lazy bum

yes. the lazy bum is me.
haha.
slept for 8 hours last night.
wah haha.
sounds cool right.
but at the expense of my lecture.
gosh.
slept at 4 am.
supposed to wake up at 8 to get ready for class.
end up waking up in a shocked state at 12.15 pm.
man. totally missed my 2-hr lecture that started at 10.30 am.
then rushed like mad to get myself ready for the 12.30 class.
should have seen me dashing in and out.
ultra madness.

today is not my day.
argh.
evening went to choose photos for photoshoot.
gosh. damn. i dont look nice.
haha.
supposed to pick 3 compulsary pics.
i ended up only being able to pick 4 if i'm not picky.
man. can imagine how ugly i looked.
haha.
super shit.
haha.

then now i'm stuck with some crap shit.
that i'm supposed to do.
some rubbish proposal.
but well. i give up.
cos sry. first thing i dont know a thing about what i am to write on.
second the person who threw me this shit told me that he's got to prepare for a test. and so cant do that. and ha, i found out from some friend of his that the group went celebrating someone's bday. like erm....
heck. freaking person.
why should i waste my time then?

time to get back to doing tutorial.
i havent done anything ever since i woke up today.
totally inefficient.
zero production.

narcissistic

haha. i simply love my nokia phone.
finally figured out how to transfer those photos out of my phone on my laptop.
told you i am an it-idiot.
well, here's the ultimate "i love myself" series.


omg. haha. i like this one.
cos. my complexion looks totally perfect.
haha. and the orange polo tee is really nice.
haha. looks so bright and cheery.
lalala.

and yea. i went to thin my hair today and trim my fringe.
so i dont have my mushroom head anymore.
haha. it's much neater.
and the nice lady over there straightened my hair for me temporary.
how timely. cos i had my presentation after that.
look at that!


straight hair. haha.
isnt it just so neat and lovely.
haha. damn it. i'm getting hopeless.


yeap. and i like this.
changed to my more formal top and got ready for presentation.
so i was in this pink top.
haha. so funny. this pic makes me look like i'm so young.
wah haha. the power of technology.
looks enhancement.


and of cos. cant miss out that geek look of mine.
haha. kind of dumb to post this. cos it will ruin this whole darn entry.
haha. i look totally mugger with this specs of mine.
if not for the coloured hair. i'll look like really very guai.


hmmm. and not to miss out.
the crazy girls.
me and ps were snapping pics on my phone out of extreme boredom.
and yea. for once.
2 girls together with straight hair.
haha.

mine will be gone soon. haha.
so well. for keep sake.
that's it for now.
enough of my total nonsense.

wishes

haha.
i've got a wishlist.
some items that i would love to have at the moment. hehe.
*hint hint*
haha. not my bday yet.
but still. no harm wishing.

1. a big soft-toy pooh bear. tigger is fine too. i just want a big soft toy from disney.
2. hk disneyland opening celebration cd. sounds totally awesome and cute. haha.
3. lovely new bedsheets. cos i think the ones i have in my hall are not really pretty.
4. naruto posters. haha. how can i not possess a poster of my dearest character in my room?
5. edward elric fma poster. omg. haha. hunk. who can resist?
6. new earphones. those i'm using for my mp3 player is seriously hopeless. how about a new mp3 player too, comes as a package?!

lala. man i feel like a kid. the things i want are so so so childish.
but well.
gonna save up and try and fulfil my own wish.
unless...
hehe.
maybe wishing hard enough. they'll come to me without me doing much. haha.

wishes do come true, dont they?

total waste of time

basically. i spent my whole saturday doing unconstructive stuff.

was up at 6 am in the morning.
hurriedly get ready to head all the way to the east to get to changi airport.
jiaying and mich is off for lse.
man. the size of our class people in singapore is largely reducing.
hmmm. well. all the best to them. bet it's gonna be really fun there.
shall go visit them if i get to go london!
cant wait to see what it's like over there.

after that had breakfast with my dearest girlfriend. haha. linda.
macs breakfast at changi airport.
how posh.
and to think i was in this formal attire.
long sleeved blouse with black skirt. holding my black coat in my hands.
ha. super unprofessional executive zhien.

then after that went to take bus from changi airport.
gosh it's been so long since i took bus from the airport.
haha. i shall try it more often maybe. it's so fun.
only did that when i was really young.
dad used to bring us to the airport just to take pics.
and we would take a bus there cos the mrt wasnt ready then.
those were the days.

then went to meet the girls at safra tampines that side.
then headed for the photoshoot venue.
managed to find the place.
looked like some deserted warehouse to me.
after that watched the make-up artist do her work on the 2 other girls first.
my turn was the 3rd.
then after that took photo.
man. i think i really cmi.
damn stiff in front of the camera. bet i stressed that photographer out.
and i really think i look weird with make-up.
*faint*
stupid crap.
then after that wait and wait and wait.
watch other people take their shots.
then only around 6 plus then take group photo. wasted 6 hours of my youth away.
man.
and to think i actually fell.
when taking the group photo was supposed to be arranged.
then end up i was a bit slow to get to the studio place cos of a bit of touching up.
then i ran. stepped on the cloth, which is not slip proof. then wah haha.
*bing bong biang*
there goes. zhien the joke of the day.
nah. managed to not fall flat. but well. it was embarrassing enough.
watever.
then yea. it all ends at 7.
a total 7 plus hours of torture.

was so super shag after that.
then went to take bus to tampines mall.
had macs again for dinner.

after that headed back to airport to send flo off.
another lse-goer.
the last one this year from our class to go overseas.
shall not have such more frequent airport trips anymore.
hopefully the next time i go there. it's my turn to go overseas on a trip!

after that headed back home and then quickly got online.
discussed presentation stuff.
then now blogging.
man. a totally shag day.
but yet. i didnt accomplished much.
my tutorial is still not done.
hmm.
my presentation preparations are still in a mess.
man. i'll need to finish up a whole load of stuff tmr!

ganbatte. ganbatte. ganbatte.

simplicity is a dream

shall just write something before i get to sleep.

beginning to really feel weary.
so many things to manage yet i seem to be able to handle it all.
fighting a battle. fighting a war.
trying to survive through all these.
trying to take up my responsibilities and at the same time juggle my schoolwork.
the endless project work isnt doing anything to help.
hopefully i can really clear those projects soon enough and get down to doing proper studying.

next week shall be having 2 presentations.
and i seriously hate it when hopes are pinned on me to do to my best.
no doubt i'll do my best to perform.
but i sincerely dont want to carry the whole load on my shoulders.
cos i dont have the strength and energy to do it all.
i've got my limits.
stereotype me. then after that use it on me.
gosh. nothing i ever really wanted. who would wish for that.
indeed, it's some compliment. that i'm from some recognised top school.
people think i am capable. think that i am efficient. think that i am genius.
which i seriously am not.
and i dont know why simply cos of the comments i'll have to make myself be like what i'm perceived to be.
it's tiring.
it's taking a toll on me.

i've got my forgetfulness.
i've got my incompetencies.
i've got my incapabilities.
see that and understand that i'm not infallible.
i know of what the expectations are. but i'm putting effort to meet them.
not that i dont want to fail.
i hate failures. i hate my incompetencies. i hate my flaws.
who doesnt want to be perfect.
but the fact is. i can never be.
i do what i can. within my means. within the time i have.
it's not as if i have all the time in the world.
it seems like i complete most of my stuff on time.
why? cos i squeeze myself dry.
every single wee bit of time.
i try to make full use of that.
to make up for what i am short of.
to try and do what i cant.

i dont even have time to do proper revision.
which i think i'll seriously need.
i need the space. i need the time.

i dont need additional pressure.
dont keep telling me things like retaking courses.
dont keep saying it's hard to manage.
cos afterall. i'm trying to take every single step such that it's worthwhile.
so that i can reach my goal.
so that i can do what i really want to.
so that i really can be impressive.
so that i will be successful.

i'm telling myself.
i can do it.
i can manage it.
i can get my ideal grades.
i can handle everything i've taken up as my responsibility.
i can. cos i say i can.
please dont come shaking me off my feet.
cos i'm making it a point to stand firm.

damn those inconsiderate homo sapiens.

citius, altius, fortius.
faster, higher, stronger.
i shall have to be.

think. think. think.

argh. cant think.
cant think of a title to put. so that's it. gonna be that lame way.

second day since start of school after the one week break.
trying to get back into the momentum.
loads of presentation to prepare for the coming week.
getting increasingly stressed.
stupid.
man. if only i can stop time.
then i'll be able to do so much while i stop time from running.

today had hall event.
courtyard they call it.
a drama performance.
basically. went there to take photos. do nothing.
not bad i think.
some people in the hall really do make good actors.

hmm. after that was supper. rojak.
haha. so fun.

so basically wasted time la.
spent 4 hours or so out of my room cos of the events.
phew. no more events as yet. for this week.
time to focus and settle my school stuff.

argh.
beginning really think that i cannot make it.
gosh.
so much concepts that i can grasp properly.
so many things to learn.
argh.
can i get some brain booster?
i need more wisdom.

bummin' around

slack slack slack.
gosh. i'm so damn slack today.
havent really done anything constructive.
not getting down to reading my textbooks yet.

argh.
need to seriously get sthg done.
mugging marathon?
ready. get set then go.
but. when am i gonna be ready?

been a major slacker this weekend.
hmm.
time to really get things done.
i usually keep saying.
argh. damn it.
now i feel like sleeping more than anything.
but there's tv at 11pm.
hehe.

no time yet i wanna slack.
man. loser me.
lalala.