lazy bum

yes. the lazy bum is me.
haha.
slept for 8 hours last night.
wah haha.
sounds cool right.
but at the expense of my lecture.
gosh.
slept at 4 am.
supposed to wake up at 8 to get ready for class.
end up waking up in a shocked state at 12.15 pm.
man. totally missed my 2-hr lecture that started at 10.30 am.
then rushed like mad to get myself ready for the 12.30 class.
should have seen me dashing in and out.
ultra madness.

today is not my day.
argh.
evening went to choose photos for photoshoot.
gosh. damn. i dont look nice.
haha.
supposed to pick 3 compulsary pics.
i ended up only being able to pick 4 if i'm not picky.
man. can imagine how ugly i looked.
haha.
super shit.
haha.

then now i'm stuck with some crap shit.
that i'm supposed to do.
some rubbish proposal.
but well. i give up.
cos sry. first thing i dont know a thing about what i am to write on.
second the person who threw me this shit told me that he's got to prepare for a test. and so cant do that. and ha, i found out from some friend of his that the group went celebrating someone's bday. like erm....
heck. freaking person.
why should i waste my time then?

time to get back to doing tutorial.
i havent done anything ever since i woke up today.
totally inefficient.
zero production.

narcissistic

haha. i simply love my nokia phone.
finally figured out how to transfer those photos out of my phone on my laptop.
told you i am an it-idiot.
well, here's the ultimate "i love myself" series.


omg. haha. i like this one.
cos. my complexion looks totally perfect.
haha. and the orange polo tee is really nice.
haha. looks so bright and cheery.
lalala.

and yea. i went to thin my hair today and trim my fringe.
so i dont have my mushroom head anymore.
haha. it's much neater.
and the nice lady over there straightened my hair for me temporary.
how timely. cos i had my presentation after that.
look at that!


straight hair. haha.
isnt it just so neat and lovely.
haha. damn it. i'm getting hopeless.


yeap. and i like this.
changed to my more formal top and got ready for presentation.
so i was in this pink top.
haha. so funny. this pic makes me look like i'm so young.
wah haha. the power of technology.
looks enhancement.


and of cos. cant miss out that geek look of mine.
haha. kind of dumb to post this. cos it will ruin this whole darn entry.
haha. i look totally mugger with this specs of mine.
if not for the coloured hair. i'll look like really very guai.


hmmm. and not to miss out.
the crazy girls.
me and ps were snapping pics on my phone out of extreme boredom.
and yea. for once.
2 girls together with straight hair.
haha.

mine will be gone soon. haha.
so well. for keep sake.
that's it for now.
enough of my total nonsense.

wishes

haha.
i've got a wishlist.
some items that i would love to have at the moment. hehe.
*hint hint*
haha. not my bday yet.
but still. no harm wishing.

1. a big soft-toy pooh bear. tigger is fine too. i just want a big soft toy from disney.
2. hk disneyland opening celebration cd. sounds totally awesome and cute. haha.
3. lovely new bedsheets. cos i think the ones i have in my hall are not really pretty.
4. naruto posters. haha. how can i not possess a poster of my dearest character in my room?
5. edward elric fma poster. omg. haha. hunk. who can resist?
6. new earphones. those i'm using for my mp3 player is seriously hopeless. how about a new mp3 player too, comes as a package?!

lala. man i feel like a kid. the things i want are so so so childish.
but well.
gonna save up and try and fulfil my own wish.
unless...
hehe.
maybe wishing hard enough. they'll come to me without me doing much. haha.

wishes do come true, dont they?

total waste of time

basically. i spent my whole saturday doing unconstructive stuff.

was up at 6 am in the morning.
hurriedly get ready to head all the way to the east to get to changi airport.
jiaying and mich is off for lse.
man. the size of our class people in singapore is largely reducing.
hmmm. well. all the best to them. bet it's gonna be really fun there.
shall go visit them if i get to go london!
cant wait to see what it's like over there.

after that had breakfast with my dearest girlfriend. haha. linda.
macs breakfast at changi airport.
how posh.
and to think i was in this formal attire.
long sleeved blouse with black skirt. holding my black coat in my hands.
ha. super unprofessional executive zhien.

then after that went to take bus from changi airport.
gosh it's been so long since i took bus from the airport.
haha. i shall try it more often maybe. it's so fun.
only did that when i was really young.
dad used to bring us to the airport just to take pics.
and we would take a bus there cos the mrt wasnt ready then.
those were the days.

then went to meet the girls at safra tampines that side.
then headed for the photoshoot venue.
managed to find the place.
looked like some deserted warehouse to me.
after that watched the make-up artist do her work on the 2 other girls first.
my turn was the 3rd.
then after that took photo.
man. i think i really cmi.
damn stiff in front of the camera. bet i stressed that photographer out.
and i really think i look weird with make-up.
*faint*
stupid crap.
then after that wait and wait and wait.
watch other people take their shots.
then only around 6 plus then take group photo. wasted 6 hours of my youth away.
man.
and to think i actually fell.
when taking the group photo was supposed to be arranged.
then end up i was a bit slow to get to the studio place cos of a bit of touching up.
then i ran. stepped on the cloth, which is not slip proof. then wah haha.
*bing bong biang*
there goes. zhien the joke of the day.
nah. managed to not fall flat. but well. it was embarrassing enough.
watever.
then yea. it all ends at 7.
a total 7 plus hours of torture.

was so super shag after that.
then went to take bus to tampines mall.
had macs again for dinner.

after that headed back to airport to send flo off.
another lse-goer.
the last one this year from our class to go overseas.
shall not have such more frequent airport trips anymore.
hopefully the next time i go there. it's my turn to go overseas on a trip!

after that headed back home and then quickly got online.
discussed presentation stuff.
then now blogging.
man. a totally shag day.
but yet. i didnt accomplished much.
my tutorial is still not done.
hmm.
my presentation preparations are still in a mess.
man. i'll need to finish up a whole load of stuff tmr!

ganbatte. ganbatte. ganbatte.

simplicity is a dream

shall just write something before i get to sleep.

beginning to really feel weary.
so many things to manage yet i seem to be able to handle it all.
fighting a battle. fighting a war.
trying to survive through all these.
trying to take up my responsibilities and at the same time juggle my schoolwork.
the endless project work isnt doing anything to help.
hopefully i can really clear those projects soon enough and get down to doing proper studying.

next week shall be having 2 presentations.
and i seriously hate it when hopes are pinned on me to do to my best.
no doubt i'll do my best to perform.
but i sincerely dont want to carry the whole load on my shoulders.
cos i dont have the strength and energy to do it all.
i've got my limits.
stereotype me. then after that use it on me.
gosh. nothing i ever really wanted. who would wish for that.
indeed, it's some compliment. that i'm from some recognised top school.
people think i am capable. think that i am efficient. think that i am genius.
which i seriously am not.
and i dont know why simply cos of the comments i'll have to make myself be like what i'm perceived to be.
it's tiring.
it's taking a toll on me.

i've got my forgetfulness.
i've got my incompetencies.
i've got my incapabilities.
see that and understand that i'm not infallible.
i know of what the expectations are. but i'm putting effort to meet them.
not that i dont want to fail.
i hate failures. i hate my incompetencies. i hate my flaws.
who doesnt want to be perfect.
but the fact is. i can never be.
i do what i can. within my means. within the time i have.
it's not as if i have all the time in the world.
it seems like i complete most of my stuff on time.
why? cos i squeeze myself dry.
every single wee bit of time.
i try to make full use of that.
to make up for what i am short of.
to try and do what i cant.

i dont even have time to do proper revision.
which i think i'll seriously need.
i need the space. i need the time.

i dont need additional pressure.
dont keep telling me things like retaking courses.
dont keep saying it's hard to manage.
cos afterall. i'm trying to take every single step such that it's worthwhile.
so that i can reach my goal.
so that i can do what i really want to.
so that i really can be impressive.
so that i will be successful.

i'm telling myself.
i can do it.
i can manage it.
i can get my ideal grades.
i can handle everything i've taken up as my responsibility.
i can. cos i say i can.
please dont come shaking me off my feet.
cos i'm making it a point to stand firm.

damn those inconsiderate homo sapiens.

citius, altius, fortius.
faster, higher, stronger.
i shall have to be.

think. think. think.

argh. cant think.
cant think of a title to put. so that's it. gonna be that lame way.

second day since start of school after the one week break.
trying to get back into the momentum.
loads of presentation to prepare for the coming week.
getting increasingly stressed.
stupid.
man. if only i can stop time.
then i'll be able to do so much while i stop time from running.

today had hall event.
courtyard they call it.
a drama performance.
basically. went there to take photos. do nothing.
not bad i think.
some people in the hall really do make good actors.

hmm. after that was supper. rojak.
haha. so fun.

so basically wasted time la.
spent 4 hours or so out of my room cos of the events.
phew. no more events as yet. for this week.
time to focus and settle my school stuff.

argh.
beginning really think that i cannot make it.
gosh.
so much concepts that i can grasp properly.
so many things to learn.
argh.
can i get some brain booster?
i need more wisdom.

bummin' around

slack slack slack.
gosh. i'm so damn slack today.
havent really done anything constructive.
not getting down to reading my textbooks yet.

argh.
need to seriously get sthg done.
mugging marathon?
ready. get set then go.
but. when am i gonna be ready?

been a major slacker this weekend.
hmm.
time to really get things done.
i usually keep saying.
argh. damn it.
now i feel like sleeping more than anything.
but there's tv at 11pm.
hehe.

no time yet i wanna slack.
man. loser me.
lalala.

event

saturday.
first event organised by my sub-com.
hehe. in conjuction with mid-autumn fest.

basically my job was very slack.
was the station master. taking charge of the game.
while the groups will come in and play.
duties ended kind of early.
then after that helped out with food and stuff so basically just ran around yunnan gardens.

ended kind of late.
then packed up and came back home.

kind of fun.
i got so much lightsticks.
hehe. they are so lovely.
then after that took photos.
basically i was very extra.
but it was loads of fun.
first time i get to interact so close with the ids. and then also working with more people in the sub-com.
really nice. haha.

came home got so much nice stuff to eat.
damn. i'm eating so much at home.
haha.
had one-quarter of an ice-cream mooncake.
my my. omg. my first.
then also got to eat this lovely strawberry jelly cheesecake.
really very nice.

it's a pleasure.
eventful saturday.
watching full house, this really sweet korean drama.
life can be very beautiful i guess. if you want it to be.
really very very nice to be back.

school's break ending.
gosh. it seems like it never once started.
but well.
it's back to classes again.
time to really get more mugging.
haha.

tmr supposed to have class gathering but argh. cant go.
simply cos i've got my whole sunday so packed.
tutoring tutoring and more tutoring.

coming sat having photo shoot.
damn it.
zhien gonna have to start a major diet plan before i look really puffed up in a business suit.
gosh.

.drink.drank.drunk.

man.
drank for the first time in my life.
haha.
so dumb.
linda suggest drinking during lecture today.

so just now went for supper.
then took bus to jp 7-11 to buy the drinks.
man.
bought one bottle of vodka raspberry.
one bottle of vodka green apple.
one bottle of long island tea.
haha. drinks are damn ex in 7-11.

haha. then went back to hall to start drinking.
haha. so dumb.
man i'm a lousy drinker.
drank less than half a bottle and my whole face is red.
i inherited the wrong genes.

then linda, ps and chiew lin keep laughing at me.
so red and hot la.
siao.
but yea. i am still in the right state of mind.

tmr gonna hangover. sianz.

so there goes my first drinking experience.
15092005 2349.

home.love.family

home love family
there was once a time i must have had them too
home love family
i'll never be complete until i find you

lalala.
still in the singing mood.
haha.

back at home tonight.
had to come back to get stuff for logistics for saturday's event.
kind of a failed trip somehow.
went there and they are still out of stock.
well. just my luck.

gonna stay here tonight. haha.
good to be home. as usual.
i feel pampered. somehow.
it just seems so normal but i still find it a pleasure.

enjoying myself tonight i guess.
aim to sleep early after trying to get the tutorial i brought back done.
hehe.
i feel tired. so i guess it'll be better if i get enough sleep.
or else i'll be panda zhien.
haha. how cute (ugly but simply so adorable!).

yea. once again i emphasize. i love my home.
haha. it's just so nice so wonderful so great to be home.
lovely.
i like the tv. (yes i'm still at my tv marathon. havent started my tutorials.)
i like this old pc. (haha. i love typing and having the loud keyboard sound. unlike that on my laptop)
i like the comfy bed. (the mattress is really soft and comfortable. haha. anything is better than my hall's. no problem sleeping 12 hours straight without wanting to get up on the one here!)
i love the clean neat place. (my mum is totally a great housemaker. haha.)
i love everything including the mess at my corner. (yes. i still havent got down to cleaning it again. it's a hopeless area.)

today had presentation.
so was kind of tired.
but well. i survived through.
my act of some unreasonable noisy lady totally made things mad i guess.
and well. at least i knew what i was talking better.
well. another day gone.

time really flies. if only i can catch it.
day 5 of this one week recess gone.
4 more days to go.
gosh. more than half is gone.
blehh.

a whole new world

hongkong disney land opened yesterday.
wanted to blog and then start dumping disney pictures here yesterday.
still the uncontainable joy of it's opening.
i was out doing project in the morning and over at the fast food restaurant they were playing chinese versions of those disney theme songs via the radio.
gosh. yet another reason to make myself go hk for a trip soon.

but well. i was kind of tired after having a 5 hr long meeting once i got back to the hall.
first time i experience such a meeting.
well. will be better prepared the next time.
my war gear - long pants and jacket to fight the air-con, snacks and water to fight the hunger and thirst.
ha. zhien the warrior. hehe, i'm a swordswoman! (*ya this is lame*)

after that only managed to catch some sleep at 4 plus am in the morning.
thankfully, i managed to wake up on time to go for klunch today with ps.
so today sang but yea. i was kind of moody cos of the lack of sleep.
but still. it's fun. to once in a while go sing sing and sing.
made such a din i guess.
after that went to hf's house to teach him maths.
woah. total marathon for 5 plus hours. bet it must have been shag for me.
even i feel drained.
hitting back on the books to figure out how to draw loci and then those horrid geometric figures that distorts the figures totally. man. what are the children learning these days?

now kind of slack despite the fact that i've got presentation tmr. gosh. i need to seriously get things done.
2 more tutorials to go and argh. i'm deprived. deprived of time.

bless me. with a whole new world please.
lalala.
i love the song.
well. i need something new to experience to pysche up my life.
damn it.

opinions

hark! the mugger speaks.

haha.
trying to do my tutorials as i watch the tv replay of project superstar finals.
haha. how dumb la.
i'm not doing much.
but well.
thoughts.
i know it's kind of slow to comment.
haha. linda commented that i am slow in knowing the results of the show on that day itself.
haha. i only knew it half an hour after the whole thing concluded.
woah.

what else can i say.
they each have their strengths i guess.
jj is so loveable! omg.
he's really the star.
he's good. damn good.
somehow it seemed as if he was trying very hard to sing together with them.
well. he's good so he can make it.

weilian he's good at singing those really touching tunes.
kelly displays total stage presence.
both of them are indeed good singers i would say.
being able to bring out their best in front of such a big crowd. standing on such a big stage.
they were good.
gosh.

and wah haha. i love that slogan like comment.
super lame. but yea. it's so interesting.
"my way, my way. no way, no way. get your sandwich from subway!"
lalala. subway might consider using that as a slogan.
gosh.

well. i am talking nonsense. as usual.

lala. i am wasting my time.
gosh. the show is a total distraction.
argh.
better try to get sthg done.

red challenge

went to donate blood today.
wa haha.
second time as a blood donor.
went with linda today cos they extended the drive by one more day!
lalala.
the first time was in j2. 26 july 2004.

how cool.
but too bad. the bandage is giving me probs.
it's coming off very easily.
sigh.

but well.
i did something good!
lalala.

what a day

phew.
my only day with a 5-hr block of classes.
hehe. my longest. but well. today was rather focused in class despite the lack of sleep the night before.
didnt sleep at lecture. tried my very best to absorb as much during seminar.
haha. zhien is in the right mugger mode.

after class went back to hall.
dumped my stuff and then decided to go for blood donation drive that was held in school.
gosh. unlucky day i guess.
went there at 3 plus. way before closing time at 5 pm.
then still end up went there. the helpers said that the medical team has left.
gosh. wasted trip walking there.
man.

then decided to go pay hostel bills at the other end of the academic block.
but linda forgot to bring her bill. so went back hostel to get.
then in the end decided to take shuttle bus to the bank in school to pay bills.
when reach there need to go atm withdraw cash then can pay.
end up. argh. atm machine was out of service.
then gosh. cant do anything again.

decided to go library to get cash card since it's along the way.
then went to the photocopy shop in the library.
the person say cash cards out of stock.
no choice. cant do anything again.

then walked down the stairs saw people queueing at the atm machine.
woah. thought it's working again.
then end up the machine wasnt even working.
wonder why those people queued.
-.-

then checked the time. 4.12 pm. the bank closes at 4.30 pm.
so we were thinking of trying our luck and see if there's atm machine at nie. then get back on time to pay bills.
end up. walk to nie. saw the security guard. was told that nie only got sam machine no atm machine.
gosh. nothing can be done then.

end up wasted 45 mins travelling to and fro the 2 ends of the whole academic blocks.
accomplished nothing.
wah haha. how nice.

after that came back to hostel then started to read a bit of the textbooks so that i can start on tutorials.
next week gonna be a one week break from school.
hoping to finish up my tutorials over the weekends then really give myself a break.
i guess that sounds impossible but well. will do as much as i can.

night was sub-com night. a hall event.
basically ate and ate.
snacked and snacked.
played and played.
gosh. my com members are quiet.
but well. hopefully things get better when they know each other better.

after that. went out for supper out of school with linda and chiew lin.
haha. had prata.
gosh. the amount of food i am eating.
horrible.
lalala.
but well.

it was an eventful day i guess.
shag but well. that's life.
it's just a ride. it's just a ride. dont need to run. dont need to hide.

springing surprises

today.
basically an ok ok day.
school as usual.
and as usual. during the stats tutorial, i sprung shockingly surpising questions to the tutor.
haha. bet i am being labelled as some "trouble" student.
cos i often give him a lot of "stunning" questions that he'll look very shocked when i speak.
i wonder when i'll hear groans from my classmates whenever i raise my hands to speak.
ha. i should stop being his pest for one lesson i guess.
i can be seriously a headache.
lalala.

and of course, my very nice friend of mine gave me this really really funny message today.
i was shocked to receive a b'day sms.
and it isnt my b'day. haha.
so funny lor.
my friend mistook it to be my b'day.
but yea. that was some good laugh.
my b'day is 9th June, friend. not 6th September.
gosh.
haha. this is really really like some nice surprise.
man... ok shant go on being so bad.
it was a nice intention la. haha. thanks ah. for that super duper early b'day wish. :)

late realisation

hmm. been through some thinking.
haha. how dumb right?
i've got a quiz in less than an hour's time.
and here i am blogging about my thoughts throughout the past 12 hours which is totally unrelated to the quiz.
my my.
major slacker that totally looks like a mugger?

whatever.
anyway. yesterday watched wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui 3 over at a friend's place in hall.
didnt really expect it to be that lame and corny.
haha. but as usual. ma xiao ling totally looks awesome and got that kind of attitude.
but well. more actions next week and i'll be waiting for something less dumb.
lalala.

kind of late to realise some things about myself but here are some things that i've thought through.

realised that one of the reasons why my friend would think that i'm some rich girl is that i act rather like a spoilt brat.
not to generalise rich girls are spoilt brats.
but i really do act like one that is.
first thing is. i love having things my way.
gosh. the way i talked on the phone and just hang up when i'm totally irritated.
that sounded horrid i guess.
hmm. what else can i do except to change that stupid habit of mine?

also realised that i've always kept myself forever that occupied.
dont really have much time to give myself a break.
this week. gonna be another busy week and i dont think next week will be any better although it's the term break.
sigh.
today gonna have to get my tutorial for wednesday done.
some research that i have yet to touch a single bit.
hmmm. tmr gonna have a meeting.
wednesday gonna have tuition.
thursday gonna have event.
friday will most probably meet up with laihung for dinner after so long.
saturday is an event dry-run.
bleh. so packed.
stupid. argh. i hope i can really cope.
sigh. i doubt my ability to.
i can only whine and complain and argh. stupid.
whatever it is. gonna have to make time out. for school.
priority.
hehe.
mugger!

lalalalala. hope i do well for the quiz.
and ah. i want more time. to do stuff. i want some entertainment. some life.
blehh.

uncontainable joy

hehe.
lalalalalaa.
i am so so so happy.
omg.
thanks to ps. for walking around the whole comex fair with me.
just for me to search for my n6101 phone.
gosh. we walked around so much.
squeezing through the crowd.
i was swearing to her that if i get rich one day i shall book the whole fair for an hour or so, just for myself to walk around the places and see what i like without having to squeeze my way through.
phew. finally got it.
and yay. i am so happy.
thank goodness. we didnt give up.
:)

hehe. then after that shopped around.
now shall gonna unpack my stuff then get down to mugging for quiz tomorrow.
ganbatte and good luck to me!
lalala

mummy's day

went out celebrating mum's bday today.
kind of lost my cool at times. as usual.
would just end up with some snappy remarks at my sisters and then there goes. the cold war for minutes.
hmm. the thing about sisters i guess. the snaps are there but we are all quick-tempered. gets hot as fast as we cool down and chill.
hmmm.

had really fantastic dinner.
ate at this chinese restaurant at bugis selling la mian.
was really really a great meal.
not too greasy. yet really tasty.
after that went for a movie.
see? my mum is how funky.
haha. managed to bring her to the movies after so long.
and guess what?
we watched herbie fully loaded.
haha. really a very nice and hilarious show.
it's so cute.
i wanna own a herbie too.
lalala.
it's gonna be so so so nice to have one cute little car that will go all out for me!
man. i'm dreaming.

haha. now really really keen on getting a nokia 6101.
sigh. there's some fair that's gonna sell it at 20 bucks cheaper than other places. without having to sign on a plan.
gosh. i hope that's really a good deal.
but gasps. it ends tmr. gonna have to squeeze time out tmr and see if i can go down.
argh.