500th post

this is my 500th post.
haha. this blog has sure come a long way.
i can't believe i actually crapped 500 entries out.
haha.
but well. they are still the bits and pieces of what goes on for me.
my thoughts. my life.

shall just post a bit to update.
though the 500th post shld be use for sthg more significant i guess.
but well. i'll probably use the 501st post for thanksgiving instead then.
and use this to just update before i set off for segamat once again.
yes i'm leaving again.
from 27th to 29th i'll be away in segamat.
results out on 28th so i'll only check when i'm back.
hehe. seriously hope i do well.

anyway. so far it has been really GREAT.
God is good! (i always say this. because i'm really sure of this!)


iGNITE was totally awesome.
this camp was really yet another life-changing experience.
God showed me really wonderful things.
cell groups in the tutorial rooms stretch.
worship service in auditorium.
wonderful. glorious sight.
and i'm praying still.
let there be revival in NTU.
the people need to see the light!
i'm just amazed.
how God spoke to me and showed me things.
with my mind. i can never fathom.
but God is God.
His thoughts are always higher.
the things He showed me.
i'll see them come to past one day.
God, use me.
be it in school. the final semester.
or at home. living for You.
even my future workplace.

i'm holding on to the promises of God.
cos once again i see beautiful stars in the sky during the finale night.
it is personal to me.
others may go 'chey'. but it's just a different feeling in my heart.
"as for me and my house. we're gonna serve the Lord!"

i'll see breakthroughs!
Lord, i'm going to be that HISTORY MAKER for you.

i'll stand

with arms high and heart abandoned

in awe of the One who gave it all

*

i'll stand

my soul Lord to You surrendered

all i am is Yours

just some photos the few of us took together.


the girls in the NTU cell groups.
we're going to shine and rock the campus!


more NTU people!
there's gonna be MORE!

well. i guess you can sense my excitement too.
hehe.
i'm all ignited!
what about you?

christmas is yet another season of joy.
i'm proud to say.
i've got the best gift EVER.
Jesus is that gift.
it's great to celebrate Christmas knowing why we celebrate Christmas.

the very day the Saviour was born.
One who was born to die for us.
on the cross. He died for ALL men.
that we may be once again reconciled to our Father in Heaven.
3 days later He rose.
bringing us the living hope.
that we are overcomers in Christ.
i've got the banner of victory.

are you celebrating Christmas without knowing that it's the birthday of Jesus Christ?
you're missing out something really good.
come, taste and see that the Lord is good!

i've just been thinking.
is there any meaning if people put "merry x'mas"?
cos afterall, the SUBJECT is missing.
if 'Christ' is not there. is it still Christmas?

still.
merry christmas to one and all.

i enjoyed the Christmas season giving and receiving.
well. the Bible says "it's more blessed to give than to receive". (acts 20:35)
and so i've given and i've been blessed with much.

thank God.
it's thanksgiving soon.
i've got so much to give thanks to. :)

okie. i shall be off. zzz.
will be back on 29th!

burn in me the fire

realised that i havent blogged in ages.
haha.
it's been some time.
linda say my blog gathering dust.
so i shall update a little.
before i pile up more content and have more lengthy posts.

heading for camp from 17 to 20.
so i guess it'll be good to write about what has happened thus far.
then when i'm back. write about the camp!

anyway.
just a summary.
cos i really want to go sleep soon.
and prepare myself to be fresh and ready to ignite!
hehe.


from 4 to 9 dec.
i was in segamat. this part of johor, malaysia.
went to 2 parts - jementah and pekan jabi.
on missions trip.

it was really an eye-opener.
the first time i took a train ride.
i've always passed by the railway tracks when i walk to and fro school then in my jc days.
but this is the first time i took the train.
was full of excitement for the trip.

definitely God showed His faithfulness during the trip.
He provided us with good weather on wednesday.
when we held a sports carnival there for the children and the youths.
i felt very blessed to see a beautiful scene even before the event started.
a few of us were just prayer walking at the sports field and before we started, we looked up to the sky and saw beautiful sun rays piercing through the clouds.
we just marvelled at the sight. and couldn't help wonder.
the glory of God is surely even a more magnificent sight than what we saw.
and that day. we just saw God bringing the children to the place.
though the event wasn't highly publicized. we saw 41 children coming that day.
and we had fun interacting with the children.
and i really believe God used us to sow seeds in the lives of these little ones and surely we made some impact.

i also saw how fortunate we are. how much we are provided with in Singapore.
in Singapore we have the luxury of many things.
the people there had such simple lives.
i wonder which is more of a privilege.
we went visiting some of the people.
talking to them and trying to share the Gospel with them.
some were more open.
it's just sad seeing how directionless these people were.
the people somehow don't have much that they look forward to in life.
still. i believe God is going to bring change in that place.
as we pray for the people there.
there's going to be something better that God will bring about.

i really enjoyed the time there.
my very first missions trip.
DEFINITELY more receiving than giving.
God has worked in my life and through my life.

feeling God's heartbeat for the people.
just capturing a glimpse of His love for people.
i felt so heavy a burden that my flesh was crying out.
it seemed so heavy to carry.
yet God brought assurance that His grace is more than sufficient to help me carry.

learning to take initiative.
many times during the trip.
i had to be reminded that i need to be less passive.
having to lead one of the teams on my first missions trip.
is a challenge. especially in a totally foreign place to me.
but i guess God is training me for what is ahead.
there's more that He's going to bring change in for my life.
definitely i'm one with many flaws.
but God is in the process of moulding and shaping.
don't expect me to be perfect.
i'm trying to just be better.
:)

learning to take time to wait upon the Lord.
missions trip. was a luxury.
having the time to just wait upon the Lord.
coming back. i just feel that i lack the time.
compared to the trip.
the peace. the clearer sense of direction.
that comes from soaking in His presence.
nothing can replace that.
and i need to be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit.
surely. i want to be a spirit-led child of God!

in the trip.
God also renewed the way i worship Him.
and i'm most glad.
just what i need.
i'm just thankful.
how God knows. my every need.

also. God was at work.
even before i left for the trip.
2 out of my 3 interviews were originally scheduled to be on 5th while i'm away.
thank God for His favour.
that i managed to shift them to a later date until i'm back.
it sure wasn't easy.
getting the busy partners (the big shots) to fit your time.
and i'm thankful.
praise God.
surely God is good. God is faithful.

and when i went for the interviews.
there was just this confidence.
and the peace of God.
and i thank God. all 3 companies made an offer.
so i didn't have to face rejection.
and i was telling God. please. i don't want to be rejected!
haha.
thank God for His favour.

and special thanks to linda.
who helped me with subject registration.
which was scheduled while i was away.
thanks girl.
i'm thankful that i got the time slots i wanted.
and i'm blessed with people who are willing to help.
i guess God really does send angels when you least expect Him to.

of course. life's not always smooth.
i suffered quite a hit this week.
just a few days back.

i walked out of my house.
literally. i know this sounds rebellious.
and i know i was acting horribly.

i really wonder how God's going to lead my family to Him.
cos when the fight broke out that night.
i felt totally horrible.
i know i wasn't being the exact good example at home.
i know i wasn't displaying Christ-likeness.
but really. i'm not perfect.
when i walked out.
i really almost wanted to give up.
looking at the way things are.
it just seems so hard to bring them to see the Way the Truth and the Life.
i cried and walked.
i know deep within i felt like i didn't know where i could go.
but i just walked.
and i'm glad that God knocked sense into me.
admist all that i was feeling.
i kept having so much 'impossibles' flooding my mind.
and i was telling God. show me stars. i've seldom got beautiful sight of stars.
Singapore was usually cloudy. and with the recent monsoon period. there just seems to be so cloudy. i was saying impossible to see the orion. (which in fact i really havent seen before until that night)
and just that instant i said that. i was snapped to my senses.
reminded of what God spoke of during the trip.
God doesn't have to do what i ask of Him just to prove that He is God.
He is God. and that is a fact in itself.
and upon coming to my senses. the Lord of all creation showed me beautiful stars that night.
and i saw the orion.
lovely.
i thank God.
for that reassurance that He's Lord of all. He is the One at work.
and so. i walked home.
sat down at the playground below my block.
and just read the book that i took out with me.
a horrible night. yet there was such peace that replaced all the negativity i felt.

i'm hoping. things at home will change.
really soon.
God use me.

ok. off to sleep.
and then off to camp ignite!

time to stop being lazy

haha.
i'm such a lazy bum.
haha.

well. it's time to just try and blog sthg.
since i've been slacking most of my time away.
it's been one week. since the end of exams.
which means one week of holidays already.
and i don't think i've accomplished much.

i think i took my last week recuperating from the exams.
haha.
exams seem so traumatizing.
but i guess i traumatized others more when i rejoice that exams are over.
and many of them are still busy with theirs.

this week is a bit more fruitful i guess.
but still.
i think i need to make better use of my time.
since i'm leaving on next tuesday le.
a few things that MUST be settled before i leave.


went for a visit to my 'playground' after so long.
haha.
the national library.
and borrowed a couple of books.
hehe. i guess it's a way to make myself more useful while i'm at home.
haha.


went out with mum today.
sis joined us later.
hehe.
took this while we were waiting to see the doctor.
and we both look so tired.
haha.
but still, it's a nice pic with mum.
hehe.


and mum got me a new pair of shoes.
haha.
both she and sis were commenting about how worn out my shoes were.
so she got me a new pair!
hehe.
yippie!
and she happily threw my shoes away while i was napping this afternoon.
haha.
my mum's one funny character at times.
i totally enjoyed myself today!
haha.


and christmas is just round the corner.
hehe.
i can't wait.
and i want a beautiful christmas tree.
oh i so love a white one!
haha.
though the significance of christmas is not in the trees of course.
i just thought it'll be so pretty to have one.
hehe.

oh well. i'm running out of inspiration.
tmr got to wake up.
and get started working on interview preparations!
oh man. i think i'm way too slack.
bleh.

zhi'en! buck up!

finalement les examens sont terminés!

les papiers étaient difficiles
mais je remercie toujours Dieu

je peux seulement espérer que les resultats seront bons
il est tout dans des Ses mains

:)

[edited]
the english translation. hehe.

title: finally the examinations are over!

the papers were difficult
but i still thank God

i can only hope that the results will be good
it's all in His hands

crunch time!

take a look at where i 'strategize' and prepare myself for the battle.
my table is in a total mess.
need to clear up after exams le.

seriously hope i do well.
very packed exam schedule.

whatever it is.
Lord, be glorified.
i hope i'll be a good testimony.

the battle begins

tmr!
i better wake up in time.
gosh.

i feel unprepared.
eeks. i can't seem to remember what i study.
am i even absorbing?
bleh.
sigh.
i need help, Lord!

i hope i emerge victorious.
the battle begins tmr.
6 more days to the end of it.
and the results will be unknown until dunno when.
well.
i seriously hope i do well.

in Him i trust.

living in a pressure cooker

isn't exactly fun.

less than a week to exams.
and i've barely started.

4 papers.
friday to wednesday.
the first time ever.
that my exams is packed together.

i can only pray that i do well.
doing my best.
and leaving the rest to God.

i've got to start mugging.
so much to cram.

i look forward to the end of it.
haircut.
missions trip.
interviews.
more rest.
meeting up with people (ps, teeseng, etc.)
youth camp.
christmas.
thanksgiving.

ganbatte zhien!

and to those having exams!
all the best.


thanks linda. i got a pleasant surprise this morning.
really sweet. :)