the week's coming to an end

yet another week passing.
getting closer and closer to the day of examination.
yet i feel as if i'm way too slack this time.
eeks.
i hope i can still do well.
like i mentioned.
i doubt i can afford anything lower than an 'A'.
bleh.
i hate this paper chase.
why must this place be so overwhelmed by academic achievements?
crap.

went studying in the late morning on friday.
i guess it kind of kick start preparations.
and hopefully i really get myself into the examinations mode.
just have to get it over and done with.
gonna have to do what i can.

after that was tuition.
as usual.
but i doubt i'm teaching her enough.
argh.
gets on my nerves sometimes when i dont think i'm doing much.

then was prayer meeting.
think God revealed to me the need to really just surrender.
at times i think i worry unduly when everything is in His mighty hands.
at times i just get distracted by random thoughts yet all i need is to focus on Him and He'll show the way.
at times i think i've given enough when all i've given was so minute.
i hate it when at times i feel see that it's not about me. the self comes in.
maybe i just never try hard enough. time to really listen hard.
time to really give my all. not just saying it. but doing it.
time to really focus on Him. never on myself or other silly things.
time for a revival. time for refreshment.
and only He can renew me.

today morning had tuition again.
i sincerely hope she does learn when she comes.
well i enjoy tutoring her.
and the only thing to continue being able to tutor her would be to at least produce some results.
sickening paper chase again.
oh well.

afternoon was oikos.
i enjoyed myself a lot.
the tertiary people were all put into various groups.
so we got to interact with others that are not in our cell group.
kind of a change. to know more brothers and sisters.
i think i totally disrupted the peace at botanic gardens.
was screaming and making so much noise.
well as usual. the highly excitable me.
we were playing there instead of the old SMU campus cos it was too crowded.
had fun with captain's ball although the modified rules got the starting part a little messy.
but yea. it was fun.
yet a tiring experience having to run so much.
hehe.
but i'm glad i got to really know more people.


anyway it was a pretty sight at botanic gardens.
the top right picture is the field where we played at.
bottom left picture you see a caucasian feeding the black goose. or do you call that swan? arent swans supposed to be white?
ok pardon my limited knowledge about birds.
dont expect too much from a finite mind.

still a nice saturday out.
the weekend comes and goes.
today's saturday. tmr's sunday.
and then it's the next week.
closer i am to exam.
yucks.

400th

seriously came a long long way.
amidst all the crap.
this is the 400th entry.
woohoo.
haha.
never underestimate how much i can rant and talk nonsense.
haha.
bet i've more or less got the hang of this skill since jan last year.

anyway.
just some updates.


managed to make desserts in the end.
tuesday night.
opened the canned peach that i bought.
then added chocolate sauce on it.
woolala. haha.
i love desserts!
sweet sweet.


had a craving for old chang kee curry puff.
and just to satisfy my craving.
i gobbled one down just before dinner.
end up so bloated.
hehe.
greedy me.
but i havent eaten old chang kee curry puff for so so so long.

cell group last night was fun.
i think i was quite high.
and thankfully the ice-breaker went out right.
was getting feedback and i'm glad it did warm things up a little.
i liked the session.
rather thought provoking.
time to really ask myself deep questions also.
cos today i got reassurance that we may not always find answers to our desparate questions of "why this", "why that" or "why me" but we can rest in the truth that God is in control and that He loves us.


went changi airport at around 3 am in the morning to send zhan ming off.
kind of an impromptu decision.
saw the people cleaning that board.
whatever you call that.
but yea it was quite an interesting sight.
and changi airport is super quiet at 3 am.
haha.
there was like only that one berth open!
the group of us chatted for a while.
his father even treated us to a drink.
after that got back home only around 5 am.
was quite worn out then.

had to wake up at 10 am this morning just to run errands for mum.
so i ended up very shag.
in fact today i'm rather restless.
think i'm really getting used to the "i need sufficient sleep" mode.
school reopening might just be a disaster.




went to republic polytechnic this afternoon.
and yeap they've got a nice campus.
i've always thought rp is the one at queenstown area.
then i realised how outdated i was.
they're gonna have a new campus there i think.
haha.
and they've got sthg nicer than nanyang lake!
haha.
they've got this place with really shallow water.
pebbles covering the bottom.
and it's just beside their cafe.
really a rather nice sight!




came back home and went to the market for dinner with sis.
noticed that the evening sky was unusually pretty tonight.
but too bad my phone's camera isnt that professional.
i dont think it captured the sky colour really nicely.
but yea. i like the shades.
with tinge of orange. red. blue.
really lovely.

anyway. i was thinking of watching fireworks from some place.
wherever it is possible to.
company?
i thought it would be lovely to watch it at a distance.
not on the tv.
neither do i want to choke myself with the smoke at the national stadium or wherever.
hmmm. i want to see that pretty sight for myself!
bleh.

ok shall just end off my 400th entry.
gonna have to try and make sure i can sleep a little earlier tonight since i'm rather shagged.
hehe.
zhien out.

monday tuesday

this is what happens when i cant think of a title for my blog entry.
a rather dull and boring start to the week i think.

for some weird reason.
i've completed my intersem.
and yet for the past 2 days i've been down at ntu.

monday.
wanted to sleep on.
but had to drag myself out of bed.
haha.
i'm getting lazier by the day i think.

went back to hall for a photoshoot.
yes i wasnt the one having my photos taken.
basically was there to make sure that everything goes on right.
so i ended up spending about 3 hours plus in school.
thankfully my boss was in a good mood.
i got a ride to jp from ntu.
he had to make some form of detour.
but well. i got my ride!

came back home and slacked around quite a fair bit.
i cant really remember what i did exactly.
opps.
talk abt having short-term memory.
haha.

today went back to school again.
this time i stayed in ntu for no longer than half an hour.
which makes it rather dumb to have travelled for about close to 4 times that duration.
not to mention having to leave my contact number with an insurance agent which stopped me at the mrt station today.
almost caused me to be late for the interview.

had a informal discussion with the vice dean today.
i'm rather surprised that it was that informal.
haha. it was like a chit chat session.
but i think it was attributed to the fact that the vice dean looked really friendly.
i should be able to help out as a student leader for welcome day i hope.
i cross my fingers.
not quite sure if it's a selection process today.
hehe.
luckily i wasnt really late. or else that would have made quite a big impression.
haha.

dropped by ntuc this afternoon before getting back home from school.
and ended up shopping quite a bit on grocery.

came back and then slept for like 5 hours!
haha. set my alarm for 2.
but i continued sleeping.
amazing how i can sleep on the floor for 5 hours actually.
i wanted the aircon so i had to go to sis' room to sleep.
their beds were in a mess so i decided to sleep on the floor.
haha. this sounds dumb.
but yea i slept on the floor for 5 hours.
without suffering from backache.
haha.

now i'm home alone.
nobody's back yet.
i wanted to make desserts.
but well. there's no one around to appreciate it yet.
maybe later.




made dinner for myself for the past 2 nights.
had pasta yesterday.
and i feel so proud of myself.
hehe. it tastes good ok!
i like it.
hehe.
tonight's dinner seemed more appropriate for breakfast.
but i had scrambled egg with bacon.
put them all between the bread and had sandwich!
hehe. it's been some time since i ate this.
haha.


one conclusion i drew from today's grocery shopping.
never underestimate things that are priced at 2 dollars.
they can accummulate to quite a fair amount!
i spent 22.85 today just shopping on food.
oops.


and this is what i have been surviving on for desserts.
thornton's chocolate.
nice.
but i would want something for a change.
ice-cream? cake?
maybe just some nice fruits. with chocolate maybe?

oasis

just some updates of things that went on for the past few days.

friday.
was the last day of the intersem.
finally finished the four weeks of classes.
now. it's time to prepare for exams.
27th.
haha.
the presentation went on fine.
and i hope the grades will turn out fine.
hehe.

saturday morning tuition was cancelled.
so i had plenty of time to sleep for the day.
slept and rested for quite a lot.

after that was the church rally.
it was quite a night.
with all the enthusiasm.
it was super amazing how God touched the hearts of so many youths that night.
got to know of this young girl that night.
and it got me wondering how wonderful it would be to be 14 again.
haha.
for once i realise the age gap is that big.
haha.
still it was really superb how God moved.
and it was indeed a very fun rally.

anyway.
just some pictures.


had dinner at international plaza with the cell on saturday just before the rally.
and was told of an offer that coffee bean there was having.
slices of cake at 50 per cent off after 3 pm on a saturday.
so i decided to get one for my dinner instead.
hehe.
2.45 and you get one slice of cake.
how cool.


i tried blueberry delight.
it's really nice.
would love to try others next time!
super cool.
hehe.
i love cakes.
hmmm i think i've got the sweet cravings these days.


and got for myself a kid's size pure chocolate.
havent had coffee bean ice blended for some time.
shall save up to treat myself to another one soon!


and we had supper at lau pa sat after oasis rally.
i bought carrot cake.
after that left slightly earlier.
and got back home at 11 plus.
hehe.
it was a fantastic night.

question of the week.
what quenches your thirst?
in life. what is it that satisfy your needs?
the material goods? think again.

almost

almost to the final class of this intersem.
4 weeks.
i think it passed rather quickly.
today was the second last day of class.
supposed to be the last but the teacher cancelled one class during the first week.
and decided to make up for it on friday this week.
so friday is gonna be the last lesson.
which is presentation and assignment submission day.
things are more or less settled.
not really fantastic.
but i hope it's gonna be ok.

had a rather simple lunch with 2 of my other groupmates.
settled for quick lunch at kfc.
rather a bad choice for my current condition.
but well.
i could only think of whipped potato.
and kfc have it.
if you want sthg quick.


and i saw this promo thing at kfc.
their or chicken chop.
quite a funny looking new dish.
but well.
it is chicken.
served with delicious raisin coleslaw, special mushroom gravy and golden brown crinkle-cut fries.
hehe. i wonder what it tastes like.

after that met yuyan and fish.
and it was yet another learning experience.
truly a good time to clear my doubts.
i think i can ask rather silly questions at times but they patiently answered.
and i do hope i'm building my foundations fine!
now i've got so many teachers.
haha. it's good in a sense. i'm given various views and perspectives.
and maybe one day when i've experienced so much i can be the one sharing my view and perspective on how the Word applied to my life at different times.
a very fun time indeed!

came back home and washed up a little.
made myself dinner.


cooked macaroni.


tada~ the dish with hotdog and corn.
plus japanese mayonnaise. a bit of that to give some taste.
or else i'll really be eating way too bland stuff.

sis went with me to cell group today.
hehe.
today's venue was a new one again.
a rather quiet one with much better lighting than the previous.
and of course with lesser mosquitoes i suppose.
i think not only sis had a chance to learn more.
i did too.
there's so so so much that i can learn.

after that the whole group of us went to eat a little.
kfc again.
at the rate i'm eating.
i'm soon gonna balloon.
shared a shrooms burger meal with sis. i ate the burger. she took the drink.
shared the fries.
man i got to have to watch what i eat.
before i really get fatter.
and unhealthier.

anyway. i'm feeling much better now.
the fever's gone.
i think more or less i can confirm that it's gone.
and it's no longer on and off.
now still having blocked nose sore throat and the rest.
but with the rest i should be able to get tmr.
i should be able to get well real soon.
hehe. :)

doing nothing

honestly i seem to feel as if i'm not doing much these days.
maybe cos i'm sick also.
so i sleep a lot. actually not a lot also.
i sleep when i come back from school.
but somehow i have this tendency to have trouble sleeping at night cos of that.
i slept for 5 hours when i got back from school yesterday partially cos i was back home earlier yesterday.
i end up having difficulty falling asleep at night. went to bed at 1 am.
but only got to sleep around 3 i think.
then got woken up by mum's alarm clock at 6 am.
was quite worn out.

today got back from school later.
cos had a rather long project meeting today.
only ended around 2 pm.
then went to have lunch before heading back home.
went to sleep till around 7 pm.
then prepared my own dinner.
which is super miserable in my opinion.
just when i've got cravings for things that i cannot eat.
i dont mind if i can eat pizza hut now they've got a promotion.
i dont mind having my very own style of fondue.
i dont mind having old chang kee curry puff.
yet. for dinner. i was stuck with having plain porridge.


the plain porridge that i cooked for myself.
the amount i cooked just nicely fit into the bowl.


and i bought this on my way back from school at ntuc to go with my porridge.
cai xin.
the only thing i have with plain porridge.


and combined. my dinner for the night.
i wonder what i can come up with until i get well.
it totally isnt good when i cant really eat much stuff given the condition i'm in.
and yet i'm picky about food.
haha.
it just doesnt help, does it?

maybe i really need more rest.
but then well. i've got things to do.
my layout. which i total am disinterested in doing.
my elective assignments. this friday is the deadline.

hmmm. i want to get well soon too!

concluding remarks

with the world cup coming to an end at 5 am this morning.
it's another 3 years and 11 months to the next.

just some conclusion that i've drawn after this one month of world cup fever.

conclusion 1.
soccer can be a super violent game.
the portugal vs netherlands game if i'm not wrong.
with 4 red cards.
pushing and shoving.

conclusion 2.
like joel mentioned. the world cup is the time when the national flag is not honoured.
players use it to wrap around their heads.
use it like a sarong.
use it as a scarf.
the irony of world cup. bringing honour to your country by emerging victorious.
yet misusing your national flag admist the excitment of celebration.

conclusion 3.
stupid stunts. they just happen.
you can never really figure out why some players act the way they did.
zidane's case was one.
the whole group of us who watched the finals together came up with loads of funny reasons why he head-butted materazzi.
he had a stomache and so couldnt wait to be sent off so that he can rush off to the toilet.
he wanted to sneezed and just so happen that materazzi was behind.
man. what jokes.

conclusion 4.
i still dont know how to determine an offside.
i still dont understand the pleasure of watching soccer. although maybe in a group it can be fun.
i still am not bothered if a goal is a nice one or not. cos to me, a goal is a goal. you score.
i still wouldnt want to stay up late to watch soccer.

it was nice being at class chalet.
although i think i kind of imposed on the rest because i wasnt feeling well.
i slept so much.
i was resting in bed while linda sat down to chat with me.
managed to play cluedo with some of them too before bbq-ing since sunday had been a rainy rainy day.
they started the fire.
and told me to go ahead and get some rest.
in the end they even had to cook for me.
only woke me up when the food was ready.
which is like super paiseh.
they cleaned up.
i didnt do anything.
they just told me to get rest.
i went to sleep.
they woke me up when the match started.
during the intervals they would advice me against going for class and getting enough rest.
really appreciate the concern.
felt so useless there since i was like so lethargic.

headed for home early in the morning to drop the things.
and i went ahead with going to school.
cos i didnt want to miss class.
and i felt i was ok enough to manage.
i didnt feel feverish for one.
just the sore throat got quite bad.
other than that i felt fine.

came back home after class and just slept.
initially set to sleep 2 hours.
but ended up sleeping 5 i think.
there was some renovation works by the town council today at my house cos of some water leakage problem.
really thank God that they werent noisy.
in fact i didnt think there was drilling since the time i got back.
so i managed to sleep properly without disturbance.







pictures of the renovation going on when i got back.
looked kind of unsightly.
but now it's nicely done again.

went to see the doctor in the evening.
thanks to sis who gladly accompanied me to the doctor after her tuition.
initially felt that i didnt really have to see one.
since it's most probably a waste of money.
but in the end decided that i should go.
was running a fever at 38.5 degree celsius when i went to the doctor.
but i didnt feel that feverish.
i wonder if it was because i had an even higher fever nights before so even at 38.5 i feel unfeverish.
haha.
now i'm on medication.
bleh.
got to take antibiotics and stuff.
eeks.
well. anything to get well soon.

anyway.
before i end off.


just to show one reason why i never like to be hall alone.
it means eating alone.
the food just seems to be miserable.
the feeling is just miserable.
it's just claustrophobic.

ok. zhien out.
gonna have to sleep!