13th. why do this to me? crap. well. i had to clean up the cupboard cos the drink also splashed on it. mop the floor. clean up the mess. before i can get a drink. argh. tough luck.
after all the hustle and bustle. was so tired. haha. i almost can doze off standing at the counter. and i actually forgot to give change back to one customer. she was like. you didnt give me the $3 change. i was like. *tink* oh ya! oops. sry sry. sigh. what's this la. those who really dont know me will think that i am an idiot who really dont have an idea how to count and have to end up working part-time at those low-paid place. argh. what else can i say. i had an unlucky day.
now i am tired. dead tired. my classmates arent online yet. so most prob they have just ended the gathering and are on their way home.
sigh. from a typical normal smooth-going thursday to a crappy unlucky friday. what can be the worse change?!?!?
Thursday, January 20, 2005
white thursday
white. dont know why i pick white. haha. just for fun. maybe cos i wearing a white tee today.
nothing much for thursday usually. no one is free to keep me occupied anyway. as usual. i woke up. came online. got in 2 blog entries before this one for today. watched a bit of tv. of course the usual bath. and then tutor.
today i dared not be harsh on him for tuition. i am an angel mah. haha. i'm sure. that's rubbish. well. he was unwell today. haha. so wasnt really concentrating when i was teaching. i almost wanted to give up teaching him after an hour. although today was to teach him maths. my fav subject. he's smart no doubt. but he really looks bad when he is unwell. took him years to think of a simple sum. in the end i gave up. switched to english and end up reading to him. sigh. felt like it was a wasted lesson. i might as well leave after that one hour and make it up to him when he's in the right state of mind to answer my questions. argh. hate it when things arent really done. it's a waste of money on his parent's part. and a waste of time on my part. well. hope things are fine next lesson. he has to get well.
after that slacked a while at home. then went to library at jurong point. borrowed 4 books. city girl. some non-fiction book. something i thought might be interesting to read. i seriously hope so. i am not really a reader. something really really boring can make me sleep. asian exports. a book i hope can help me make my scholarship essay sound better. will go read it so that i can give more insightful things. that might just increase my chances of getting that scholarship. studying law at university. hopefully can give me a better idea what's in store for me if i were to really take up law in uni. maybe it might just deter me from it. was flipping through some other books in the library that's related to law. kind of scary. dont really know if i am prepared for many many literature for my uni life. maybe this might be a good preparatory book. i hope. as level law. other book related to law. but more general compared to the previous one. more difficult to understand i think. maybe it might be of help. i really dont know. well. i fulfilled my promise. i am going to have things to read for the next few weeks. they are only due on the eleventh of the next month. three weeks.
after that went to take a look at tee seng's work place. haha. cos i was super bored. since it's just near that area i just went. haha. psc. warehouse sale. sounds really funny. weird place. i wonder what prompt me to go there. maybe cos was chatting with tee seng the day before on msn. just simply curious to know what that place is like. what that fascinates me isnt that place. it's the cadbury factory that was just beside it. too bad i went there kind of late. the factory isnt open. according to tee seng, he can smell the cocoa smell everyday. haha. interesting. mmmmmm. chocolates. haha. anyway. the place where he's working at. sells lots of things at really affordable prices. 24 cans of drinks at $8.90. rice at $4+ for 1 kg i think. many other household things. good for the coming new year season. haha. affordable treats. and can change some other things that you dont want in the house. lucky i went at 7 plus. haha. that place isnt air-conditioned. so in the afternoon it's really hot. but well. looks like an interesting place to work at maybe. can gain some exceptional experience. :) in the end got a lift home from tee seng's father. haha. lucky me.
now that i am back at home. it's tv time and slacking time. and reading time. haha. gonna do something that hopefully stimulates my brain for once. hope. :)
nothing much for thursday usually. no one is free to keep me occupied anyway. as usual. i woke up. came online. got in 2 blog entries before this one for today. watched a bit of tv. of course the usual bath. and then tutor.
today i dared not be harsh on him for tuition. i am an angel mah. haha. i'm sure. that's rubbish. well. he was unwell today. haha. so wasnt really concentrating when i was teaching. i almost wanted to give up teaching him after an hour. although today was to teach him maths. my fav subject. he's smart no doubt. but he really looks bad when he is unwell. took him years to think of a simple sum. in the end i gave up. switched to english and end up reading to him. sigh. felt like it was a wasted lesson. i might as well leave after that one hour and make it up to him when he's in the right state of mind to answer my questions. argh. hate it when things arent really done. it's a waste of money on his parent's part. and a waste of time on my part. well. hope things are fine next lesson. he has to get well.
after that slacked a while at home. then went to library at jurong point. borrowed 4 books. city girl. some non-fiction book. something i thought might be interesting to read. i seriously hope so. i am not really a reader. something really really boring can make me sleep. asian exports. a book i hope can help me make my scholarship essay sound better. will go read it so that i can give more insightful things. that might just increase my chances of getting that scholarship. studying law at university. hopefully can give me a better idea what's in store for me if i were to really take up law in uni. maybe it might just deter me from it. was flipping through some other books in the library that's related to law. kind of scary. dont really know if i am prepared for many many literature for my uni life. maybe this might be a good preparatory book. i hope. as level law. other book related to law. but more general compared to the previous one. more difficult to understand i think. maybe it might be of help. i really dont know. well. i fulfilled my promise. i am going to have things to read for the next few weeks. they are only due on the eleventh of the next month. three weeks.
after that went to take a look at tee seng's work place. haha. cos i was super bored. since it's just near that area i just went. haha. psc. warehouse sale. sounds really funny. weird place. i wonder what prompt me to go there. maybe cos was chatting with tee seng the day before on msn. just simply curious to know what that place is like. what that fascinates me isnt that place. it's the cadbury factory that was just beside it. too bad i went there kind of late. the factory isnt open. according to tee seng, he can smell the cocoa smell everyday. haha. interesting. mmmmmm. chocolates. haha. anyway. the place where he's working at. sells lots of things at really affordable prices. 24 cans of drinks at $8.90. rice at $4+ for 1 kg i think. many other household things. good for the coming new year season. haha. affordable treats. and can change some other things that you dont want in the house. lucky i went at 7 plus. haha. that place isnt air-conditioned. so in the afternoon it's really hot. but well. looks like an interesting place to work at maybe. can gain some exceptional experience. :) in the end got a lift home from tee seng's father. haha. lucky me.
now that i am back at home. it's tv time and slacking time. and reading time. haha. gonna do something that hopefully stimulates my brain for once. hope. :)
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