democracy

i am never fond of politics.
honestly.

yet.
it just seems part and parcel of my life.
that i face somewhat appears to be a democracy.
the key thing is. appears to be.

this democracy gives me a choice.
yet. it doesnt exactly entitles me to make the decision i want.
it's saddening.
i'm sick and tired of arguing my way out.
cos there dont seem to be a point in it.

what i totally dont feel like doing.
i'm made to do it.
i was told.
search my conscience.
what is the issue with that anyway.
try making sense when you seriously dont.
to choose to do what i want to.
i'm deemed wrong.

what kind of democracy is this?
i wonder.
is this the way things ought to work?
isnt it supposed to be a fair say thing?
i dont think my choice holds weightage.
probably in the case it was a 3 votes against my 1.
maybe that's how the democracy works.

but in the first place.
is democracy the way things should work out?
politics shouldnt be holding it's place here.
at least i think it shouldnt be.

sigh.

yet another crappy post.
shall post something lighter on cny when i'm done compiling all the pictures.
zhien voted out.

my valentine's day 2007

can't really remember the exact time.
but here's how the day went along.

12.00 midnight - 1.00 am
last minute touch-up to the presents for linda and chiewlin.
then wanted to just go knocking on their room's door to pass the present.
end up linda wasn't in the room.
so i left the gift in the cabinet just outside the room.
end up being a 'surprise' (stealthy ^.^)
then only put chiewlin's one on the table when linda was back in the room.
i guess it probably is a 'surprise' for chiewlin in the morning.
well. unless she's really that sleepy.
hehe.

1.00 am - 2.00 am
realised only that it was SUPER late at around slightly after 1 am.
went trying to look for linda in her room.
but she was not around.
hmmm. hehe. where else can she be?
(cheeky grin)
messaged her to ask her if she still wanna do laundry.
went down to settle it only at 1.30 am.

2.00 am - 3.00 am
waited for the laundry to be done.
went knocking on linda's door when it was about 2.30 am.
i think i interrupted their time together quite a fair bit in this odd hour in the night.
hehe.
after that collected laundry.

3.00 am - 8.00 am
tired me went zzz-ing.
woke up at close to 8 am.

8.00 am - 9.00 am
washed up.
did my devotion.
only left the room slightly before 9.

9.00 am - 11.30 am
met beelian at the bus-stop.
got breakfast at canteen a.
then walked back to hall again with her.
had a wonderful time sharing with her.
managed to identify some issues through our conversation.
definitely areas where i'll need God's strength.
to be bold in speaking up about them.
and to allow Him to use me to be the light.

11.30 am - 12.00 noon
walked with beelian to the bus-stop.
then walked to quad to look for christine.
got some stuff from her.
went down to the wsc room to pick up one stalk of rose.
a v day gift from the president and vice president to the girls in the committee.
haha.
quite awkward though to have to go and collect the roses on our own.
haha.

12.00 noon - 2.00 pm
spent time in the room preparing for the presentation.
had lunch. :)

2.00 pm - 6.00 pm
class.
it was presentation day.
was well-fed with chocolates.
contribution by our tutor.

6.00 pm - 7.30 pm
dinner with the cell group at canteen a.
the guys were hilarious.
the drinks stall auntie was telling us about some free-for-all roses.
when a few of us went buying drinks.
probably what's left from those canvassing sales.
should see the reaction the 3 guys had.
so funny.
and they went to take quite some stalks.
went to the tables where the rest were.
presented the roses to edwin.
stirred up quite a commotion.
the roses were then given to the girls.
haha.

7.30 pm - 10.00 pm
cell group.
worship was amazing!
and it was a good time of sharing.
and the whole secret valentine idea was fun.
haha.
mystery givers.
which everyone randomly claimed to be.
haha.
i got something from binghan.
hehe. thanks bro.
i've got takashimaya shopping voucher!
hehe.

10.00 pm - 11.59 pm
came back to hall.
chiewlin and her friends were having steamboat.
didn't join them in eating.
but i just loithered around.
since i don't quite know how to get started on my proposal.
hehe.

basically.
that's the rough timeline of how my day was.
who said valentine's day is extra special?
hehe.
i had fun in a different way. :)
it's a blessing to have great friends around.
more importantly. it's great to have God as my best valentine ever!

just some pictures before really closing this entry.


present from chiewlin!
hehe.
it was nice lor.
chocolate coated cereal.
with strawberry!
hehe.
what indulgence.


present from linda!
a keychain torch.
hehe.
so cute.
i am still thinking what to use it with though.


my other v day gifts.
green apple. :)
rose from my 2 bosses.
the takashimaya gift voucher!

hehe. i'm pampered.
well. that sums up my 24 hours.

in the mood for love

with valentine's day approaching.
i see msn nicknames such as "who will be my valentine", "i didnt have a new year, nor a bday neither going to have a vday & u want me to help u do ur vday?".
haha. quite interestingly funny.
the one that really caught my attention was this "i am just a girl standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her."
it's a line in the movie notting hill.
curious, or rather, kaypoh. haha.
i went to ask the person what's with putting the quote.
and the reply i got was that since valentine's day is approaching, some mushy quote must be put on the msn nick. haha.

and so.
purely out of fun. and boredom.
well not that i've got nothing better to do.
it's just lazy me not really wanting to get my assignment done. hehe.

i went google searching for movie quotes. and here are some of the interesting results.

"if you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. otherwise the moment just... passes you by..."

- my best friend's wedding

"tell her that you love her. you've got nothing to lose, and you'll always regret it if you don't."

- love actually

"love means never having to say you're sorry."

- love story

"i love you without knowing how, why, or even from where."

- patch adams

"when they ask me what i liked best, i'll tell them it was you."

- city of angels

"let your heart guide you. it whispers so listen carefully."

- the land before time

"how come we don't always know when love begins, but we always know when it ends?"

- l.a. story

"sometimes i wish i had never met you. because then i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there."

- good will hunting

"i love you so much it hurts."

- fools rush in

"i may not be a smart man, but i know what love is."

- forrest gump

"only in the mysterious equations of love can any real logic be found."

- a beautiful mind

and these are what tops the list for being really MUSHY ones.
haha. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

"i will love you my whole life. you and no other."

- braveheart

"i kneel before you not as a prince, but as a man in love."

- ever after: a cinderella story

"take love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever... and you still have only a glimpse of how i feel for you."

- meet joe black

and the one that's the longest among those i saw.

"i hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. i hate the way you drive my car. i hate it when you stare. i hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. i hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. i hate it, i hate the way you're always right. i hate it when you lie. i hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. i hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. but mostly i hate the way i don't hate you. not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

- ten things i hate about you

so concludes my search.
haha.
just a comment.
girls. if you hear anything some what familiar to what you see here.
it's probably an adaptation from a movie. haha.

well. what's your mood for this valentine's day?

why see love in the way most people do?
why view it in the setting prescribed by movies?

try seeing it from the way God sees it.
read it from His Word and see how great His love is.

"love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

love never fails. but where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. for we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. when i was a child, i talked like a child, i thought like a child, i reasoned like a child. when i became a man, i put childish ways behind me. now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. now i know in part; then i shall know fully, even as i am fully known.

and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. but the greatest of these is love."

- 1 corinthians 13:4-13

i've got the greatest gift of love to spend this valentine's day with.
what about you?

2007 week 6

havent been updating for quite some time.
it was a busy week for me.

started off rather chaotic.
i forgot to take my hall key when i travelled back to hall on sunday.
only realised it when i was on the bus to hall.
thank God that i realised it while i was on the bus.
and since it was a loop service.
i took it all the way back to boon lay terminal.
and thankfully sis was nice to come down to pass me the key at the mrt.
imran even gave me a ride back to hall after that.
:)


and weirdly.
the network cable in hall gave me quite a fair bit of problems this week.
although the network cable is plugged in.
it'll show me a prompt to say that the network cable is unplugged.


spring cleaned the wsc room on monday before the meeting.
and managed to get some freebies.
haha.
it was quite some clearance.
and we packed the whole area near the dustbin.
as can been seen in the picture.
haha.
quite scary.
but at least the room looks way much neater now.

quite a week.
not exactly super smooth flowing.
but still. there're definitely blessings.

still there are things that fascinated me.


i saw a bird flew into one of those gaps.
probably into its nest.
haha.
amazingly a bird can identify which one of this structure to fly into.
there're like at least 8 of such things in ntu!
haha.
hmmm. i wonder how a bird knows where to fly home to.


one of the hall event's publicity.
very interesting.
i kept playing with it each time i take the lift.
hehe. the bus can move along the string.
which is so cute.
hehe.

how silly. sometimes i can be fascinated by the smallest thing.
haha.

some of the sweet things that i've got.


ck gave this to greedy me.
haha. it was something free that came with some chocolates that he bought for the committee from his ia trip to australia.
and well. in a sense i asked for the chocolates.
and it was given to me!
haha.
a very interesting treat! some nice flavours.
hehe.


and got this today from uncle mark.
it was oddly wrapped.
but it was a nice gesture still.
made some effort to gift wrap the stuff himself.
hehe.
and i got a white winter pooh.
with a removable cape.
hehe. so cute. it's white.
and there was also a leaf.
flew all the way from canada.
according to him. the leaf was plucked from one of the trees in his campus.
and it travelled with him from canada to the parts of usa he went before coming back to singapore.
haha.
how cool. i've got a leaf from canada though i've never been there!
i'm blessed with friends who are ready to bless. hehe.

indeed i'm one blessed girl.
yet at times i worry people when i appear unhappy.
sorry if the way i appear to be at times affect those around me.
but i'm really ok. :)
thank you.

random thoughts

another entry.

i'm just taking a break after doing my tutorials.
i havent been very efficient.
got to pull up my socks and quickly finish up what i need to do.

a little bit about the long weekend back at home.


finally got down to ghim moh for lunch again after so long.
and i ate at jiu jiang.
as usual the queue is LONG.
haha.


saturday afternoon was spent out at safra yishun.
the cell group went rock-climbing.
though it was drizzling.
we went ahead with climbing in the drizzle.
was quite an experience.
realised how unfit i am now.
the last time i did rock-climbing was the special pe module back in j1.
and i totally was lousy at it.
haha.
quite a challenge.
probably will have to do something to make myself fitter.
now my upper arm is still aching from the climb.
goodness.


during the climb. i slipped off quite a few times.
and got a small cut on my finger during one of those slips.
eeks.
quite some skin came off.
yes. sounds gross.
haha. the funny bit about it was that went i went to the toilet to wash the wound and put the plaster on after the climb.
my muscles were so worked out that my hands were trembling as i put the plaster on.
lol.


teeseng came over to ntu today.
super slacker. this probably applies to any ns man who's going to ord soon.
and he passed me the stuff that he got way back when he went taiwan last year.
haha.
too bad he forgot to bring when the class had an outing earlier this year.
so he came by today.
had intended to let him get a hang of ntu canteen food before he comes in the coming academic year.
but he actually ate in camp because they had this special burger set today which he commented was super nice to eat.
hmm. weird.
well.
got a 2007 organiser (yes it's about a month late!)
and a diary.
stuff from taiwan are really cute!
hehe.
thank you buddy!

i've got some things to say.
and i'm still figuring out how to go about saying it.
argh.
sometimes it's just so hard to get what you want to say out of your mouth.
bleh.
waiting for the time to.
and thinking about how to.

well. quite random.
a whole bunch of some things here and there.

v = f λ

came up with this crappy title for this entry.
since my frequency of blogging has dropped quite a bit.
does it indicate some increase in the wavelength assuming the velocity hasnt changed?
hmm. that doesnt quite make much sense.
i'm just proving that i was once a science student!
haha.

i'm taking a break from doing my ac213 tutorial.
just finished the questions and there's yet another set of readings to do.
who said university is slack?
well. since it's a self-declared break time for now.
shall just blog about whatever comes to mind.

last sunday was the first time i helped out at the children church.
it was quite an experience.
initially during the preparations, there were slight hiccups here and there.
but thank God that everything still turn out right.
and i think the whole team enjoyed our first time working together.
i did.

one of the most rewarding thing during my first experience.
the morning started off with praise and worship.
and initially all the children were just so hyperactive.
i was standing near this bunch of little boys during that time.
and i simply didnt know how to stop them from running about so much.
yet when the worship song was sang.
the boys finally quietended down.
then. this boy. i dont know how to spell his name.
but i can pronounce his name k? (i've got more to learn when it comes to knowing this little children)
he just called to me and said.
"teacher, teacher. can you please pray for me? for my studies?"
i was stunned for a moment.
i thought he would approach someone he was more familiar with.
it was a simple innocent request.
sometimes it's just these little things that really bring smiles.
and of course. i prayed for him. :)

after that there was the teaching.
acted in the skit with some of the other children church teachers.
and had to act as an AUNTIE.
gosh.
the only thing i ever am worried about when i act is the laughing bit.
i can laugh quite uncontrollably.
but everything went out just fine!
the brothers had fun acting as 8 year old kids.
and the sisters had fun acting as aunties.
helped out with the cartoon bible story after that.
then there were games and questions to review the lesson with them.
i enjoyed myself.
there's a lot more to learn definitely.
and there's definitely many ways God can use me to teach these little children and i how to walk this journey with Him.

definitely a great sunday morning.
i loved my SUNDAY.

monday and tuesday didnt seem as interesting though.

i've been doing my part being a good student.
struggling to keep my eyes open while reading the materials for school.
and doing those tutorials.

i spent 2 consecutive nights eating dinner alone in my room.
eeks. linda went jp on monday night and chiewlin had some meeting.
but thanks to linda who got me dinner back from jp.
then tonight. it's the 23rd so oh well linda will be out with his-name-shall-not-be-mentioned and chiewlin is out watching the interhall games opening ceremony.

blocked nose.
and this sore throat.
i've been eating really slowly these few days simply because it's so hard to swallow the food down.
gosh.
i wonder how much worse it can get.

and of course.
my two days arent that miserable.
i still think it's a good start to the week.
all the schoolwork are just part and parcel of varsity life anyway.
i loved my monday.
with that 4 hour break to slack around.
it was a great monday.
i loved my tuesday.
though it was a chunk of 8 hour class only with an hour's break.
i even nodded off during the last class.
but still it was a good tuesday.

well that's about it for my updates.
and just another piece of nonsense before i end this entry.


university is super competitive.
look at the discussion board when the tutor says that class participation will be accounted for by you speaking up in class and posting your thoughts on the online discussion board.
the discussion board is FLOODED.
and it's just that one lesson's stuff on E-MAIL.
eeks it's high time i post something on that board.
at least my name shows up somewhere among that mess.

and it's high time i do some speaking up in class.
this semester has been quite an eye-opener.

pre-spring-cleaning

an early spring cleaning.

finally got down to cleaning my room at hall.
come to think of it.
i've been quite untidy for some time.
it's been so so so so so so so so so long since i last cleaned up the room.
and i cant imagine how i've stayed in it for 2 weeks since school started in that kind of state.

so yesterday after my class ended.
though it had been a really long day in school.
i decided to clean up my room while waiting for linda and chiewlin to be back from their classes.


cleaned up my table.
and look at that pail of water in the picture.
it's so dirty and murky only after wiping the shelves.
can you imagine the amount of dust that had gathered in my room?

then gave my study table a good wipe too.
finally got rid of the dust that have gathered at those hidden corners.

waited for the girls to be back.
then borrowed their broom and mop to sweep and clean the floor.
i didnt dare to take a picture of the wipes after sweeping.
it's way too disgusting.
goodness gracious me.
i wonder what's wrong with me.
i actually put up with that state for two weeks!
eeks.

well.
at least now it's clean.
i've got to clean it up more often.
hehe.
but i'll get really rough hands at this rate.
another eeks.
oh well.
still a clean room is definitely better!
:)

yeap i've got nothing much to update anymore!
hehe.