never good enough

good is never good enough?
was scanning through my junior's blog. some mention about syf.
now that there's gold with honours as a new glory for really good performing arts group, dont you think it seems as if people will nvr be satisfied with just a good?
hmm. greed? i wouldnt say so.
i am the kind that often thinks that things can never be good enough.
i feel the way about myself. i am no pretty girl that's for sure.
my sis says i aint that bad.
but i'll go. it's just not bad. it still isnt good. but i ask myself. even if it's good. would i ever see it as good enough?

enough of that.
today was a so-so day.
went kbox with sis today. with ps too.
one comment. kbox is super cold.
their aircon is switched on as if electricity bills are how cheap.

after that went lunch with sis at funan.

then after that got home. so lazy that i fell asleep.

after that ps came over for dinner. :)

rather simple day. which is good. yea. but just not good enough?

changi

yes. back.
i spent the night in changi airport. oh our wonderful changi airport.
haha. it is indeed very quiet at the airport at night.
except maybe i was unlucky la.
the gang of us basically just made ourselves comfortable in burger king.
and just nearby they were drilling something to do carpeting or sthg.
sigh. noise. well, i've got my discman to block out unpleasant sounds.
yea. i stayed awake. all the way. completed reading my book. like finally. gosh.

now i am like a zombie.
just now went around with sis. went to pay respects to daddy.
after that decided to go grandma's house. uncle fetched us around and on the car i was practically dozing off within seconds.
sis was talking to uncle about her experience there and yea. i have no comments.
so i stone.
and i start to doze off.
the thing about not sleeping the whole night. you feel like sleeping anytime in the day after that.

was at grandma's house and i just sat at the sofa. one seater. and i sat and slept.
really fell asleep in the living room.
slept for around an hour or so. gosh. so tired.

now much better. cos i just took a bath.
hopefully that'll help me survive tuition.

plans made for tonight.
dinner with sis.

well. nice adventure at the airport.
seriously not all the places are 24 hours. hardly any that i see around that was open when we were there. and cos i was reading i didnt quite bother to walk around to explore much.
took some crazy pics of our campsite. which is the burger king at terminal 2. haha.

the me now is almost not in the mood for anything. :)

still i can only say i am glad sis is back. although her luggage isnt. crap. something cropped up. i seriously hope the airport can get the luggage back. cos my gifts are there. haha. ok i am bad. but well. her property is there! need to get them back still. screwed up airline.

now, i am like kind of feeling bad bad bad.
having a bad cough. wonder what hap.
at times the throat feels irritated and i'll cough non-stop. tb? choy. haha. i dont cough blood.
just i hate the feeling. sigh sigh sigh.
strepsils isnt working as yet. and yea. i thinking of getting pi pa gao. but. sigh. walking all the way to ghim moh to get them isnt the thing i feel like doing now. shag. sick.

bleh.

see the pics below.

the book that i read. it kept me awake ok...

examples of the things i lug from work to the airport.

the things that we laid out on the table. snacks. bleh. a rather empty campsite. cos i finished the sweets.

the very empty bk at about 4 am in the morn.

my "camp"-mates.

the changi airport mrt station...

carefree

ever thought what it is gonna be like to really be relaxed, carefree?
sigh. i'm hoping for that day to come soon.

this morn woke up early to go for guitar prac.
after half a year not wearing school uniform. i finally put on the rj uniforma today.
cos practice was in new rj campus. haha.
so damn funny. cos i was the only alumni that actually did that.
heck la.
for the fun of it. i cant be bothered le. at least i dont really have to worry that my outfit is a mismatch. a school u is a school u. no one will laugh no matter how hideous it looks.

after that tutored again.
after that rested a while.
went my grandma's place. celebrated mother's day in advance since tmr i'll be working and my mum too.
sigh. tough life maybe.

but well. sis is coming back.
omg. i so cant wait.
tmr i'll be camping at the airport!
since sis is coming back on a super early morning flight.
going down to the airport after work and then staying there overnight until i see sis.
haha. how very cool.
i hope i can take it. and i hope it seriously gonna be fun!

nothing much else. i am trying to enjoy while i can.

crazy bore

crazy and boring day for me today.
nothing much.
thursdays are usually slack.
tutored zc today.
went there at 3 then was asked by the mother if i have any time free before his exam on monday for additional classes.
then i was telling her how crazy my time slots are.
end up. she asked to extend today's class. such that there's 2 sessions in one day.
crazy? you bet. it is.
haha. so i tutored him for 1.5 hours.

given time to break.
so i went to his place at 7 again. tutored him for another 1.5 hours. poor boy man.
but well.
he doesnt seem to have any objection to his mum's plan. why should i?
sigh.

so today i did nothing much. except tutoring. one child.
practised my guitar for a while. hopefully i am ready enough to play nicely with the group.
sigh.

i am becoming increasingly disillusioned. can i have a light to guide my way out?

argh

woke up with a splitting headache this morning. crap.
my head feels so heavy.
and at times can have this stingy feeling at the back of the head. crap.
now it's still a little bad. but much better.

also had a sore throat.
now my throat hurts every time i swallow.
almost didnt have the appetite to eat much.

still went for tuition.
almost felt like puking while teaching. damn it.
really falling sick.
it's a bad bad bad feeling.
feel horrible the whole day.
good thing is one student cancelled tuition. so i get to go back home early.

went down to jp and bought my swimsuit after tutoring.
so spent money again.
stupid mrt so crowded. already feel very sick already still have to pack with people in the mrt.
sigh.

got home and just slept.
hoping the headache will go.
but well. it's still here. it's still bugging me.
just hope i'll be better tmr.
sigh.
first time i really feel sick and weak. terrible.
bleh.

fiesta

tuesday. yet another week. time is passing.

today went out with ps again.
headed for nydc at heeren's.
first time enjoying food from nydc outdoors.
nice experience great food.
look at the pics below. drools.
and cos ps got a coupon from cleo mag, we spent slightly more than half of what the original price would cost us. hehe. good offer.

mushroom madness pizzza that i had. superb! the mushroom smell is omg! totally out of the world.

fresh garden salad. nice. first time i had salad with thousand island dressing.

this is what ps had. destiny's child oven baked pasta. nydc's oven baked are very nice. one of my loves. hehe.

yeap. that's for lunch. totally had a good meal.

then went walking around town. didnt spend much on stuff except for food. :)

after shopping, we went to nydc again. this time at wheelock.

so after today, i can say i have been to all the nydcs in singapore at least once!

this time we had desserts. mudpies and elephanccino. totally sinful treats. but really nice nice.

what we ordered at wheelock's nydc. nice? looks really tempting.

the ice mocha elepanccino. one whole huge jug of mocha. really heavenly. nice man.

but.

sharing is the pleasure of it. cos it's really huge.

the jedi mudster. the ice-cream layers just simply melts in the mouth. wooo. nice. haha. i love that. gonna try more mudpies next time. totally sweet sensation!

yea. that basically sums up my day. ate sooo much.

wanted to jog in the evening.

end up. rained and the ground was wet. tmr i might just force myself down to the track.

after all the sinful indulgence. haha. i've to do sthg. :)

the passing of time

one more week and sis is gonna be back from atlanta. i cant wait. really. i'll have more company.
time passes.
soon,
i'll have more free time.
soon,
i'll be so broke. cos i will stop working. drop one student for tutoring.
soon,
i'll be off to school. trying to knock sense into my disfunctioning brain.
soon,
i'll be gorging myself uncontrollably till i become even fatter.
soon,
things will change. it just takes time to.
blehh. stupid.

today. went for guitar prac in the morning and realised that time really flies. it's about 2 more weeks to concert. sigh. i need to practise hard already. or else i will be so so so so so so dead for concert.

after that had class gathering with jc class. ate at cafe cartel. goodness. i am splurging.
at first they wanted to go watch movies after that. but. the price of the ticket and simply cos we dont really have things we are dying to watch, we decided that we shall not watch movies.
went for coffee instead. coffee bean. my ever favourite. sigh. the growing love for it is making me broke. haha. but well. enjoyed coffee.
i think i talked too much. i felt myself losing my voice when i stepped out of coffee bean. haha.
i was still able to talk and i commented that i was losing my voice.
then joseph was saying i could still talk so i cant say i am going voiceless.
my reply was. to a person who is usually loud, this kind of voice already indicate losing of voice.
then after that went separate ways. the guys wanted to dota. which is like. hmm. the girls most probably wouldnt be interested. so yea. went separate ways.
i went to see what dota is all about. so yea. i stepped into a lan shop for the first time in my life with a bunch of ns guys. haha. ok. the first lan shop we went to was packed like shit. so yea. it was a mess. saw people playing and yea. noisy. no space so we headed for another place.
then, finally found a place. and i finally got a chance to see what dota is about. and i realised. i dont have a flair for that game. haha. good thing. simply cos i dont need another game addiction.
but i am amazed. seriously. the way some of the guys play are damn pro i must say. haha.
taitik was slowly explaining to me how it is played and he even let me try. mr nice guy really. then i was like dying and dying. sry ah. i really very lousy at it. and gordon never let me off easily. that's why i keep dying. sigh. but still. rather fun. the graphics are rather interesting.
just too bad i am hopeless at it.
ok. basically how i rotted time away.

after that tuition. came back sleep. i just woke up from a nap. looks like i'll find it hard to sleep tonight le. haha.