coming close

the final paper is approaching.
in 2 days time.
hehe.
shall have to work hard and just finish off this final lap for this semester.

have been rather slack.
though i havent been updating.


celebrated sis' bday on friday.
our family had a dinner together at coffee club holland v.
the food was rather good.
hehe.
not to mention the mudpie.
i'm so glad that the cough is more or less gone.
so i can actually indulge in stuff i like.
hehe.


took some photos with sis and mum.
and a family photo. :)
hehe.

happy birthday sis.
although this sounds late.
i was too lazy too blog on the actual day.
i owe you a present! eeks.
sorry sis.

happy birthday to teeseng too.
hehe.
the buddy who has the same birthday as my sis.
surely cannot forget.
funny fellow who insisted on giving me a treat when we can find time to catch up.
though my intention is to celebrate his bday (belated, that is).
well. i'll need to find time to prepare a gift somehow.
hehe.

i'm incurring 'presents givable' as liabilities.
haha.
high time to do shopping!

a week of blessings.
God is good!
hehe. :)
i've been blessed in many ways despite what is going on.

need the discipline to persevere and just give my best for the last paper.
been feeling as if i am too complacent.
some responsibilities at hand that i feel the pressure with the impending deadline.
but at the same time there are people there to encourage me to stay strong.
there are people offering their help.
some things that i need the resolve to settle.
i know clearly what is right to do.
yet at the same time i know it's not easy and it's going to be rather painful.
not wanting to stay in the middle.
yet torn in making a stand.
so really need the strength to be firm in making that deliberate choice.

seems as if it's going to turn rather stormy.
but i'm anticipating the sunshine after the storm.
surely God is faithful to see me through it all.
i know i'll be better. :)

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary

pure and holy

tried and true

with thanksgiving, i'll be a living

sanctuary

for You

1 more to go

finally down with 3 papers.

well.
according to sarah and edison.
there's some positive correlation between the stress level of examinations and the frequency of blogging.
i guess it's some form of stress relief.
and one way of just taking time off all the mugging.

i just completed my third paper for this semester today.
there's one more to go.
gonna have to persevere and just complete this lap.
need the discipline to get started with preparations for the final paper.

and soon i'll have to unpack from hall.
and move whatever there is back to home.
surely.
a few things that i'm so gonna miss.


my room.
during this study period.
whenever i'm just so bored.
i'll just stare out of the window.
sometimes get lost in my thoughts for a while.
before getting back to the books.
gonna miss this place.
it's quiet. rather conducive for studying.
and i do make it a point to make my table as neat as possible.
so that i feel more motivated to study.
the one thing i'm so going to make sure.
i need a neat study table at the new house.
haha.

and of course i'm going to miss my cl2.
the 2 of them are my best companion at hall.
without them i'll really get very very very very very bored at hall.
haha.
there's always fun with them around.
all the laughter as we go down to do laundry.
making quite a fair bit of noise at the lift lobby.
the 1 am, 2 am syndrome etc.
we sure have quite a fair bit of own jokes.
haha.
i'm so going to miss the slumber parties.
so gonna miss doing laundry with the girls.
so gonna miss all the silly entics.
so gonna miss the two of them!

one thing i'm definitely not going to miss.
moving out.
haha.
going to be quite a task.
still planning how to get it done more efficiently.
i'm trying to clear as much as i can on my own.
carried quite a fair bit back today.
so much so that i was quite worn out.
hehe. i'm quite lazy when it comes to packing.

anyway.
i'm glad for just a simple time tonight.
looking forward to spending more of such time.
just quietly sitting down and listening.
i need guidance in many areas.
and surely i need much help dealing with what i dont have the strength to deal with on my own.
i never realised certain things that i remember so vividly.
back in my mind i've always thought i've long gotten used to it.
yet i realised i can still remember it just as if it happened the day before.
God help me.
i really need to learn to deal with all these rather than running away.
i've ran away for too long.
with the different things coming along the way.
each time running away doesnt help.
i need to learn to face it with His strength.
i'm glad.

When my spirit grows faint within me, it is You who know my way.

...

"You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living."

- Psalm 142:3,5

well. something to look forward to.


i wanna watch spiderman 3.
hehe.
the movie highlight for this coming summer!
true enough.
one's biggest enemy can be the self.
who's on about watching it with me?

direct proportion

blogging frequency increases with increased stress.
i wonder if there's this positive correlation.
hehe.

a few things i just want to take a break and blog about.


exam wishes from linda and chiewlin to just brighten up this period of mugging.
:)
very cute stuff that i got.
but too bad i can't eat them now.
cos i'm in a rather bad shape.
bleh.


more things to be thankful for.
mum called immediately after sis told her i wasn't feeling well last night.
really thankful for such a caring mum. despite the fact that she always gets home late from work.
despite being tired. she still cares. :)
thankful for my wonderful sisters too.
sis came down to school today.
bringing me the herbal tea.
so that at least if i don't see a doctor.
my condition won't get that bad.
and she brought my watch down for me too!
so i don't have to worry about being blocked by a pillar and cant see the clock during exams.
thanks to ying too who dropped me an sms.
asking me to take care of myself.
and sending exam well-wishes too.
i'm loved. ^^


had dinner with the cell group at jp banquet tonight.
the hotplate chicken with crispy noodle i ate was fantastic.
but i think cos i wasn't feeling well.
every time after i eat.
i feel sick.
sigh.
i'm contemplating whether to see a doctor tmr morning before my paper or just spend the time studying.
bleh.

the thing about marketing

Some would say that if you are looking for a job that you want, "what you know is important and whom you know helps". An astute marketing-oriented person may even go beyond that. His view is probably that, "whilst whom you know is helpful, who knows you and for what you are, is even more critical."

Required:
Applying marketing principles that you have learnt, how would you, in today's business environment, market yourself for a job that you like. You may assume any job.

i chanced upon this question when i was practising past year papers.
the stunning marketing question.
market yourself on the spot during exams!
haha.
how crazy is that.
i don't think i can do this.
gosh.
please dont have such things appearing on friday.

back in hall already for this week.
but i forgot to bring back quite a handful of things.
didn't bring my notebook and devtional materials.
didn't bring my watch (when i need it for exams).
didn't bring my children church stuff when i'll probably have to head straight off to pm on friday after the paper.
but there's always online materials that i can refer to. the Spirit shall lead.
also. can probably borrow a watch from linda.
and i reprinted the stuff i need.
hehe.

ok. shall cut the crap.
and go back to mugging.

battle

current battle #1
cough.
i've been coughing real bad.
i can't remember since when.
but it feels horrible.
sigh.
what a bad time to fall sick.

current battle #2
myself.
this isnt easy at all.
sigh. the change come hitting me quite bad especially during this period of preparing for exams.
i dont feel right somehow.
i feel odd.
maybe it's all about adjusting.
plus the things at hand.
i feel rather taxed.
but still.
i know i'm not going through all these alone.
it's tough battling with myself.
but i know just where i can find rest.
where i can find peace.
where i can find strength.
i just need to be persistent in seeking.

current battle #3
war of the books. war of the notes.
the greatest marketing battle ever.
for now.
more to come.
with battle with the world of the web.
with company law too.
and even business information systems.
bleh.

current battle #4
time.
with the different responsibilities.
really need to learn to manage this really well.
more importantly, i need time with God.
to ensure i have my sanity in spite of all that's going on.


impending battle #1
exams.
gonna start on thursday.
a 14 day long marathon.
shall need to really discipline myself.
this time round.
things are a little different.
i really hope i can do well despite it all.
jia you jia you!

argh

it's most odd.
that i'm so slack.
when i have quite a handful of things to do.
eeks.
very bad discipline.
argh.
need to really wake up.
haha.

shall just post some photos up for this entry.
then i'll have to get down to doing some serious work.
haha.


mum bought this really lovely looking blueberry pie from rive gauche when she bought ying's bday cake.
we end up cutting ying's bday cake real early this time round.
cos i can't be around at home on the actual day of her bday.
her bday cake is not this!
it's a really yummy chocolatey cake.
hehe.
but this blueberry pie is nice too.
yes i need to cut down on desserts.
i only took a small bite of this!


was on the cab on sunday morning.
when i saw this.
haha.
so silly la.
the taxi uncle play cheat.
instead of locking his seat belt, he stuck the card there to stop the belt from retracting.
so it looks as if he had the seat belt on.
haha.
quite a smart move though.
haha.
yes i take note of such silly things.
and i take photos everywhere i go.
well almost everywhere.
haha.


yesterday went to this ice-cream shop with eugene and junjie.
it's called the daily scoop.
and the place is really nice.
visit their website to take a look at what they have got!
haha.
supposed to study too.
but we end up talking so much.
haha.


the three of us shared these stuff.
had two scoops of ice-cream.
lychee martini and hazelnut haven.
had bailey's choc chip with the waffle.
and also honey vanilla with the brownie.
haha.
i found more ice-cream lovers!
the honey vanilla ice-cream is really really nice.
i didn't know that when honey is added to vanilla it tastes so splendid.
haha.


even got the chance to see them make the ice-cream.
nutty macadamia.
haha.
so fun to just sit there and snap all i want.
haha.
:)

from today onwards, i shall have to swear off desserts for some time.
it's gonna be real hard.
given my real liking for those lovely yummy sweet treats.
well it's always hard to give up what you really like right?
hehe.
bleh. i dont really have a choice i guess.
at the rate i'm going.
i'll end up ballooning like crazy.
so shall have to discipline myself.
stop the sweet tooth from activating!

ill-treatment

one thing i never know.
how to ill-treat myself.
not that i see the need to.
but well i need discipline.
haha.


i never ill-treat myself at tuition.
instead. i find ways to have fun too.
was teaching my student science.
and apparently she hasnt got the chance to play with plasticine ever.
so i bought plasticine and played with her as i teach.
haha.
made all sorts of funny stuff.
introducing plasticine rose and ice-cream.
haha.


i'm very well-treated in fact.
came back home on thursday.
and saw these snacks!
mummy got them for us.
and i've got 3 to myself.
not that she's biased.
but she bought so much for us!
haha.
so i've got snacks to munch on while i mug at home.
that's if i get started with mugging at home.
haha.


got this really cute looking sweet during good friday service.
it looks really interesting.
but it doesnt taste that fantastic.
it's just a cute little cow.
haha.
well, still a sweet treat.


had dinner with nic, daniel, ariel, jeremy and sean (hope i spelt this right) at wistma's food republic after service.
and being a prawn lover.
i treated myself to dinner with this fresh prawn wanton noodles.
not fantastic.
but not that bad too.
hehe.
a fairly good alternative to hokkien mee.
at least dont have to queue that freaking long.
haha.


of course.
not having desserts out doesnt mean i ill-treat myself.
haha.
i made something healthy turn out not so healthy afterall.
haha.
cut a really fresh and nice-looking green apple into slices.
and ate them with caramel!
haha.
it's really nice ok?
hehe.

here's just a summary of the desserts i had so far this week.
judge for yourself how well i treat myself ya?
sunday night - mcdonald's strawberry sundae
monday afternoon - cafe express peach smoothie
tuesday night - honey sea coconut dessert
wednesday night - one pint ben&jerry's magic brownies (shared this with chiewlin and linda!)
thursday night - a little bit of ben&jerry's phish food that sis bought (really just a bit)
friday night - chendol at wistma's food republic; mos coffee shake
saturday night - green apple slices with caramel

hmmm. looks like it's not my day without something sweet.
haha.
i really need discipline to cut down on all these.
i only jogged once this week while on the way to buy the ice-cream on wednesday night.
other than that. no more exercise.
eeks.
plus all the exams snacking.
it's gonna get really ugly if i dont put proper controls in place!
haha.

well.
not only do i need discipline to stop snacking.
i also need discipline to stop slacking.
need to really get the project done.
also to get the momentum of doing revision!
hehe.


this is sthg just to post up.
haha.
not that i've ill-treated myself.
but i dont know how i ever got this bruise on my hand.
haha.
weird right?

well.
just some free publicity.
going out to those who like adore (like is an understatement maybe) cool desserts!


haha.
ben&jerry's free cone day.
17th april tuesday.
hehe.
well you might just catch me in the queue if i'm not mugging.
haha.


saw this and it seems quite cool.
mos burger frozen cake bar.
probably will try it when i have the chance to.
hehe.
seems interesting.
hehe.

oh well.
shall stop all the sweet stuff.
hehe.
shall try get started at doing some serious work.

to just end off.
this is a nice song.
the music is catchy.

way back into love

i've been living with a shadow overhead

i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

i've been lonely for so long

trapped in the past, i just can't seem to move on

i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

just in case i ever need 'em again someday

i've been setting aside time

to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

all i want to do is find a way back into love

i can't make it through without a way back into love

oh oh oh

i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

i've been searching but i just don't see the signs

i know that it's out there

there's got to be something for my soul somewhere

i've been looking for someone to shed some light

not just somebody just to get me through the night

i could use some direction

and i'm open to your suggestions

all i want to do is find a way back into love

i can't make it through without a way back into love

and if i open my heart again

i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

there are moments when i don't know if it's real

or if anybody feels the way i feel

i need inspiration, not just another negotiation

all i want to do is find a way back into love

i can't make it through without a way back into love

and if i open my heart to you

i'm hoping you'll show me what to do

and if you help me to start again

you know that i'll be there for you in the end

yet another weekly update

i'm getting lazier at this.
partially cos there isn't really a lot to blog about.
partially cos there's definitely better use of the time.
there's quite a handful of things i've got to do.
yet i'm rather lazy to get them done.
somehow i need more motivation.

oh well.
i shall try to recall what there is to blog about.


last tuesday.
had steamboat dinner with linda, chiewlin, yanying and yanling.
the 2nd tuesday in a row with a really filling dinner.
went through quite some time preparing all the stuff before we sit down for a dinner.
and while waiting for the soup to boil and the food to cook.
we took photos!
it's been some time since linda, chiewlin and i took pictures together.
had wanted to go jogging again since i ate so much.
but end up spending my night sitting in my room doing marketing project discussion.
gosh.


cell group on wednesday was a little different.
went to the site where the new church building will be.
really thank God that the tutor ended class really early that day.
so i had enough time to bring all my barang barang back from hall to home first.
instead of lugging them all the way down to aljunied.
it was a good time of prayer.
after that, the cell group went for a makan session together.
had dim sum. i love the prawn chee chong fun.
hehe.
yummy.
see how we wiped out everything.
haha.

thursday came down to school early in the morning since i stayed at home on wednesday night.
only to find that the class was cancelled because the tutor fell sick.
end up coming back to hall to do my tutorials.
almost dozed off.
headed back home and caught up with my sleep.
i guess i was really really tired for the entire week.
i slept for close to 4 hours when i had intended to sleep for 1.
so kind of unproductive.

had a really busy weekend.
woke up late on saturday for the campus training.
but had a short but good time catching up with gloria while waiting for binghan and nic to go down to changi beach together.
after baptism had to do a photoshoot.
minor hiccups but thank God that everything went well.
a small start. praying hard that things progress on smoothly from there on.
i'm thankful for really sensitive and concerned people around me. :)
not exactly going through an easy time but i'm encouraged.
maybe i tend to magnify what i'm going through.
probably it isnt as tough as i see it.
i just need to stop wallowing in miserable self-pity.
sunday was another long day also.
but i'm glad.

i'm glad to get to spend time with audrey yesterday over dinner.
i'm blessed.
i'm glad to a short time with peishan during dinner tonight.
jia you girl!

2 days into this week.
finally cleared my presentations for this semester.
shall have my final written assignment test on thursday next week.
and then a project deadline on friday next week.
and i'm cleared with the small bits of my coursework.
then exams are coming soon.
gonna have to really get started with preparations.

things are different.
and i'm still trying to adjust.
probably i need to make more deliberate choices.
to choose to focus on what ought to be done.

i'm tired thinking.
was it real?
instead of letting random thoughts run.
i should let what is true fill me.
He's all that i ever need.

can't really remember where i got this.
but i think it's beautiful.

perhaps it is good to have a beautiful mind, but an even greater gift is to discover a beautiful heart.

a pure mind.
a pure heart.
only He can give.
:)