finally there's some good news. and i am more than glad to welcome good news. i have enough of those bad stuff.
well. i am so proud of my sister! haha. she did well and i am really really glad. i hope my results that are coming out soon will be just as good. then my mum will really be happy. good luck to me. congratulations to my dearest sister. now everything is fine. good! yay!
Monday, February 28, 2005
Sunday, February 27, 2005
end of it all
one week. that's all it took for things to change. how interesting a human mind can work. fast change of mind. indeed. one week. that's all. it's the end.
past few days i was a happy girl. happy happy happy. princess-y and all. things went on well. everything was so nice and sweet and ya simply too good to be true.
no one stays happy forever i guess. maybe that's why now it has to change. now it has to end all those happy happy days. it's time for me to stop wandering in dream land and get back to reality. the harsh realities. life sucks. it does. doesnt it. it just simply changes people. changes things so fast. and before you know it. that's it. happy days are gone and more sad days to come. "yahoo!" (oh. wow....)
now i feel super crapped up. super dumb. i wonder what prompt me to be like that for the past few days. i shouldnt have opted to be a happy girl. should have chosen to let life be simple and revolve just about myself and it's just gonna be me me me and nothing else but me. i shouldnt have decided that i should give myself a chance to try sthg so "fun" (i'm sure). ended up with only sad sad things to pick up. i played with fire. now i pack up the mess myself. argh. what else can i do except tell myself that tomorrow will be better? i certainly hope so.
messed up at work today. doing all sorts of weird things simply cos my mind would just wonder off. it's bad. kind of like. maybe cos i skipped work for one day. maybe. or it's just that. that is bothering me. cant be bothered to tell anyone what exactly that is bothering me. it shall just be my own business and i will rant on and on here making no sense of what i am talking. hmm. good keep it that way. my diary went out of space. or else i wouldnt be ranting here. i will get an addition to my diary. soon. someday. argh. cant be bothered. i've got more things to care about.
past few days i was a happy girl. happy happy happy. princess-y and all. things went on well. everything was so nice and sweet and ya simply too good to be true.
no one stays happy forever i guess. maybe that's why now it has to change. now it has to end all those happy happy days. it's time for me to stop wandering in dream land and get back to reality. the harsh realities. life sucks. it does. doesnt it. it just simply changes people. changes things so fast. and before you know it. that's it. happy days are gone and more sad days to come. "yahoo!" (oh. wow....)
now i feel super crapped up. super dumb. i wonder what prompt me to be like that for the past few days. i shouldnt have opted to be a happy girl. should have chosen to let life be simple and revolve just about myself and it's just gonna be me me me and nothing else but me. i shouldnt have decided that i should give myself a chance to try sthg so "fun" (i'm sure). ended up with only sad sad things to pick up. i played with fire. now i pack up the mess myself. argh. what else can i do except tell myself that tomorrow will be better? i certainly hope so.
messed up at work today. doing all sorts of weird things simply cos my mind would just wonder off. it's bad. kind of like. maybe cos i skipped work for one day. maybe. or it's just that. that is bothering me. cant be bothered to tell anyone what exactly that is bothering me. it shall just be my own business and i will rant on and on here making no sense of what i am talking. hmm. good keep it that way. my diary went out of space. or else i wouldnt be ranting here. i will get an addition to my diary. soon. someday. argh. cant be bothered. i've got more things to care about.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
sweet thursday
hehe. nice day. nothing much. but still nice.
early in the morning. went to run errands for my mum. ended up with nothing. cos it's like not within my abilities to help. then end up stranded at clementi for some time. wanted to wait till the bookshop open and buy some stuff before i get back. haha. bumped my manager while i was loithering around the area. haha. now coincidental. haha. then after that got myself kfc for lunch. damn. monday had kfc. yesterday had mcs. today kfc. getting really sick of fast food. goodness. the eating is killing me. haha. luckily not gaining much cos i am dont eat anything else for the rest of the day if i eat fast food most of the time.
afternoon tutored zc. went there dressed properly to go to rj later. then he was commenting and ya. usual. he criticised more like it. haha. doesnt matter la. cant be bothered le. haha. after tuition went to meet shiyun and sarah at j8. shopped around a bit then went for dinner. was wondering what to eat. i just said. no fast food. haha. ended up eating at thai express. the first time i eat a proper main course there. haha. not bad. haha. not as spicy as i thought. maybe i chose the right one. and the mango dessert thing was superbly delicious. loved that. haha. today eat like mad. tmr got to go run. haha. ps. we already agreed. haha.
drama feste today. went to sit in as audience after 2 yrs working backstage. haha. not bad. some interesting plays. some rather chiem ones. haha. but still. nice to watch. afterall. cos of sarah. we got free tix. haha. cool. thanks girl. yap. basically that's all for today. enjoyable. with something new afterall. wont make me that bored. ya. nice day.
early in the morning. went to run errands for my mum. ended up with nothing. cos it's like not within my abilities to help. then end up stranded at clementi for some time. wanted to wait till the bookshop open and buy some stuff before i get back. haha. bumped my manager while i was loithering around the area. haha. now coincidental. haha. then after that got myself kfc for lunch. damn. monday had kfc. yesterday had mcs. today kfc. getting really sick of fast food. goodness. the eating is killing me. haha. luckily not gaining much cos i am dont eat anything else for the rest of the day if i eat fast food most of the time.
afternoon tutored zc. went there dressed properly to go to rj later. then he was commenting and ya. usual. he criticised more like it. haha. doesnt matter la. cant be bothered le. haha. after tuition went to meet shiyun and sarah at j8. shopped around a bit then went for dinner. was wondering what to eat. i just said. no fast food. haha. ended up eating at thai express. the first time i eat a proper main course there. haha. not bad. haha. not as spicy as i thought. maybe i chose the right one. and the mango dessert thing was superbly delicious. loved that. haha. today eat like mad. tmr got to go run. haha. ps. we already agreed. haha.
drama feste today. went to sit in as audience after 2 yrs working backstage. haha. not bad. some interesting plays. some rather chiem ones. haha. but still. nice to watch. afterall. cos of sarah. we got free tix. haha. cool. thanks girl. yap. basically that's all for today. enjoyable. with something new afterall. wont make me that bored. ya. nice day.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
silent
haha. my blog seems now so blank blank blank. no one tags. i seldom blog. haha. nothing much going around here for me la. i dying to go back to school to study. although it means tests ah. homework. it's been sooooo long since i wore my school uniform.
haha. i sound a little bit bonkers like that. who the hell would want to go school. but i miss schooling. sleeping in lts when i really cannot take it. haha. talking to classmates during breaks ah. chionging tutorials in empty classrooms when we need them for the next lesson. trying to ghim moh every other day simply cos we were so sick of the canteen food ah. old campus is old. but it has nice memories. the new campus will most probably bring back that much wonderful memories. no doubt schooling means tests, ccas, every single academic aspects. but i love to go school. it's where my friends are. it's where i start running off from when they have celebrations cos i want to go back to my secondary school. those were those days. so far. i just seem to work my heart out. and slack at certain days. waiting for the time i do tuition. come home. online. gb. goes on week and week. tests are brain stimulating. working like that now isnt intellectually challenging me as yet. ok. i guess i am a mugger. bookworm. geek. nerd. whatever. haha.
later tutoring zc again. he's super smart so i aint that worried. the rest of my students have tests coming up and i certainly hope they do well. things are getting along fine apart from me getting easily bored about having to repeat the routine.
of course i am stressed. results are coming out soon. i am just trying to make myself not think of it. it's good not to think i guess. i am not having nightmares. i am not freaking out. i am not fainting any moment yet. i guess those who are waiting for results are also super stressed out. i just want to relax while i can. i had nightmares during 'o's and i dont want that to happen again. haha. but that nightmare was lame. lame lame lame. i dreamt that i havent do my examinations yet. and i didnt know that it was scheduled that day. chinese. wah. that one can sian diao. nvr study for chinese really equals dying. haha. but well. i have already completed the whole 'o' level exams when i got the nightmare. just woke up feeling as though i havent. haha. kind of stupid. but well. that episode is over. now another one is up. no nightmares yet and i am more than glad. i sleep rather well these days. not really brooding over lots of things. which i certainly think is good. i hope i can survive handling the pressure until i get results. of course. i hope i do well. who doesnt?!
haha. i sound a little bit bonkers like that. who the hell would want to go school. but i miss schooling. sleeping in lts when i really cannot take it. haha. talking to classmates during breaks ah. chionging tutorials in empty classrooms when we need them for the next lesson. trying to ghim moh every other day simply cos we were so sick of the canteen food ah. old campus is old. but it has nice memories. the new campus will most probably bring back that much wonderful memories. no doubt schooling means tests, ccas, every single academic aspects. but i love to go school. it's where my friends are. it's where i start running off from when they have celebrations cos i want to go back to my secondary school. those were those days. so far. i just seem to work my heart out. and slack at certain days. waiting for the time i do tuition. come home. online. gb. goes on week and week. tests are brain stimulating. working like that now isnt intellectually challenging me as yet. ok. i guess i am a mugger. bookworm. geek. nerd. whatever. haha.
later tutoring zc again. he's super smart so i aint that worried. the rest of my students have tests coming up and i certainly hope they do well. things are getting along fine apart from me getting easily bored about having to repeat the routine.
of course i am stressed. results are coming out soon. i am just trying to make myself not think of it. it's good not to think i guess. i am not having nightmares. i am not freaking out. i am not fainting any moment yet. i guess those who are waiting for results are also super stressed out. i just want to relax while i can. i had nightmares during 'o's and i dont want that to happen again. haha. but that nightmare was lame. lame lame lame. i dreamt that i havent do my examinations yet. and i didnt know that it was scheduled that day. chinese. wah. that one can sian diao. nvr study for chinese really equals dying. haha. but well. i have already completed the whole 'o' level exams when i got the nightmare. just woke up feeling as though i havent. haha. kind of stupid. but well. that episode is over. now another one is up. no nightmares yet and i am more than glad. i sleep rather well these days. not really brooding over lots of things. which i certainly think is good. i hope i can survive handling the pressure until i get results. of course. i hope i do well. who doesnt?!
Sunday, February 20, 2005
what a day
working is tired. see my mood. kind of drained today. ying had some prob and wah ended off the day with more crap. haha. stupid boss of hers. thank goodness.
but well. good news too. i managed to get my saturdays off. got some time to myself and can attend class gatherings whenever i can i hope.
keeping my blogs really short these days. cos there's nothing much to complain about. and also nothing to really mention in particular. i am just happy the way things are so far.
but well. good news too. i managed to get my saturdays off. got some time to myself and can attend class gatherings whenever i can i hope.
keeping my blogs really short these days. cos there's nothing much to complain about. and also nothing to really mention in particular. i am just happy the way things are so far.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
happy saturday
i am a lucky girl. :)
havent been blogging these few days simply because i come online and i gb most of the time. haha. ok. back to gaming again. yes, indeed. but well there isnt much to write anyway. life's getting really repetitive for me. conclusion: it's sickening to step out into society and work. i rather study. go school. gossip and talk rubbish. haha.
just felt like posting. cos today is happy day. and i find this part of the song lyrics nice. (sounds cute)
手机 静不下来 你的简讯我看了又看 甜蜜当然却让我不安 会不会就突然中断
心跳 静不下来 一想到你我就乱又更乱 是个负担 放弃又太难 告诉我胆小鬼怎么恋爱
havent been blogging these few days simply because i come online and i gb most of the time. haha. ok. back to gaming again. yes, indeed. but well there isnt much to write anyway. life's getting really repetitive for me. conclusion: it's sickening to step out into society and work. i rather study. go school. gossip and talk rubbish. haha.
just felt like posting. cos today is happy day. and i find this part of the song lyrics nice. (sounds cute)
手机 静不下来 你的简讯我看了又看 甜蜜当然却让我不安 会不会就突然中断
心跳 静不下来 一想到你我就乱又更乱 是个负担 放弃又太难 告诉我胆小鬼怎么恋爱
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
oh it's wednesday
went ang mo kio to give tuition today. supposed to give tuition to 2 students in different areas in amk but well. one end up cancelled and now i am at home having nothing to do cos it am supposed to be teaching till 8 and reach home at 9. instead. i reached home 2 hours early. slacking in front of the comp as usual. and now really dont have anything else to do except to try and crap sthg over here. sigh last minute cancellation for tuition. was almost about to board the bus to get to that student's place when the mum called from office to tell me that she has things on in school, just ended, need to prepare for test tmr and so cancel the tuition. luckily i didnt board the bus when i picked up the phone. weird instincts on my part. helped me save up the bus fee which was amazingly lucky. sigh. now back to a messed up schedule again. dont really know when i can really really have a proper schedule. things are going to get worse when i start uni in a few months time (a few months i hope). with the workload from school and everything else jumbling in. i hope i dont get messed up more and more. co-operate my dearest students. co-operate. but well. like they'll bother to. that's why i love taking over sis's student even though he can be kind of intellectually challenging for me. he loves to study so much that i dont have to worry that he'll cancel classes out of fun. and i also of course love my own p2 little girl whose mum will bring her down to my house for tuition and i'll always know one week in advance if she isnt coming. one problematic student. one that seems ok but weekdays might serve as a problem when i start school. i dont like let them mess up my time and i am also scared that i mess theirs. the problem of tutoring. so far, at least i am managing well. at least i dont hate this job that i have been taking. i just hate them changing and changing. other than that, i am happy. i dont mind teaching. in fact, if they can really get good grades. i will be just as happy as their parents would be.
nothing much for me for today. i am just bored. sometimes. it's just so contradicting. i dont want to stay at home that much. cos i have nothing much to do at home. except singing along as i play those music cds or sit in front of the comp. gaming or chatting. at this rate. my specs gonna get thicker. i gonna look geek-ier ( is there such a word?!?!) although it's just purely out of gaming, tv and computer. neither do i want to go out that much. it burns a hole in my pocket that pains my heart cos i am working everyday purely for money. isnt it so? i am trying to save up to make up for the amount i have spent on my digicam. and i want to just save up. so that i can spend when i really would love to. something like a short vacation when my sis gets back. my one and only goal now. to earn money. that's it.
nothing much for me for today. i am just bored. sometimes. it's just so contradicting. i dont want to stay at home that much. cos i have nothing much to do at home. except singing along as i play those music cds or sit in front of the comp. gaming or chatting. at this rate. my specs gonna get thicker. i gonna look geek-ier ( is there such a word?!?!) although it's just purely out of gaming, tv and computer. neither do i want to go out that much. it burns a hole in my pocket that pains my heart cos i am working everyday purely for money. isnt it so? i am trying to save up to make up for the amount i have spent on my digicam. and i want to just save up. so that i can spend when i really would love to. something like a short vacation when my sis gets back. my one and only goal now. to earn money. that's it.
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