self-introspection

sometimes i ask myself why
i ask myself

what is going on?
what is wrong?
what is happening?
what should i do?
what should i not do?
what should i avoid?
what is it that i should be doing?
what is it that i am heading for?
what is it that i am in for?
what will go wrong?
what will happen?
what's with me?
what's eating me?

conclusion:
i am utterly confused.
argh.
i think too much.
my brain should stop running.

cny day 3

the last day of this really long weekend break.
i am losing track of time.
mixing up. this week and next week.
back to school tmr.

kind of like the last day of visiting today.
went jj's house today.
a bit the extra.
but her place is nice.
haha.
hope that if i move house, my new home will be pretty too.
haha. i want a neat neat place.
hehe.

after that went library.
haha. my playground!
haha. lame joke.
but yea. finished up my tutorials for this week.
sigh. so many make-up classes.

gonna have a tough week after such a long break.
but yea. hope everything is good!
;)

cny day 2

the day started off quite well.
some people came visiting.
cute tong tong came.
but it was a tough time entertaining her.
haha.
but she's cute.

after that went to my godma's place.
there was loads of food.
quite fun at first.
until the appearance of my cousin's pet dog.
which totally scared me out of my wits.
and yes. i started screaming.
haha.
and after that comments sent me getting pissed.
so yea.
it didnt end quite well.

stupid la.
but heck.
i can be stupidly irritated.
morons.
but who cares la.
i cant be bothered.

cny day 1

da nian chu yi.
haha.
day one of cny.

start of the ang bao collection mission.
haha.
actually not la.
if so i doubt i can fulfil the mission.

went visiting to grandma's place today.
reached there only quite late.
cos we woke up late.
haha.

some of them played with cards.
but i chose not to play.
hehe.
i am getting increasingly paranoid.
i dont think i have that kind of luck.
haha.

at some pt in time i get quite bored and doze off.
haha.
which was quite off.
but well.
we all know each other well enough so i guess it's ok.
not really very embarrassing to fall asleep suddenly.

of course.
with new clothes.
so many people.
there's loads of photo-taking.
haha.

here's some

took this with sis at home.

a family photo taken at grandma's house.

took a pic with lovely mummy!

and ying too!

also took a pic with my gan ma. :)

and with my cute little cousins.

they so kawaii.

day 1 was quite fun la.
haha.
but yea. cny is getting nothing much extraordinary.
every year it's almost the same.

but well.
it's still a happy occasion!
;)

cny eve

it's yet another cny!
haha.
finally it's here.
i had so little sleep the night before.
so i ended up very tired.
haha.
i was practically dozing off everywhere.

went out with sis in the early afternoon to do last minute shopping.
finally got a new pair of shoes.
haha.
then went to nike women shop and saw this really cool bag.
haha. i want!
gonna get it with my ang bao money.
or maybe my pay.
hehehe.
splurge.
hehehe.

went to grandma's house for reunion dinner.
it was really lively over there.
jianyi. the youngest cousin around for tonight was so hyper.
and kept us all cheery.
haha.
of course i ate. a lot.
gosh.
haha.
loads of photo taking as sis meddle around with her new hp.
haha.
me of course with my own. and my digi-cam.
hehe.

looking forward to tmr!
new clothes.
new beginning!

goodbye rooster, hello dog!
hehehehe.

pre-cny

joel came crashing ntu today.
hehe.
came over to my elective class.
sigh.
a little disappointing though.
maybe.
haha. cos 2 plus hours of the class was a film screening.
but quite interesting i think.
then after that was the topic for today.
then the last 10 mins was quiz.
i hope i do well. ;)
and thankfully he managed to sneak out.
haha.

after that he went mia.
haha.
but yea. linda joined us for dinner.
so he went on to complain about how his book-out today was delayed.
haha.
showed him our new hall!
haha.

hope that was some experience.

after that was hall event.
midnight fiesta.
haha.
quite fun.

first destination was maxwell food centre.
ate so much there.
oyster omelette. rojak. popiah. hokkien mee. guo tie.
haha.
then walked around the night market opened at chinatown for cny.
quite crowded.
but wasnt really that bad.
walk walk see see.
hehehe.

after that boarded the bus and headed for geylang.
an eye-opener.
as the seniors took us down a walk along the streets.
seeing quite a handful of baits on the streets waiting to hook up some hungry fish.
haha.
after that went to eat dou jiang you tiao.
haha.
the you tiao there was very nice.
hehe.
then walked around since there was ample time.
then in the end some of them wanted to try the frog porridge.
so we went as a grp.
i sat there but was on high alert.
as the cats nearby were all highly skilful.
scary.

after that got back to hall.
quite a shag day.
it had been a long day.
tmr still got morning class.
sigh.
gonna have to wait for laundry to be done.
and then catch some sleep.

good hair is an illusion. discuss.

and so is mr han going to start a gp class here?
haha.
i am so not going to write a gp essay to discuss that.

i think i've thrown back a lot of stuff to the "beloved" p.
haha.
introduction.
thesis statement. "i propose to argue that..."
thesis.
anti-thesis.
conclusion.
haha.
i think i'll have a hard time with them now.
haha.

joel might want to explain the "surely, the meaning of good is as layered as a good hairdo" that left me very much confused.
as you know.
i'm super not proficient in english.
well. a relative thing maybe.
haha.

chiewlin and linda went jogging but lazy me slacked in hall.
haha.

went back home last night.
for no rhyme or reason.
haha.
i just did.
lalalala.
school's getting hmmm. busy.

went to see doctor at the medical centre again today.
apparently.
the previous visit didnt help.
the doctor today said that she is prescribing me something stronger.
oops.
haha. serious.
haha. i better get better this time.
waste of my money.
my hard-earned money.

haha.
now i think that some habits ought to be kicked.
haha.
my msn nick.

and the AS mode is slowly setting in.
wonder why.
haha. i feel AS.
anti-social that is.

thinking of changing hp plan.
argh.
so many to do.
so little time.