crashing

system crashing soon.
all thanks to the sian virus.

today was simple.
morning was bible study.
after that did some grocery shopping.
and somehow i just simply dont have a the mood to eat though i know i'm hungry.
yesterday dinner also cant really think of what i feel like eating.
gloria was making pasta when i reached her place.
saw that i didnt buy myself dinner and made more for me.
thanks to her or else i would most probably go hungry.
today's lunch also didnt join the people for lunch.
went around taka also couldnt figure out what i would want to eat.
so went back home.

came back and just threw myself onto the bed and slept.
i think sleeping is definitely a good way of suppressing the sian virus.
initially set the alarm to ring in 2 hour's time.
i woke up and decided to reward myself with one more hour of sleep.

sometimes i hate waking up.
cos the sian-ness comes in again.
i think maybe i'm just purely bored.
i feel like not doing anything.
yet i feel bored not doing anything.
and there are things to do.
just that the interest isnt there to get them done.

i'm even more sian about tomorrow.
to have to go all the way back to hall.
for a meeting which i foresee i do not really have much to contribute.
and there's gonna be shit i guess.
since i'll have to have another meeting with my boss before the meeting.
sigh. seriously cant wait for the whole term to end.
then i can really wash my hands off this meaningless commitment.
sometimes i hate the heaviness of responsibility.

argh.
sometimes the system goes on a bling ya?
the complexities of a simple yet not-so-good-equals-bad day.

on a side-note.
i feel like playing with sparklers.
ok this sounds damn off.

sian-sationalism

past two mornings have been spent meaningfully.
spending early morning reading parts of the bible and letting God speak to me through His words.
and then the late morning spent doing group bible study.

had prayer walk at ntu yesterday also.
which was another different yet refreshing experience.
it dawned on me that when i'm out of hall i'm gonna feel so lazy travelling back and forth.
haha. hall has made me one lazy bum that just relies so much on convenience.
hmm. seriously have to consider how i'm going to handle the hall stuff for the coming year.

today couldnt join the group at settler's cafe for an afternoon of fun and games after bible study.
cos i had to tutor.
only to be welcomed by rather poor results.
hmmm. another headache.
that i'll have to really try to handle.
really have to find some way to make her do better.
sigh. i wonder if it's just that i am a poor tutor.

after that had some time before cell group.
somehow the sian feeling just struck me while i was walking around town.
got off at orchard instead since i had enough time to walk around.
and was totally not in the mood to look around.

still took some pictures when i was walking around for close to half an hour.


taka talking hall is having an op fair.
which have quite some good deals i think.
i didnt really take time to look closely at the thing.
just wasnt in the right mood.
not in the shopping mood definitely.


and i also realised that m industries had one outlet at orchard emerald.
taking over the place that hang ten initially was.
one more m industries outlet.
i guess it's getting more popular.
hmm. but will the trend last?
imitations are coming in i think.
haha.

i think i had too much of something in my mind.
really dont like that sickening feeling.
yet it's just not that easy to let it out of the system.
i wished crying helps.
it's horrid.
still. i'm turning to God to help me through this.
i want to walk the way that would please Him.
so i'll just do what i can to listen and follow and obey.
the sickening feeling will persist for some time.
but i know that i'll be able to get out of that soon enough.


and while i set down at somewhere near somerset mrt for close to 20 mins.
i took out the little sketch book that i bought and just wanted to draw something to pass time.
but the lack of talent in art.
and the lack of inspiration to draw.
and plus the invasion of the sian virus.
i came up with a super ugly drawing of my name.
crap. i ruined my name.
wished i had colour pencils with me.
at least i could make them more colourful and cheery and brighten up my mood a little.

thank God that during cell group the sickening feeling was dispelled.
totally got out of the picture.
God has really helped me to cast out distractions and just focus on Him.
so often i really need that.

got back home now.
and i think the sian virus is striking again.
argh stupid crap.

shall try to just cast it out by occupying myself with things for the time-being.
there'll be a time when i'm ready to fight it.
well.
tv time.
then i shall go to sleep.
maybe the sleep virus can fight the sian virus.

a sian zhien simply cant bring herself to talk more crap here.
out of here.

start of the week

woke up late today.
sigh.
need to really get some discipline to wake up early.
bleh.

met chiew lin to go shop around.
had lunch at pastamania.
eeks.
i crave for really nice pasta.

after that we went shopping around.
and splurged on quite a bit of things.
haha.
but it was a very happy shopping experience.
we went mindustries then went giordano then went bossini then went esprit.
even went fox. then went seiyu to shop around.
i ended up going back to mindustries and then bossini to buy 2 tops.
hehe.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
shopping spree.

here's what i got.

finally got sthg that isnt black.
i realised i've got so much black tops.
haha.
so this time i got a green top and a white top!
maybe i should get orange ones too.
when i see nice ones.
haha.

after that went sim lim.
and yes ended up getting super confused.
man. i'm still an it idiot afterall.
and there was this major dumb thing that happened.
i think i shall boycott that store next time.
long story which i find difficult to explain what happened.
sigh.

bought this popcorn chicken at bugis village.

which was super spicy in my opinion.
should have told the person not to add the chilli powder.
bleh.

after that we continued to shop around bugis junction.
and saw this really cute baby pooh placemat.
but decided not to buy it in the end.
cos it was cute but of no use.
haha.

went back to shop around bugis village cos i wanted to try on this clothing which i liked.
but end up. it was expensive.
so decided not to get it too.
super not worth the money.

after that we decided to walk down to raffles city.
then end up dropping by the national library to take a look.
and yea.
it was a damn funny trip to my playground.
haha.
it seriously looks damn nice.
but the two of us acted like tourist in it lor.
super hilarious.

shall let the pictures do the talking.


the national library!


the courtyard at level 5 of the national library.
allows people to read in a close to nature surrounding.
read about this in the papers when the library first opened i think.
interesting place.


the toilet at the new national library.
looks super clean and neat!
haha.


and the new national library has a drama centre.
how cool!


i found it funny that they had an imagination room and a possibility room.
what a name.
haha.
they are not open to free access.


and an appeal to muggers!
the study lounge!
haha.
open from 9 am to 9 pm daily!


one cool thing is snacks and drinks vending machines are available!
haha.
so you can eat and drink in this corner of the library i suppose.


peeping through to take a look at the study lounge!


taking a look inside the study lounge.


more things for muggers!
the reference section.


sir stamford raffles!
haha. can find this in the books to byte section at level 5.


i've only got one comment.
this fellow is damn rich.
my school's main lecture theatre is named after him.
and then smu got dont know what named after him too.
haha.
super duper rich.
haha.


this picture shows a facing brick from the national library at stamford road.
cute right?


me and chiewlin!
the biggest one is taken in the lift.
and the below shows how fascinated we were playing with the things there.

so we had loads of fun at my playground?
see i said the library was my playground.
haha.

after that went for desserts at raffles city food court.
and then went back home!

that kind of summed up my day.

and before i end off.
two other things that are quite interesting.


this water thing outside seiyu.
haha.
and...


and this one at raffles city!
haha.

so it was simple yet fun day.
haha.
chiewlin is fun to shop with!
hehe.


and yea mum was really nice to get me a pair of shoes!
now i've got one more pair of shoes at home.
so much more convenient.
dont have to borrow from sis hers.

happy mother's day

happy mother's day!

took this with mum on our way to breakfast this morning.

took another one with her again over at grandma's place later in the day.

this sunday started off with an early breakfast.
thank God that mum was ok with compromising to have breakfast earlier so that i can go to church on time.


had this prawn dumplings noodles.
which didnt really taste very fantastic.
but still at least it was a breakfast together as a family.
which is more important i guess.

although some parts of the conversation sparked off some unhappy stuff.
and i didnt have the chance to ask mum if she wants to go for today's service with me.
today's service had a little something special since it was mother's day.
the children put up a small performance which was really sweet.
was thinking that it would be really nice if mum could come along.

got back home after lunch.
and got ready to go up to grandma's place.

a kind of stupid argument which i didnt handle well sort of made things bad.
but well. i guess family members tend not to bear grudges and so after that things cooled down.

anyway over at grandma place there was major photo-taking.
with hanfeng showing off his new ixus60.
man. i also want to do sthg to make my digicam better.
the battery can drive me crazy at times.
haha.
i ended up dozing off there after some time until sis woke me up when we were about to get back home.
haha. i was that tired.

anyway. shall let the photos do the talking.
they are more interesting i guess.


this is my cousin eunice.
she's a cute little thing.
but can be really tiring to play with her.
i got so shagged out.


eunice with yijing, another cousin of mine.
and i thought this pic was nice cos eunice was smiling so naturally.
somehow eunice just loves sticking to yijing to take photos.
haha.


a baby cousin of mine.
he was wearing a t-shirt with pooh bear on it.
how cute!


yeap. the baby cousin again!


a photo i took with eunice.

side-tracking.
random photos shall appear from now.
haha.
yes. zhien loves randomly switching channel.
haha. schizophrenic me.


i thought this would fanscinate linda quite a bit.
the new hello panda with chocolate filling!
xiao xiong bing gan!


new sports printing on the biscuits!
so cute so cute!


and mum was nice to let me pick 2 packets of teddy biscuits when we were shopping around the minimart near grandma's place.
yay.
teddy biscuits is nice.
linda! this is then the real xiao xiong bing gan!


and to end off this entry.
i tried this banana milkshake that macs introduce.
and my verdict is.
it isnt nice.
maybe cos i dont know how to appreciate it.
but it's really too sweet for my liking.
considering that i'm someone with a sweet-tooth.
i think it was really really very very sweet.
hmmm.
not thick enough too also. maybe that's the machine problem.
but still.
i would say i should have spent my money on a nicer flavour like chocolate.

yeap.
out of here.
happy mother's day again.
hehe.
i hope everyone had an enjoyable day with their mums!

blessed child

got my saturday tuition changed to 11 am in the morning now instead of the usual 2 pm.
and so i was able to go down to church office for the saturday service.

the little girl came looking sleepy.
and was commenting about how much she would want to sleep.
and of course there was the usual whining and crying.
i hope she gets used to the 11 am tuition gradually.

saturday service was simple.
at least i think the message was more straightforward and easier to understand.
yes at times i can be quite some retard.
taking some time to process God's message.

slowly trying to find my way.
and let God show me where He would want me to head.
so that i can follow His will.
move on, walk with Him and grow in Him.
i believe He has something planned out for me to do.
and when the time comes He would have prepared me for it.

after service had a slightly early dinner with gloria.
had a good talk with her.
she has been a really wonderful sister, who constantly encourages me.
thank God for her.
and also for the many people God has placed around me.

zhien is a blessed child. :)
a simple entry and i shall just end of here.

indulgence

went out today with the cell group for a lunch gathering.
and it was a day of indulgence.


lunch was at marche at suntec city.
and we got so much.
what is seen in this picture is just less than half of what all of us had together.
haha.
but because we shared the food.
each of us paid only close to 20 bucks.
and it was a lot of food.
really a sumptuous lunch.

went walking around suntec city simply cos we were so full.
went to life bookshop to take a look around.
everyone was in a "play" mode.
so ended up going "horse-riding" on the igallop and tried on massage chairs at osim.
which was super funny.
gloria was saying how the salesperson thought we were one of those group from the superband.
cos spencer had his guitar with him.
how silly.
then went shopping around.
before deciding to have ice-cream at ben&jerry's.


the b&j outlet at suntec!


jj, gloria and i shared this mix 'n' match sundae.
i chose chocolate chip cookie dough. hehe.
jj picked strawberry cheesecake. which is really nice too.
and gloria decided to get dublin mudslide.
lovely combination.
and we took loads of photos.
not with my camera though.


one of the shots i had in my camera.
haha.
me and the b&j ice-cream!


and i saw this at the back of the b&j paper napkin.
which i find rather interesting!
100% bleach-free.
hehe.


and jj presented me with a gift.
she was saying that she was shopping and chanced upon that.
and got it for me.
how sweet.
hehe.
very cute.
but i concluded that guys dont appreciate such things.
cos when i was showing the rest they gave the diao look.
haha.
btw. this thing can be used to contain quite some stuff.
hehe.
useful useful lor. not just look nice only.

after that went to prayer meeting for the first time.
received much from God.
a really really lovely blessing.
and i believe that He'll guide me through this walk.
with faith. i'll grow.
and of course i think there's still a lot that i have to hear from Him.
faith will keep me strong.
and i'll keep my faith strong.
:)

living ABoVE

just got back from my church camp.
it's been a really wonderful experience.
more importantly, i think i've learnt. and in a fun way too.

one thought that came across my mind on the first night before i slept was that.
life can be fulfilling despite the fact that there wasnt tv to watch.
there wasnt internet for me to blog and read blogs and just randomly surf around.
there wasnt bed to sleep on. i just had my sleeping bag with me.
but still i slept well.
and i think i've accomplished much more than i stay at home and do nothing.
a really refreshing experience.

and i realised that there can be really great satisfaction when you've grown.
growth in maturity in a Christian walk that is.
it's just simple joy when someone tells you "ni zhang da le".
i just pray i'll continue to grow even more.
cos it's by God's grace that i am here today.
it's a walk. that might just be very long.
and there will always be things along the way to be obstacles.
still. i guess it's gonna be a real test of perseverance and determination.
and there's a lot of commitment to make.
so there's gonna have to be that effort there somehow to move on.
and the satisfaction is just another form of motivation and encouragement for me to strive on.
:)

and one really fun experience will have to be the hike to the tree top trail at mac ritchie.
i can only say it's a really really nice place.
with beautiful scenery.
super fresh air.
they dont open that early though. or else i would think it's a really nice place to watch the sunrise. neither do they close late. so you wouldnt get to watch the sunset.
still. it was a really fun hike up.
occasionally running up the slope just to challenge our physical fitness.


top left is the sign which we saw from where we enter. shows the opening and closing hours. but cant really be seen clearly though since the pic is too small.
top right is the map that shows the way to the tree top trail.
bottom left is a picture of the trees at the sides below from the tree top trail.
bottom right is the tree top trail. the bridge that we walk across. it's a one way bridge.


a few of us taking a photo at the ranger station.
a stop-over point for water break and toilet break before proceeding further up to the tree top trail.
i think i was perspiring like mad.
had to take the pic without my specs cos it was fogging up.
how funny.


the whole group of us minus one (had to help us take the photo).
this was taken at the tree top trail - on the bridge you see at the bottom right of the first picture.


and of course.
me on the tree top trail.
yes i think i look kind of funny. but it's the only photo i took of myself there.
:)

yeap.
so the conclusion is that.
the camp was very fun.
haha.

on a side note.
we passed by this icekimo icecream cafe on the way to mac ritchie.
and the icekimo pic looks so cute.
i wonder if the ice-cream's good.
haha.
should go try some time!
hehe.

now work's piling up.
and of cos there's a lot of things that would require my time to go settle them properly.
so i would really need to plan my time well.
and get things done properly.
and of cos not to compromise spending time with God.
:)