9 hours of sleep. i slept around 5 am yesterday. cos was online transferring songs to sis and she transferred some to me. i just woke up 15 minutes ago. i set my alarm to be earlier but well i just shut it up and slept.
i had a weird dream in which i was dead. haha. it was so lame. at first i wasnt dead. suddenly i was. in my dreams, i dont even know the cause of my death. really lame lame dream. then after that i possess the ability to know so many things. like things that happen to anyone, things that they do before. like i know their deepest darkest secret. goodness. i think it's a crazy dream. but well. it's a dream that has ended. back to reality now.
again. the start of school for many. and yet. i am rotting at home. this is the 2nd time. that people start school and yet i am still in my holiday. it isnt something worth celebrating. after one week with ying at home in the morning with me. now she's back to school and i am home alone again. it's sad i must say. i really dont enjoy the way my life is getting more and more routinal. i crave some tiney-winey change in my life sometimes.
intend to catch a movie. thinking of watching robots. i asked ying to go with me. so funny that the thought of asking her to watch a movie with me just when her holidays are about to end. well. i told her to find one day when she's not so held up with school to watch with me. afterall, as sisters, i havent gone to the movies with her and just her. when i was very very young, i went to watch jurrasic park with my elder sis and daddy while she stayed at home with mummy. as we grow up, we all go out with our friends for movies. in sec 2, there was one rare chance that ying, me and daddy when to catch tokyo raiders. it left a deep impression on me cos it was one of the last movies daddy accompanied us to. and also cos me and ying wanted to watch it so badly that daddy rushed us to the cinema just after my 3rd language classes that time. nvr have me and ying go to the movies just with each other. so i thought it would be nice as a sister to initiate one this time. i hope there's a chance to. school gonna be busy i guess.
a lot of catching up to do with my sis too. when she comes back.
a lot of catching up to do with my friends. i am making an effort to email some of them. after all, i havent really done much to ask if most of them are fine. i am too engrossed working and too engrossed with my uni apps and too engrossed with myself. failed as a friend to many people. but well. i'll make changes. gonna start practising on the guitar soon. before it's way too late to. haha. friday. here comes.
Monday, March 21, 2005
yippie!
ok. that sounds kiddy. that doesnt sound like the usual me.
but i am happy in a good way. look at the time man. i am a responsible tutor. finally finished setting the papers for that p2 genius student of mine. i copied most questions from my other student's assessment book. oops. haha. but well. i set the maths mcq all by myself. i hope that kills him. haha. sadistic. but i really dont want him to do too well for it. it might get into his head and he can get really so proud of himself at times that i cant stand it. was talking to sis online about him. and well. i must say i enjoy teaching him. although we make things difficult for each other. he's some child lor. goodness. i argue with him at times. argue like a child. gosh. haha. but well it's something refreshing. afterall working is really so routinal and boring to me these days. it's good to see his funny expression when i really make things hard for him and when the way he grins like mad when he makes things hard for me. haha. silly. but well. the way we relate to each other is quite fun. maybe that's why he tells his mum that i am a "hao3 wan2" teacher. laugh or cry over that? dont know. well. i am done. so that's good. tomorrow he'll be so so so dead. haha.
worked today again for 9 whole hours. i am tired but still getting on fine. i can catch up on sleep since tmr there is only tutoring. going to have to start practising on the guitar for the alumni piece. having practice on good friday morning and i havent done anything. omg. haha. i need to start.
ps. sry. friday swimming is off. argh. i got guitar prac. it slipped my mind. you can go ahead if you want ok? i'll get my goggles and we can start the week after. really sorry. i want to do sthg badly too. but. i think i cant push that practice back. working that day somemore so i cant pack more things in. unless. we can set another date. really sry girl.
moving on to another week. :) trying to remain very very positive that things will go great. still need to settle that last bit of scholarship apps. going to rj again before tuition on wednesday i guess. i just hope my teacher wont scream at me. for putting her name down as referee even before i seek her permission. i keep my fingers crossed. :)
but i am happy in a good way. look at the time man. i am a responsible tutor. finally finished setting the papers for that p2 genius student of mine. i copied most questions from my other student's assessment book. oops. haha. but well. i set the maths mcq all by myself. i hope that kills him. haha. sadistic. but i really dont want him to do too well for it. it might get into his head and he can get really so proud of himself at times that i cant stand it. was talking to sis online about him. and well. i must say i enjoy teaching him. although we make things difficult for each other. he's some child lor. goodness. i argue with him at times. argue like a child. gosh. haha. but well it's something refreshing. afterall working is really so routinal and boring to me these days. it's good to see his funny expression when i really make things hard for him and when the way he grins like mad when he makes things hard for me. haha. silly. but well. the way we relate to each other is quite fun. maybe that's why he tells his mum that i am a "hao3 wan2" teacher. laugh or cry over that? dont know. well. i am done. so that's good. tomorrow he'll be so so so dead. haha.
worked today again for 9 whole hours. i am tired but still getting on fine. i can catch up on sleep since tmr there is only tutoring. going to have to start practising on the guitar for the alumni piece. having practice on good friday morning and i havent done anything. omg. haha. i need to start.
ps. sry. friday swimming is off. argh. i got guitar prac. it slipped my mind. you can go ahead if you want ok? i'll get my goggles and we can start the week after. really sorry. i want to do sthg badly too. but. i think i cant push that practice back. working that day somemore so i cant pack more things in. unless. we can set another date. really sry girl.
moving on to another week. :) trying to remain very very positive that things will go great. still need to settle that last bit of scholarship apps. going to rj again before tuition on wednesday i guess. i just hope my teacher wont scream at me. for putting her name down as referee even before i seek her permission. i keep my fingers crossed. :)
Sunday, March 20, 2005
sat-ur-day
dont know why i split it up that way. well. i just did.
read cher's blog. guild outing seem to turn out quite fun. not bad. but well. i wouldnt be able to have that much fun anyway. mum will nvr allow me to stay out that late. hmm. that's the way my life is. so that's it. i'm just going to be back home early all the time. good thing that not all my friends are like that. haha. they dont go out that long. or else i'll be like "xian mu" all the time. but i guess i'm used to such kind of lifestyle already. i am some super toot girl. :)
well. nothing much for today. slept till late morning again. well. my sleeps are really horrid now. i'm gone case la. sleep so much. but well. there isnt much to do except sleeping. now in slack mood. and "not so want to gb" mood. but well. have to play so that i wont waste the power user. my prepaid card. i really need to stop playing it some day. i'm kind of sian. dont think i can have a life by playing so much anyway.
tutored at 2 today. after that got ready to go out and meet ade and meiyi. went huang chen ye yun today. met them at raffles city and ate at the food court with their 2 other friends. then walked to victoria theatre. nothing much. then went to watch huang chen. 3rd year that i go watching huang chen. no hc-ian. but still supportive of it i guess. it's one of the rare chances that i get in touch with chinese stuff. 1st year that i go without teeseng. haha. usually those hc people will be doing backstage and he'll be my companion. haha. so well. this time i went with the girls. it's quiet during the shows without him. lol. talkative friend can be good also. well. huang chen was good. although a few works seem kind of lame. but well. i am impressed with their sets. i am so so so impressed. nvr fails to impress me. if only i was that professional in sets when i was in drama back in jc. everyone will so go wow. sigh. i dont have that kind of talent. eeks. usually before they end, they'll sing this hc song thing. always make me feel so left out. but well. i made the choice myself 2 years back. and there's nothing bad about the choice i made. haha. being in rj was fun. just no more old homey campus now. i want to wear rj uniform!! so long since i wore it. but no chance to. anyway. it was so much coindence that during one short moment in the play for huang chen. they played hui dao guo qu. see the lyrics that i posted in the last entry. woops. haha. nice song!
yap. then got home slightly after 11. mum was as usual worried. and i just told her the day before that i'll be out to watch huang chen. argh. then called me at 10 plus already to check where i was. eee. ok. she's overprotective. goodness. i am a tough girl la. well.
read cher's blog. guild outing seem to turn out quite fun. not bad. but well. i wouldnt be able to have that much fun anyway. mum will nvr allow me to stay out that late. hmm. that's the way my life is. so that's it. i'm just going to be back home early all the time. good thing that not all my friends are like that. haha. they dont go out that long. or else i'll be like "xian mu" all the time. but i guess i'm used to such kind of lifestyle already. i am some super toot girl. :)
well. nothing much for today. slept till late morning again. well. my sleeps are really horrid now. i'm gone case la. sleep so much. but well. there isnt much to do except sleeping. now in slack mood. and "not so want to gb" mood. but well. have to play so that i wont waste the power user. my prepaid card. i really need to stop playing it some day. i'm kind of sian. dont think i can have a life by playing so much anyway.
tutored at 2 today. after that got ready to go out and meet ade and meiyi. went huang chen ye yun today. met them at raffles city and ate at the food court with their 2 other friends. then walked to victoria theatre. nothing much. then went to watch huang chen. 3rd year that i go watching huang chen. no hc-ian. but still supportive of it i guess. it's one of the rare chances that i get in touch with chinese stuff. 1st year that i go without teeseng. haha. usually those hc people will be doing backstage and he'll be my companion. haha. so well. this time i went with the girls. it's quiet during the shows without him. lol. talkative friend can be good also. well. huang chen was good. although a few works seem kind of lame. but well. i am impressed with their sets. i am so so so impressed. nvr fails to impress me. if only i was that professional in sets when i was in drama back in jc. everyone will so go wow. sigh. i dont have that kind of talent. eeks. usually before they end, they'll sing this hc song thing. always make me feel so left out. but well. i made the choice myself 2 years back. and there's nothing bad about the choice i made. haha. being in rj was fun. just no more old homey campus now. i want to wear rj uniform!! so long since i wore it. but no chance to. anyway. it was so much coindence that during one short moment in the play for huang chen. they played hui dao guo qu. see the lyrics that i posted in the last entry. woops. haha. nice song!
yap. then got home slightly after 11. mum was as usual worried. and i just told her the day before that i'll be out to watch huang chen. argh. then called me at 10 plus already to check where i was. eee. ok. she's overprotective. goodness. i am a tough girl la. well.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
回到过去
一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 无法存活在真实的空间
想回到过去 试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去 试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰濛濛的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁
somehow the tune of this song just comes into mind. nice tune. haha. ok. i am falling in love with his songs. downloaded it to listen and i am indulging in it. haha. weird that i make it sound so fun. the tune is light but well. not exactly a very very happy song. so ya. my reaction is weird but still it's nice. :)
simple friday
following a simple routine these days.
went jogging in the morning with ps as usual. this time she came over. was knocking at my door. and i only just woke up. argh. the alarm clock did wake me up but well. i shut it up and continued my sleep. in the end sort of just woke up. not cos i heard the knocks. but i just did suddenly wake up. hmm. interesting. well. jogged quite a fair bit. not much. but well. did sthg i guess. went jogging round the perimeters of our pri school. 4 times. ok only la. well. might consider changing to swimming next week. cos it's getting so routinal that it's boring. well. not borned a swimmer but i'll try. at least i love the waters. need to get goggles now. since i sent sis' one over to atlanta. no longer can borrow hers. hmm. thinking thinking. when i can go shopping for it.then ps did uni apps at my place. good thing i got her over to come and do. made me realised one error that i made in mine and then went modifying. ya. talked. we both thought a lot i guess. over courses. guess such things are exceptionally stressing.
guild organised outing again. they very on. but well. i didnt join them. worked today. cant convince myself to give up the work for the fun yet. i'm money-faced. i'm way too practical maybe. or well. i just tired. if i were to take leave, i'll most prob opt to rest at home anyway. i am shagged. worn out. one whole week of torture over uni and scholarships. well. i guess they are still enjoying themselves out there. playful group of people maybe. and they can afford to stay out late. i most probably cant. so well. not really totally wrong to give it a miss. i need fun. need someone to accompany go out and havoc. haha. but well. i cant havoc much also. given my dull personality. i just need someone to talk crap with and cheer me up. make me feel less busy.
well. so i worked for today. nothing much. just the boring same tasks that i do all the time. for so many years liao. goodness. i am bored. sick and tired of it. but well. life still goes on.
now trying to use my brains and think. think think think. argh. setting questions for my 'precious' tutee zc. since i managed to finish his whole years syllabus already. woops. super fast. haha. it's only end of term 1 and i am done with term 4?! madness. well. so based on his 'pleasant' request, i have to set him a set of revision paper for maths and english. and he has to get good marks for them before i'll continue doing the next year's stuff with him. hmm. sounds like i've got to make some effort to make sure he doesnt get good marks. haha. brain juice drying up le. so sian. i only set the first paper's mcq and i am already dying. haha. goodness. i might just give up and give him a short paper. argh. think think zhien think!
went jogging in the morning with ps as usual. this time she came over. was knocking at my door. and i only just woke up. argh. the alarm clock did wake me up but well. i shut it up and continued my sleep. in the end sort of just woke up. not cos i heard the knocks. but i just did suddenly wake up. hmm. interesting. well. jogged quite a fair bit. not much. but well. did sthg i guess. went jogging round the perimeters of our pri school. 4 times. ok only la. well. might consider changing to swimming next week. cos it's getting so routinal that it's boring. well. not borned a swimmer but i'll try. at least i love the waters. need to get goggles now. since i sent sis' one over to atlanta. no longer can borrow hers. hmm. thinking thinking. when i can go shopping for it.then ps did uni apps at my place. good thing i got her over to come and do. made me realised one error that i made in mine and then went modifying. ya. talked. we both thought a lot i guess. over courses. guess such things are exceptionally stressing.
guild organised outing again. they very on. but well. i didnt join them. worked today. cant convince myself to give up the work for the fun yet. i'm money-faced. i'm way too practical maybe. or well. i just tired. if i were to take leave, i'll most prob opt to rest at home anyway. i am shagged. worn out. one whole week of torture over uni and scholarships. well. i guess they are still enjoying themselves out there. playful group of people maybe. and they can afford to stay out late. i most probably cant. so well. not really totally wrong to give it a miss. i need fun. need someone to accompany go out and havoc. haha. but well. i cant havoc much also. given my dull personality. i just need someone to talk crap with and cheer me up. make me feel less busy.
well. so i worked for today. nothing much. just the boring same tasks that i do all the time. for so many years liao. goodness. i am bored. sick and tired of it. but well. life still goes on.
now trying to use my brains and think. think think think. argh. setting questions for my 'precious' tutee zc. since i managed to finish his whole years syllabus already. woops. super fast. haha. it's only end of term 1 and i am done with term 4?! madness. well. so based on his 'pleasant' request, i have to set him a set of revision paper for maths and english. and he has to get good marks for them before i'll continue doing the next year's stuff with him. hmm. sounds like i've got to make some effort to make sure he doesnt get good marks. haha. brain juice drying up le. so sian. i only set the first paper's mcq and i am already dying. haha. goodness. i might just give up and give him a short paper. argh. think think zhien think!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
nothingness
thursday. one day passed again. one day closer to the deadline.
got one teacher to help me already. might call up the school tmr. try to ask for the other teacher. or else i am so dead. i can only pray for help now. really lost.
nothing much happen. i just hope there's some changes for tmr. for now. the main concern is scholarships. gosh. i need a break.
got one teacher to help me already. might call up the school tmr. try to ask for the other teacher. or else i am so dead. i can only pray for help now. really lost.
nothing much happen. i just hope there's some changes for tmr. for now. the main concern is scholarships. gosh. i need a break.
bug's life
flu bug bugged me today. buggy bug bug. stupid flu blug. went to give tuition still and i was so embarrassed. i dont feel good la. all alone at ang mo kio. sob sob. heng not that weak kind. haha. wont faint on the streets of singapore. haha. but really hate it when the flu bug bugs me like hell. it's irritating. and it just wont give way. and given my character. i would put up a good fight with it. and shant seek assistance from those doctors who just cant wait to take my pay as theirs. so end up sneezing all the way from tuition back home. back home much better. i think sneeze until cannnot sneeze liao. nose pain.
well. went rj today. tried to settle apps. futile attempt though. argh. no teachers around. sian. walked all the way there. and end up nothing. only manage to stamp "certified true copy" and even have to get some teacher that never taught me before to help me sign. all those that i know all not around. tough luck. sigh. think i'll be going down again next wed. before tuition to look for teachers. since got one is not due this week. but. headache about the one that need to get done by fri. short time. argh. how? no teachers around. joel sugeested just whacking and put their names without asking. haha. i might just do that lor. sian liao. despo liao. i almost chiong so much le. just need teachers. since i give up on many of those scholarships. now only doing those few de. now considering one more. no need essay. but i scared. if i odnt know much about what they need me to serve for bond. i end up screwed at interview. maybe i think too far. argh.
it's a boring wednesday. i not doing much. just myself alone spending time. allowing time to pass. tmr will be the same. for days to come too. loner. argh. that's the way my life is meant to be i guess.
well. went rj today. tried to settle apps. futile attempt though. argh. no teachers around. sian. walked all the way there. and end up nothing. only manage to stamp "certified true copy" and even have to get some teacher that never taught me before to help me sign. all those that i know all not around. tough luck. sigh. think i'll be going down again next wed. before tuition to look for teachers. since got one is not due this week. but. headache about the one that need to get done by fri. short time. argh. how? no teachers around. joel sugeested just whacking and put their names without asking. haha. i might just do that lor. sian liao. despo liao. i almost chiong so much le. just need teachers. since i give up on many of those scholarships. now only doing those few de. now considering one more. no need essay. but i scared. if i odnt know much about what they need me to serve for bond. i end up screwed at interview. maybe i think too far. argh.
it's a boring wednesday. i not doing much. just myself alone spending time. allowing time to pass. tmr will be the same. for days to come too. loner. argh. that's the way my life is meant to be i guess.
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