so tuesday

my comp is a going a little bonkers these days.
like owner like computer.
just as i am about to feel like i am going crazy. it is following it's crazy owner.
at times it just totally screws up on me.
well.
not that i can do anything about it.
sry dude. computers arent what i know inside out.

so yesterday night instead of the usual online-ing.
i read a book.
yeaps.
i finished yet another book.
i just went to the library last thursday and got myself 4 books.
now i have already completed 3.
it's a miracle. a personal record.
i havent done something like that for years.
maybe when i was a kid i manage to conquer 4 picture books in a day. haha.
maybe. i cant really remember.

today. woke up and was anticipating going for a swim with ps.
sigh.
damn. the weather is playing tricks on me.
happily changed and walked all the way to ps' place.
then the sky turned darker.
then when i was approaching her block. the wind was blowing like mad.
the next moment was. i felt drops of rain.
then. reached her flat. was telling her it is raining.
then got into her room and sat down.
hoping that it'll just pass.
end up.
splish splash. we even had to close the windows.
aw crap.
there goes our plans.
seriously. this is ultimately crazy and totally spoiler.
aw man. i dying to do sthg. i desperately need to work out a little.
before i totally go crazy about being so unhealthy and fat.
arghhhhhhhhh. damn damn damn. (ok, i say this a lot of time these days.)

end up. since we cant do sports? we watch sports!
cool.
end up being a couch potato.
munching on biscuits and snacks in sight. how shit this is.
watched wimbledon.
tennis. haha. i want to play. i need my buddy to teach me. haha.
i only know a little.
rather nice and sweet show.
interesting way. rather humurous when you can really catch the words.

after that we were like. what can we do?
end up watching disc 1 of identity.
haha.
i borrowed the disc from her.
intend to watch it tmr.
gonna off all the lights and watch it alone in the living room and pray that i dont get totally freaked out.
haha.
the thrill of it.
see? i told you i am going mad.
maybe i have 7 split personalities too. how interesting.
haha.

after that got home. got ready to go all the way to school.
bishan. aw man. 2nd time this week i am travelling through the east-west mrt line to raffles place and changing to the north-south line to bishan.
tmr gonna be the 3rd time but this time to ang mo kio.
can i just dont waste my life on the mrt?

anyway.
concert day today.
finally. the day that we have been working hard for.
everyone put in effort and those seniors although i dont know them really well.
they have been nice people to work with.
patient. funny.
simply nice.
so yea. we practised. had dinner together again. twice this week.
and it's really enjoyable.

and the concert.
i must say i feel happy. it isnt really our concert anymore. cos we are alumni.
and we play a really small role.
but i was really happy.
the juniors played so well.
even i myself hope i can be that good too.
yea. and our alumni performance.
of course we are good. haha.
i felt more confident somehow on stage.
was playing louder than usual.
really. and surprisingly. confidence can do wonders.
haha. i didnt play much wrong notes.
of course not perfect but well. it was so much better.

thanks sarah for the one and only rose. haha.
it's really lovely.
didnt quite expect gifts cos afterall we arent the star of the concert. haha.
:) thanks anyway. it's was really sweet.

now kind of worn out after a whole day.
just wanted to blog about today's stuff before i sleep.
cos i dont feel like i'll online tmr.
haha. lazy me.
yea. and i am off to finish reading my 4th book.
[beams with pride]
haha. i can go library again to borrow soon le.
but i need the time to.
packed for this week again. maybe saturday.

the keys to my heart

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


What Are The Keys To Your Heart?


saw this test thing on my sis' blog. took it for fun.
how true? i wonder.
if true, that makes me kind of despo now?!?! haha. goodness.

not me

ying was commenting how lately i am becoming very not me.
i am beginning to think so too.
how sad.
really.
i hate the me now.

sigh.
useless.
becoming more brainless.
becoming more dumb.
really.
sigh.
and i seriously am whining a lot.
argh. damn it.
even myself is wondering who is the real me.
life really gets complicated when you least want it to.
sigh.

maybe the time that i have now should be spent more on self-reflection.
really need to look into things and get back to my senses.
crushed. bing. bang. biang.
what rubbish did i crash myself into?

sigh. me me me? where are you?
how silly. i am going mad i think. soon. just a matter of time.
can i turn back time?
i want to find back the me.

weekend.

yet another week.
when weekend comes. you realise time passes. yet again.

today. had a busy day.

had guitar prac in the morning.
concert is coming. in a few day's time.
i am rather excited.
these few weeks. have been working with the alumni people.
now a j3. worked with fellow j3 people. some j4s and j5s. indeed we put in effort to practise.
even i myself feel so happy when i make small progress.
hopefully, i will just be ready for concert on tuesday.
monday will be rehearsal and yea. i gonna have to find out what the concert attire is.
as usual. i am blur. so gonna have to check it out asap before i totally dont know what goes on.
looking forward to tuesday.
fruits of labour? i certainly hope so.

after that tuition. normal.
my student didnt do very well. but sigh.
i tried to do what i can.
gonna have to make her do better for end year before her mum gets displeased.

after that chiong down to ang mo kio.
tutored again.
prepared her for maths exam.
i pray hard that she does well.
seriously i am worried too.
i want her to do well.
cos that would mean i have taught well too.
maths. i usually have to teach her till i almost vomit blood.
please man. i gonna get pass this hurdle.

after that cab now to zx's place.
super nice condo that he's got.
sigh. i want to be rich too.
anyway. had a gathering with class people.
fun. yea. ate nice food. supposed to be potluck but i didnt contribute anything.
haha. i contributed my stomach. haha. cos came straight from tuition mah.
not my fault ok. i also want to cook.
so long since i ever went near the stove. haha.
my laziness forever gets better of me.
then some of the girls went to the poolside and chat.
really cool.
wonder what's the next time we'll have chances to do so already.
those going overseas will set off in months' time.
gonna have to start making plans for myself.
haha.
i am thinking of saving up loads of money.
then i'll go visit those who are studying overseas.
london, new york.
i want to go and cram with them in the hostel and spend some time there shopping with the girls.
gonna seem fun.
but well. have to set my budget plan soon. or else i wont be able to do that.
yea. then took a group photo.

taitik's gonna set off for hk soon. all the best! mr nice guy. our class must really plan to meet up.
one fine day.
the six a people will meet.
at some part of this whole wide world.
at some point in time.

my dream. i want to make it big.
really. earn big bucks.
haha. who doesnt.
i want to earn a lot.
then i'll pay for everyone's air tix. just to make it a good gathering.
what's money if it cant buy me the joy.
i want to earn a lot.
to pay back those people who has given in my life so much things without having me to ask for.
those who loved me and those i loved.
i dont mind being a workaholic for the next 10 years in my life.
if it means i can earn a lot by working hell out. i will.
for the joy. i will.
yeaps.
may my dream come true.

wishes. do they come true if you wish hard enough?

aw crap

cant really think of what to say.
dont really have much stuff going on today.
sigh. boring life. kind of usual that i cant find things to say.

well. worked today.
a fellow colleague was commenting that i look as if i am kind of scared of my mum.
haha. i work with my mum that is.
and his comments really made me very stumped.
haha. i have never seen it that way. i never realised that i appeared like that.
how interesting. i was wondering. do i really look like i am that scared?
haha. that would be how funny.
no doubt i listen to my mum. i try to do things that wont cause her to be displeased.
but i am definitely not scared in a sense la.
goodness. she's my mum.
and i've got my fair share of attitude.
like just moments ago. i screamed at her for nagging like mad right in the middle of the night.
complaining about housework and how i am such a lazy bum and not helping much.
i was like. ya. go on. go on. stop nagging on such silly things everyday.
i hate it when she goes on and on. although what she says may be true.

seriously. i am damn lazy. i raise both hands to agree on what she says.
i really think i am. that's why i study so hard. haha. so that i can earn big bucks.
gonna hire maids. gonna hire chauffeurs.
sigh. hopeless? maybe. i think i am.

anyway. i successfully completed another book today. haha.
one book a day. how nice.
aw damn. i am such a mugger. haha.
bookworm zhien. zhien bookworm. lalala.
really. sit down and read and i find myself indulging in the story plot.
well. tmr most prob wont have the chance to slowly enjoy and finish another book.

packed fully for tmr. sigh. weekends should be used to play yet mine is packed until i can hardly find breathing space.
super duper busy zhien gonna get to work tmr!
let's have a rough idea of my schedule. let me rant a little here.
guitar prac in the morning. gonna have to wake up early. prac till 12 plus. concert in few days' time! gonna ganbatte!
after that rush home to tutor for 2 hours from 2 to 4.
after that head for ang mo kio to tutor for 2 hours from 5 to 7. time in between 4 and 5 used for travelling. sigh. gonna sleep on train and indulge in songs. hehe.
after that most prob either cab down to zx's place or take my own sweet time. haha. class gathering. i gonna be super late. they start playing. i start tutoring so how late can i be? count.

haha. but well. zhien here is all set to make my saturday as fulfilling as i can!

purple-licious

haha. wonder why but i am falling in love with purple.
light purple.
haha. becoming gay? i certainly dont hope so.
haha. but yea. i am beginning to think that light purple stuff can be rather nice looking.
today was out shopping with ps and i was practically screaming at any nice looking things that's light purple in colour.
sorry girl for having to put up with my crazy antics.
yes. and so now i am so in love with a light purple bag that we saw at one nike store.
so in love with light purple shoes. wanting to get sthg from converse. sneakers. but sigh. they dont have it.

today was rather great. went to bugis.
walked around and didnt get stuff.
took neoprint too. haha. 2 turning 19 girls acting cute. lol.
i spent practically on food that's all.

look at those pics.
haha. we had lunch at pasta mania.

this is some free notebook that they gave when we bought our lunch from there. cute!

mushroom soup. comes with combo a that ps got. nice.

garlic bread. came with my combo c. haha. was telling ps there's room for improvement for their garlic bread. haha.

carbonara. what ps had. i tried it too. haha. greedy me. i pick food from her. rather nice. but it's better to share it. cos can get sick of the creamy taste after a while according to ps.

country baked pasta. haha. i had it with fusilli. and i concluded that i prefer baked pasta at nydc. haha. goodness i splurge crazily on food.

bleh. we also had banana dessert pizza too. nice nice nice. first time i tried it. really cool.

but sigh. now then i remember that i didnt take a pic.

so it's now in our stomachs. no pics for that nice droolicious food.

we went into this super interesting shoe shop at parco also. haha. very fun.

at the counter there's a poem that goes...

"Blue skies and puffy clouds,

Cooing birds in lucious grass.

Sighing wind in wavy palms,

Luna o'er a twilight beach.

Slip into a happy dream,

A skip, a step and a smile away."

and their shopping bag goes "i got carried away"

cool.

then after that went back. took bus. and ps got off first for work.

i went library. haha. silly blockhead bookworm me.

haha. borrowed 4 books.

and just finished one during the time i got home and before i online.

3 more to go to last me for the next few days.

saw so many novels that i want to borrow. but well. max is 4. so i have to learn to be content.

beams.

today is good. :)

mess

life's in a mess.

totally thinking what the hell is wrong with me these days.
really. life's in a mess i really wonder.
although nothing much is going on.
but it's way too aimless.
sorry. i need some goal to head for. even if it means schooling.
really.
i must say i am some successful product of this whole singapore's education system.
i am made a blockhead.
seriously. there isnt much that i know of except studying.
what the hell is wrong. me?
maybe. aw damn it.

today started off fine. laze around and ya woke up.
in some weird manner, i set my alarm to give myself around 8 hours of sleep these days.
and yet, i would wake up like before my alarm rings.
how wonderful.
i'm all ready for school? crazy.

slacked around and helped sis unpack cos her luggage is found and delivered it to our doorstep.
then got ready for tuition.
then it's just another wednesday.

got home. slacked around again.
finally got down to jogging after missing it for last week and also yesterday.
sigh. useless man. argh.

just finished packing up my study area. it's still kind of messy but it's much better.
mess? yes. everything is in a mess.

freaks.
argh. i am beginning to get easily pissed off at things.
mood swings coming back.
bleh.