i'm still existent

hehe.
i got back from church camp on last friday.
but i was too busy to update my blog.

it was a really good camp.
took some photos but they are all on other people's camera.
shall post when i get them.
haha.

the air in genting was really fresh.
which makes it a really pleasant place for a time of renewal.
previously had been really drained but it was a really good camp to just gain back the strength and passion to move forward.

a lot of issues that God dealt with.
and i am glad.
i'm moving on.
fighting the negative emotions and thoughts.
so that my thoughts are pure and pleasing to Him.

amazed at how God used the guest speaker's lives to be an impact to so many people.
very encouraged.
a faith-building experience.

God moved mightily.
a handful of things revealed to me.
and i know that i've got to press in as God works in them.
shall look forward to breakthroughs in this year!
all things are possible for the Almighty God.
hehe.

a good learning experience also.
God presented the opportunity for me to grow and to give.
not only did i receive. but i learnt to give to during the camp.
in very small ways.
but i'm glad.
i wanna take up challenges that will spur me to grow stronger.
hehe.

practical things to apply too!
got to start doing a major clearance of my space at home.
shall work on clearing the clutter in my life.
and throw out whatever is obstructing!


came back and worked hard on the publicity website for the upcoming youth rally.
do visit the website and take a look!
click on CHASE!
hehe.
anyone interested to come.
let me know!
it's gonna be real fun.


work was alright.
finished one case on monday.
and was given a new one on monday itself.
which currently is quite a challenge cos there's insufficient information to get things done.

and a fellow colleague was straight-forth in speaking.
which i am thankful for.
once again, God revealed to me how prideful i can be.
she was commenting that i appear to be aggressive when in comes to work.
meaning i am rather ambitious without myself even realising sometimes.
true. i can be quite eager to prove myself. that i'm good enough or probably way better at getting the tasks given to me done.
she acknowledged that i'm capable. i think i think of myself as that way too subconsciously.
oops. hehe. that's where the pride lies.
and she said that i do show confidence because i know my stuff when i'm given the tasks.
but she warned me against showing too much confidence. she was saying that there's high possibility of attracting back-stabbers should i be out working full-time next time.
i do agree that the world is ugly in that sense.
probably i never really realised that arrogance that comes forth.
cos i really think that i know my stuff and i'm able to get things done at work rather efficiently.
but there's always that need for that awareness.
which i was told during the conversation today.
i've got a lot to learn.

my fellow keepers. please note. haha.
i can be prideful. which is a major hindrance in my journey.
will need to tear down this huge wall.
help me keep watch ya?
hehe.

very blessed.
and i know i still am going to be.
hehe.


i'm quite tired physically.
but still am sustained.
shall get as much rest as possible.

shall post some pictures soon!
jya matta ne!

adulthood

shall do a quick post before i go off.
i shall be away in awana genting for 5 days on my church camp.
God has blessed me with a week of leave so that i can find rest in His presence.
hallelujah!
hehe. though i've got to extend my work attachment to make up for it.
i'm more than glad for this break.
i've been so looking forward to it.

anyway.
it's been some time since i've updated.
and i've got loads to update.
yet not that much time to.

shall just blog about my birthday celebration.
which was the biggest thing recently.
turned 21st 2 days ago.
i'm into day 2 of being 21.
hehe.
held a celebration near my place and quite a handful of people turned up.
my mum invited her friends too.
so it was quite an affair.
haha.

anyway. pics of the people who turned up.
taken during the cake-cutting time.
well. almost all those who turned up.
some left earlier. so they arent in the pictures!
hehe.


how can a birthday celebration ever have the cake and birthday girl missing?
hehe.
i've been blessed with a swensen's 5 kg ice-cream cake.
macadamia nut cum cookies n cream flavour in it.
it's really nice.
i still have a portion of it left in my freezer but i guess i won't see it by the time i'm back.
hehe.
it's a really lovely looking cake!


my extended family.
my grandma, aunts, uncles and cousins.
haha.
quite a huge group of people.


not to forget my terrific family who started getting busy since at least a week ago to prepare for this celebration.
HUGE thanks to sis for getting all the things in place - food, cake, place, etc.
HUGE thanks also to mum for paying for the stuff. they are really ex. and for cooking wonderful delicious food to add on to the menu. despite the fact that her arm isnt very well and that she's tired from working. love you loads mum!
HUGE thanks to ying too!
BIG thanks to imran for helping me get my cake from swensen's and struggling with cutting the frozen cake. yes that's the problem with ice-cream cakes.


peishan and i.
hehe.
my friend since pri 1.
our 15.5 years of friendship to date.
hehe.
thanks girl for rushing down and missing fright night. hehe.


the 4f people.
tried to be funny with their stunts.
that was ultra predictable.
haha. the whacky bunch of people.


the 6a people.
intellects. the motivating bunch.
hehe.
thanks for coming. yes i repeated myself a lot of times that day.
haha. but yea i didnt manage to really go around talking to you people.
seriously. sorry for being a rather lousy host.
hehe.


u3 cell group.
well almost the full cell group.
my leader is elsewhere.
haha.
but yea. the really fun and supportive group of people in my second family!
hehe.


harvesterites.
almost all that came.
some left earlier.
too bad you all missed out the ice-cream cake!
hehe.


last BUT definitely not the least.
zncl2.
hehe.
the girls that are the best companions in school. in hall.
almost anytime anywhere.
haha.
thanks for rushing down. yet i didnt get to talk much to you all.
we should have our own outing really really soon.
hehe.

it was fun having a get-together.
and i'm glad to hear from self-proclaimed 'the best' teeseng that because of this the few of them got the chance to catch up in ages.
hehe. too bad i missed out what you people were talking about!
hehe.

of course.
i've been showered with loads of blessings.
with the gifts which i really don't deserve.
some of them are really exquisite.
generous people.
but seriously i dont really deserve all these expensive and lovely stuff.
hehe.


the must mention present from my lovely family cum imran.
nokia e65. (wishlist item #1 fulfilled!)
this really cost a bomb.
eeks.
sry. i think i asked for something really way too over the budget.
thanks my dearest family.


lovely flowers from my cell group.
my only bouqet for that day. (a bit of spelling error in the pic. i havent slept yet so pardon that silly mistake.)
hehe.
really really pretty!
and interesting.


and a lovely card the cell gave.
with this newspaper clipping thing that gloria made.
haha. thanks. i had a fun time reading it.
you people are just so creative.
haha.


yes and my supposedly "whencouplespray" book was magically transformed by daniel into this.
another gift from the cell.
shall find time to read this lovely book.


from my 2 lovely sisters.
an inspirational book according to christabel.
got to really read this too!


from my mentor/discipler.
thanks for walking me through ups and downs.
thanks for just being a wonderful listening ear.
and thanks for being a blessing!
i got a new pocket bible. in the version i want! hehe. please note that i didnt mention that i wanted NKJV in my wishlist. i just mentioned that i don't want NIV.
hehe. how nice that she got what i had wanted to have! hehe.
thanks thanks.


a few of them tricked me into opening this paper bag with only a packet drink inside.
and so i was explained that this paper bag is the bag that the few of them got for me.
how nice.
it probably can fit my big fat laptop.
haha.


the actual gift is a really nice bag!
woo. hehe.
another item on the wishlist.
i got quite a handful of bags.
so now i can mix and match!
haha.


a bag that i can use for school from some of the 4F people.
hehe.


teeseng wrote a 'letter' to just talk about how much effort he spent in shopping for the gift and wrapping it. and how much shuping didnt really do much even though she was sharing the present.
funny fellow.
yes you are 'the best'!


another bag that's really nice too!
hehe.


perfume from 3 ofthe 6a guys.
hehe. i havent tried sniffing to find out what it smells like.
but i suppose it should be nice.
haha.


for the people who know me well.
surely the only accessory to get me would be a watch!
hehe.
thanks. this is really pretty.


from joel.
hehe.
another really really interesting bag.
hehe.
thanks! it's really nice.
and the wrapper is ultra nice!


and i love the card.
gosh. joel u've got good taste!


from gary!
haha.
this is surprisingly my only winnie the pooh gift for this birthday.
haha.
and it's useful ok?


it shall be where my e65 rest!
hehe.


this is a really extravagant present.
thanks girl.


and a really cool watch.
from lizhen. yuxin and family.
hehe.
thanks.



swatch watches for a fanatic like me!
hehe.


this is real sweet. yijing printed this herself.
hehe.


from mum's friends.
hehe.


from chuay sia.


this is really nice. hehe.
thanks yvonne.


from my only uni classmate that attended.
hehe.
uncle sam shall get it from me for pang-sehing me.
hehe.


and another personal gift from junjie.
thanks girl.
havent tried the chocolate.
but it looks good.
hehe.


and ang baos.
hehe. now i've got money to spend.
hehe.

ok la. need to rush off.
think i missed out some presents.
shall blog them again when i'm back.

going for faith lift.
see ya!

my wishlist

hehe.
had been a really really tiring week.
don't think it's gonna really get much better the next few weeks.
hehe.
i'm tired.
so desperate for sleep.
hehe.

anyway.
it's less than 2 weeks to my birthday.
shall put up my wishlist.
well. kind of a wishlist.

there arent really much that i want.
a few of my friends were asking me what is it that i want as a present when they replied to my invitation to my birthday celebration.
yet i dont really know wat to tell them.
haha.

what i'm really in need of.

nokia e65

am in desperate need of a new phone with my current one going a bit crazy.
my current phone has indeed served me well.
haha.
just at the looks of it gives you an indication of how much it has been through.
well. the red silver nokia e65 looks really cool.
but it's expensive. i think.
hehe.

what i really dont mind having

ipod nano red

this is looks really cool and pretty.
i saw this picture on michelle's blog some time back.
haha.
looks really nice.
i havent got a replacement for my ipod shuffle that i destroyed long time back.
haha.

a new bible
i've got my pocket bible that i bring along with me.
i've got my life application study bible.
both are NIV ones.
i dont mind having a pocket bible that's of another version!
haha.

a winnie the pooh jigsaw puzzle nicely done and framed
haha.
i've always wanted to buy this and that whenever i step into jigsaw puzzle world.
but again. these stuff are really ex.
haha.
this will probably be a nice item to put in my room when we move house.

a laptop bag that can fit my acer aspire 5502wxmi
the bag that i have now is one that came along with the purchase of my laptop.
it's those that can contain everything. the adaptor.
quite a big thing.
i've seen people walking around with those laptop bag that can just put the laptop in nicely.
not for putting other stuff like mouse, adaptor, etc.
i want something that looks nice and special!

i don't mind more money!
i don't mind more Christian books to read. though i havent really finish what i have with me at hand.
i don't mind having more Christian songs to listen to.
i don't mind more clothes that can be easily matched for work.
i don't mind more shoes too. though i dont really like the idea of having a messier shoe rack.
i don't mind one more bag that's more suitable for work. haha. i hate growing older. you need to get stuff that are suitable when you transit into another stage in life. bleh.

other things that i want but not now.

a guitar
think i've been really out of practice.
not supposed to be that way since my teacher is my cell leader.
yet. haha. i've been really so out of practice.
given that i dont have a guitar to practice with.
and i've yet to get one.
i wanna get one.
but probably not so soon.
shall have to KIV it until after i move house.
so that i dont have more things to move over to.
and i wont have to worry about it being spoilt in the process of moving.
i wanna get my first guitar!

a nice bookshelf cum a nice study table
these are the few important things for my new room.
haha.
yes i'm quite an oddball.
but i think the bookshelf and study table is really what i want to be really neat and nice for my new room.
not that i'm that nerdy.
but i've always got ultra messy study tables at home.
and compared to my relatively MUCH neater table in hall.
the one in hall is more conducive for work.
haha.

other things that are practically impossible to ask of.
just wishes on my part.
haha.

good grades for this semester
expected results release date is 8th.
so it shall be a really pleasant gift if i've got good results.
looking forward to yet another improvement.
and a breakthrough.

a car
yes impossible when i've no licence to even talk of.
haha.
i've been having this thought.
having a car is really convenient.
probably cos i've been rushing here and there recently.
and i've been walking quite a bit and getting quite sick of it especially when i'm walking in heels.
but well. let me get my licence first then.

a trip to australia/japan/new zealand/nyc
i havent been to these places and i dont mind going on a trip to these places.
haha.
but the money comes as a rather big factor.
somehow i wanted a get-away starting some time back.
but these hols i havent got the chance to really have a time for this.
oh well.
i like to travel with enough money.
me and my lalaland dreams.

time
haha. have been rather packed to the brim in terms of time.
or maybe i just need to be more efficient.
sigh.
haha.
i want more time.
i wonder if it's possible to have 30 hours a day instead.

well.
i dont really have much in specific that i want.
but i do know a few things that i dont see a need for.
a few things that i really dont need to have more of already.
anyway.
just whatever is practical and useful.
i suppose i dont really mind them as gifts.
oops. haha. this sounds really thick skinned.

well.
those that i've invited to the celebration.
if you have yet to reply to confirm if you are coming.
and you are reading this.
please do let me know soon ok?
hehe.

shall learn to treasure my last few weeks of being a minor.
haha.

first week of work

the first week of attachment marked the end of my holidays.
bleh.
a short one week of holidays.

which i got to watch spiderman 3 with sis.
it's been ages since we caught a movie together.
though we only got to spend a short time together.
i'm happy.
thanks sis for the wonderful company.
let's have such things more often!
hehe.
i'm really trying to make time.

got to catch up with peishan also.
girl! send me the pics.
haha.
you and your procrastination.
tsk tsk.
haha.

went shopping with linda, chiewlin and junjie for formal wear in preparation for attachment too!
managed to find a good alternative to g2000.
i wanna shop more.
that is if i've got more money.
i need to get more clothes suitable for work.
haha.
i realised i cant wear my lovely disney t-shirts to work.
boo.

this week started off rather busy.
i havent got a day that i get to travel straight home after work!
so i'm rather worn out with the things that are taking up my evenings.
eeks.
i need better time management.

anyway.
just a bit about my week one at the company i'm working at as an intern for the next 9 or 10 weeks.
haha.
10 more weeks to go if my leave gets approved!


i'm working near clarke quay.
but sadly there isnt the view of the singapore river from where i sit in the office.
nobody in my office will ever get the view of the singapore river.
there goes the incentive i thought i might have.
haha.
but well.
it's a rather convenient place.
by the mrt i can reach my workplace within 25 minutes.
i havent tried taking the bus.
i heard from a colleague that stays rather near me that it takes about half an hour by bus.
not that bad.
since i've got like 4 buses to choose from?
hehe.
i'm thankful for all the convenience.
anyway. my fellow interns think i reach too early. haha.
i think so too.
the office door wasnt open for 4 out of 5 of the days by the time i reach the office.
haha.


my desk for the past 4 days.
today was a little different.
yes there are a lot a lot a lot of files in that office.
haha.
and i'm working in the accounts department at the moment.
so the files are in green.
the tax ones are in yellow i think.
orange are for those audit ones.
can't remember what the blue ones are for.
haha. but well. you get the idea. there are seriously loads and loads of file.
for once i think my study area at home isnt that messy afterall.
and on the desk. yes the calculator is extremely important!
haha.
i've been working on consolidating reports for the past few days.
and so i'm really getting more and more familiar with this particular accounting software.
haha. and i'm getting more and more familiar with the xerox in the office.
the colleagues are rather nice.
so i get to clarify things when i don't know.
honestly.
theory is very very different from reality.
haha.


a few signs to show that i'm integrating myself into the working population.
coffee!
man i was so so so tired having to wake up early and work 9.5 hours each day.
1 hour for lunch excluded.
i needed to get coffee on wednesday just to keep myself awake.
especially after lunch.
the sleepyness just sets in so unknowingly.
haha.
and meals! meals with colleagues. meals with fellow interns.
i'll slowly get to know the good makan places near my workplace.
hey people! jio me for lunch k if you're too free.
haha.

one other thing about work attachment.
i'm sick and tired of heels.
for 5 days a week i've got to wear heels to work.
partially cos i lack proper looking shoes that are more presentable for work.
and partially cos i wasnt exactly pampering my feet.
on monday i walked from my workplace in clarke quay area to millenia walk for meeting.
on tuesday i walked from my workplace to wheelock place for meeting.
i probably was being crazy.
think this is one of the other longer distance walk i've taken other than the walk home from bugis long time back.
this probably takes the 2nd place in terms of distance walked.
on wednesday i was nicer to my legs. i walked only to the bus stop to take a bus to gloria's place for cell. but i ran in my heels just to catch the bus.
on thursday i walked to bras basah complex after work to get some materials that i needed.
and i end up realising that practically any shop at bras basah close around 7 pm.
thank goodness that i didn't take too long to walk or else i'll probably end up fainting at the closed shutter.
today didn't really walk that much around in my heels.
oh well. learning to slowly pamper my feet.
haha.


on a side note. the walk from my workplace to wheelock place was indeed tiring.
but. i accidentally dropped my phone.
and it amazingly is working fine on the front screen once again.
see the previous post if you dont know wat's going on.
now i dont have to go to the mirror. turn my phone upside down and read off the reflection to tell the time.
i can just read it off the screen.
hehe.
my phone is odd.
it needs a hard knock to wake up its idea and work right again.
haha.
oh well. still i need something to replace it.
it's really disastrous already!

i'm stressed. due to the things at hand.
and time isn't exactly on my side.
but well, like what nic say.
one thing about being a child of God is that you can always trust God that His favour will be poured out to you when you ask of Him.
i know i'm blessed enough.
and i'm learning to count my blessings.
stressed. stretched. but not snapped!

had a rather heated argument with ying last night.
quite horrid one.
i am not feeling good about it.
partially i know though what she said didn't sound really pleasant.
but are things that i need to reflect on.
yet the fact that i flared up and reacted.
i think it's been some time since i really flared up this badly.
i wonder if it's cos i'm just too stressed.
or it's just really i feel unjustified.
i think i need to find that trigger point.
else i'll never learn to tame my temper.

and i'll probably be holding a 21st birthday celebration.
still need to plan.
argh.
and i'm a little lazy to go about doing it.
haha.
shall send out invites soon.
and shall come up with my wishlist when i really can think of what i want.
haha.

well.
next week is going to be another busy week.
i dont forsee anymore free evenings!
haha.
ganbatte zhien!

weekend

the first weekend after the exams.
quite an eventful weekend.
fun.
but i'm rather worn out.
still, admist the tiredness.
there's that joy.
and i'm thankful. :)


went shopping with christabel and junjie on friday morning.
and got this dress from zara.
but because the dress itself was meant to be rather short.
and given my height.
i end up wearing it as a dress top.
haha.
my first apparel from zara!
haha.
it's a happy colour.
and i wore it to 2 happy events over the weekend!


attended brother leonard's wedding on saturday afternoon.
hehe.
finally. we waited for one year for this day.
hehe.
so happy for them. really sweet.
hehe.
marriage is beautiful when God is the one in control.
congratulations to the newly weds!


at night. went to chiewlin's 21st birthday party.
hehe.
quite a large group of people.
dont know all of them well.
so the 5 of us were kind of anti-social.
haha. only mixed among ourselves.
got to enjoy good food and good company!
hehe.
happy birthday chiew chiew.
haha.
already pass liao.
but still. HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
adult le wor.
hehe.


sunday was yet another long day.
hehe.
went to junjie's 21st birthday celebration.
she had to put hers on a later date since her birthday clashed with the exams period.
haha.
so we end up celebrating a belated birthday.
still.
someone stole the limelight.
haha.
her little cousin harry.
the star of the night.
at least among that group of us.
he was.
haha.
cute little boy who was so stunned by marshall's silly 'magic' tricks.
haha.


though it was junjie's birthday.
our cell group happily just snapped pictures together.
we just love our cell leader so much!
haha.


happy birthday girl!
hehe.
this is a late birthday wish via the blog.
hehe.
the harvesterites took photos with the birthday girl and the cute cupcakes!
hehe.

on a side note.


i woke up today.
with my phone showing me a blank screen.
and for the entire day. the mini screen in front doesnt display right.
to see the text the correct way. i have to turn it upside down and hold it in front of the mirror and read off the reflection.
haha.
stupid.
i think my phone is dying.
bleh.

sent the mission trippers off early in the morning.
was super tired having slept only 3 hours.
came back home to sleep for about 45 minutes before getting ready to go back to school for photoshoot.
which was an ultra silly thing.
haha.
had lunch with the girls.
and got back to hall.
worked on some wsc stuff.
and finally totally out of the room. out of the hall.


marks the end of my stay in hall.
was the first day i actually opened the mailbox. haha.
but it wasn't that flooded with mails.
so yea! i'm officially out of the hostelite name list.
hehe.

ok. done with updating.
shall go and sleep.
i'm real tired.
bleh.