my wishlist

hehe.
had been a really really tiring week.
don't think it's gonna really get much better the next few weeks.
hehe.
i'm tired.
so desperate for sleep.
hehe.

anyway.
it's less than 2 weeks to my birthday.
shall put up my wishlist.
well. kind of a wishlist.

there arent really much that i want.
a few of my friends were asking me what is it that i want as a present when they replied to my invitation to my birthday celebration.
yet i dont really know wat to tell them.
haha.

what i'm really in need of.

nokia e65

am in desperate need of a new phone with my current one going a bit crazy.
my current phone has indeed served me well.
haha.
just at the looks of it gives you an indication of how much it has been through.
well. the red silver nokia e65 looks really cool.
but it's expensive. i think.
hehe.

what i really dont mind having

ipod nano red

this is looks really cool and pretty.
i saw this picture on michelle's blog some time back.
haha.
looks really nice.
i havent got a replacement for my ipod shuffle that i destroyed long time back.
haha.

a new bible
i've got my pocket bible that i bring along with me.
i've got my life application study bible.
both are NIV ones.
i dont mind having a pocket bible that's of another version!
haha.

a winnie the pooh jigsaw puzzle nicely done and framed
haha.
i've always wanted to buy this and that whenever i step into jigsaw puzzle world.
but again. these stuff are really ex.
haha.
this will probably be a nice item to put in my room when we move house.

a laptop bag that can fit my acer aspire 5502wxmi
the bag that i have now is one that came along with the purchase of my laptop.
it's those that can contain everything. the adaptor.
quite a big thing.
i've seen people walking around with those laptop bag that can just put the laptop in nicely.
not for putting other stuff like mouse, adaptor, etc.
i want something that looks nice and special!

i don't mind more money!
i don't mind more Christian books to read. though i havent really finish what i have with me at hand.
i don't mind having more Christian songs to listen to.
i don't mind more clothes that can be easily matched for work.
i don't mind more shoes too. though i dont really like the idea of having a messier shoe rack.
i don't mind one more bag that's more suitable for work. haha. i hate growing older. you need to get stuff that are suitable when you transit into another stage in life. bleh.

other things that i want but not now.

a guitar
think i've been really out of practice.
not supposed to be that way since my teacher is my cell leader.
yet. haha. i've been really so out of practice.
given that i dont have a guitar to practice with.
and i've yet to get one.
i wanna get one.
but probably not so soon.
shall have to KIV it until after i move house.
so that i dont have more things to move over to.
and i wont have to worry about it being spoilt in the process of moving.
i wanna get my first guitar!

a nice bookshelf cum a nice study table
these are the few important things for my new room.
haha.
yes i'm quite an oddball.
but i think the bookshelf and study table is really what i want to be really neat and nice for my new room.
not that i'm that nerdy.
but i've always got ultra messy study tables at home.
and compared to my relatively MUCH neater table in hall.
the one in hall is more conducive for work.
haha.

other things that are practically impossible to ask of.
just wishes on my part.
haha.

good grades for this semester
expected results release date is 8th.
so it shall be a really pleasant gift if i've got good results.
looking forward to yet another improvement.
and a breakthrough.

a car
yes impossible when i've no licence to even talk of.
haha.
i've been having this thought.
having a car is really convenient.
probably cos i've been rushing here and there recently.
and i've been walking quite a bit and getting quite sick of it especially when i'm walking in heels.
but well. let me get my licence first then.

a trip to australia/japan/new zealand/nyc
i havent been to these places and i dont mind going on a trip to these places.
haha.
but the money comes as a rather big factor.
somehow i wanted a get-away starting some time back.
but these hols i havent got the chance to really have a time for this.
oh well.
i like to travel with enough money.
me and my lalaland dreams.

time
haha. have been rather packed to the brim in terms of time.
or maybe i just need to be more efficient.
sigh.
haha.
i want more time.
i wonder if it's possible to have 30 hours a day instead.

well.
i dont really have much in specific that i want.
but i do know a few things that i dont see a need for.
a few things that i really dont need to have more of already.
anyway.
just whatever is practical and useful.
i suppose i dont really mind them as gifts.
oops. haha. this sounds really thick skinned.

well.
those that i've invited to the celebration.
if you have yet to reply to confirm if you are coming.
and you are reading this.
please do let me know soon ok?
hehe.

shall learn to treasure my last few weeks of being a minor.
haha.

first week of work

the first week of attachment marked the end of my holidays.
bleh.
a short one week of holidays.

which i got to watch spiderman 3 with sis.
it's been ages since we caught a movie together.
though we only got to spend a short time together.
i'm happy.
thanks sis for the wonderful company.
let's have such things more often!
hehe.
i'm really trying to make time.

got to catch up with peishan also.
girl! send me the pics.
haha.
you and your procrastination.
tsk tsk.
haha.

went shopping with linda, chiewlin and junjie for formal wear in preparation for attachment too!
managed to find a good alternative to g2000.
i wanna shop more.
that is if i've got more money.
i need to get more clothes suitable for work.
haha.
i realised i cant wear my lovely disney t-shirts to work.
boo.

this week started off rather busy.
i havent got a day that i get to travel straight home after work!
so i'm rather worn out with the things that are taking up my evenings.
eeks.
i need better time management.

anyway.
just a bit about my week one at the company i'm working at as an intern for the next 9 or 10 weeks.
haha.
10 more weeks to go if my leave gets approved!


i'm working near clarke quay.
but sadly there isnt the view of the singapore river from where i sit in the office.
nobody in my office will ever get the view of the singapore river.
there goes the incentive i thought i might have.
haha.
but well.
it's a rather convenient place.
by the mrt i can reach my workplace within 25 minutes.
i havent tried taking the bus.
i heard from a colleague that stays rather near me that it takes about half an hour by bus.
not that bad.
since i've got like 4 buses to choose from?
hehe.
i'm thankful for all the convenience.
anyway. my fellow interns think i reach too early. haha.
i think so too.
the office door wasnt open for 4 out of 5 of the days by the time i reach the office.
haha.


my desk for the past 4 days.
today was a little different.
yes there are a lot a lot a lot of files in that office.
haha.
and i'm working in the accounts department at the moment.
so the files are in green.
the tax ones are in yellow i think.
orange are for those audit ones.
can't remember what the blue ones are for.
haha. but well. you get the idea. there are seriously loads and loads of file.
for once i think my study area at home isnt that messy afterall.
and on the desk. yes the calculator is extremely important!
haha.
i've been working on consolidating reports for the past few days.
and so i'm really getting more and more familiar with this particular accounting software.
haha. and i'm getting more and more familiar with the xerox in the office.
the colleagues are rather nice.
so i get to clarify things when i don't know.
honestly.
theory is very very different from reality.
haha.


a few signs to show that i'm integrating myself into the working population.
coffee!
man i was so so so tired having to wake up early and work 9.5 hours each day.
1 hour for lunch excluded.
i needed to get coffee on wednesday just to keep myself awake.
especially after lunch.
the sleepyness just sets in so unknowingly.
haha.
and meals! meals with colleagues. meals with fellow interns.
i'll slowly get to know the good makan places near my workplace.
hey people! jio me for lunch k if you're too free.
haha.

one other thing about work attachment.
i'm sick and tired of heels.
for 5 days a week i've got to wear heels to work.
partially cos i lack proper looking shoes that are more presentable for work.
and partially cos i wasnt exactly pampering my feet.
on monday i walked from my workplace in clarke quay area to millenia walk for meeting.
on tuesday i walked from my workplace to wheelock place for meeting.
i probably was being crazy.
think this is one of the other longer distance walk i've taken other than the walk home from bugis long time back.
this probably takes the 2nd place in terms of distance walked.
on wednesday i was nicer to my legs. i walked only to the bus stop to take a bus to gloria's place for cell. but i ran in my heels just to catch the bus.
on thursday i walked to bras basah complex after work to get some materials that i needed.
and i end up realising that practically any shop at bras basah close around 7 pm.
thank goodness that i didn't take too long to walk or else i'll probably end up fainting at the closed shutter.
today didn't really walk that much around in my heels.
oh well. learning to slowly pamper my feet.
haha.


on a side note. the walk from my workplace to wheelock place was indeed tiring.
but. i accidentally dropped my phone.
and it amazingly is working fine on the front screen once again.
see the previous post if you dont know wat's going on.
now i dont have to go to the mirror. turn my phone upside down and read off the reflection to tell the time.
i can just read it off the screen.
hehe.
my phone is odd.
it needs a hard knock to wake up its idea and work right again.
haha.
oh well. still i need something to replace it.
it's really disastrous already!

i'm stressed. due to the things at hand.
and time isn't exactly on my side.
but well, like what nic say.
one thing about being a child of God is that you can always trust God that His favour will be poured out to you when you ask of Him.
i know i'm blessed enough.
and i'm learning to count my blessings.
stressed. stretched. but not snapped!

had a rather heated argument with ying last night.
quite horrid one.
i am not feeling good about it.
partially i know though what she said didn't sound really pleasant.
but are things that i need to reflect on.
yet the fact that i flared up and reacted.
i think it's been some time since i really flared up this badly.
i wonder if it's cos i'm just too stressed.
or it's just really i feel unjustified.
i think i need to find that trigger point.
else i'll never learn to tame my temper.

and i'll probably be holding a 21st birthday celebration.
still need to plan.
argh.
and i'm a little lazy to go about doing it.
haha.
shall send out invites soon.
and shall come up with my wishlist when i really can think of what i want.
haha.

well.
next week is going to be another busy week.
i dont forsee anymore free evenings!
haha.
ganbatte zhien!

weekend

the first weekend after the exams.
quite an eventful weekend.
fun.
but i'm rather worn out.
still, admist the tiredness.
there's that joy.
and i'm thankful. :)


went shopping with christabel and junjie on friday morning.
and got this dress from zara.
but because the dress itself was meant to be rather short.
and given my height.
i end up wearing it as a dress top.
haha.
my first apparel from zara!
haha.
it's a happy colour.
and i wore it to 2 happy events over the weekend!


attended brother leonard's wedding on saturday afternoon.
hehe.
finally. we waited for one year for this day.
hehe.
so happy for them. really sweet.
hehe.
marriage is beautiful when God is the one in control.
congratulations to the newly weds!


at night. went to chiewlin's 21st birthday party.
hehe.
quite a large group of people.
dont know all of them well.
so the 5 of us were kind of anti-social.
haha. only mixed among ourselves.
got to enjoy good food and good company!
hehe.
happy birthday chiew chiew.
haha.
already pass liao.
but still. HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
adult le wor.
hehe.


sunday was yet another long day.
hehe.
went to junjie's 21st birthday celebration.
she had to put hers on a later date since her birthday clashed with the exams period.
haha.
so we end up celebrating a belated birthday.
still.
someone stole the limelight.
haha.
her little cousin harry.
the star of the night.
at least among that group of us.
he was.
haha.
cute little boy who was so stunned by marshall's silly 'magic' tricks.
haha.


though it was junjie's birthday.
our cell group happily just snapped pictures together.
we just love our cell leader so much!
haha.


happy birthday girl!
hehe.
this is a late birthday wish via the blog.
hehe.
the harvesterites took photos with the birthday girl and the cute cupcakes!
hehe.

on a side note.


i woke up today.
with my phone showing me a blank screen.
and for the entire day. the mini screen in front doesnt display right.
to see the text the correct way. i have to turn it upside down and hold it in front of the mirror and read off the reflection.
haha.
stupid.
i think my phone is dying.
bleh.

sent the mission trippers off early in the morning.
was super tired having slept only 3 hours.
came back home to sleep for about 45 minutes before getting ready to go back to school for photoshoot.
which was an ultra silly thing.
haha.
had lunch with the girls.
and got back to hall.
worked on some wsc stuff.
and finally totally out of the room. out of the hall.


marks the end of my stay in hall.
was the first day i actually opened the mailbox. haha.
but it wasn't that flooded with mails.
so yea! i'm officially out of the hostelite name list.
hehe.

ok. done with updating.
shall go and sleep.
i'm real tired.
bleh.

moving on

changed my blogskin.
this is a rather cool anime.
watched only part of an ep on channel 56.
hehe.
seems interesting.
have yet to have the chance to catch it.
i think i need to catch a breather more than going after all this for now.

starting to declutter my life.
and move on.

i'm thankful.
really thank God.
it surely wasn't easy.
but at least things are settled.
i know for sure that it's a tough decision.
a choice that was really difficult.
yet i'm glad.
for the opportunity to really sit down and settle things.
it's no wonder that porter says the middle-of-the-road strategy is a sure failure.
it definitely wasn't wise being neither here nor there.
making a stand. especially choosing to obey God and do what is right.
feels good.
no doubt it's a hard choice. no doubt there's that bit of struggling.
but at least there's that peace knowing that i'm on the right track.
what has happened is not what is crucial.
but where God is leading me is what i need to fix my eyes on.
ears for one. eyes for one. just to focus on Him alone.
laying aside the useless, the wasteful, the meaningless and the unimportant that clutters my life.
learning to give thanks. with a grateful heart. :)

on a lighter note.
hehe.
got to meet up with ps finally. hehe.
sorry girl. it's been so so so long.
one big big thing i need to learn now is to be a good friend.
learning to give time. learning to give a listening ear.
and i'm truly glad even for that few hours of catching up.

girl. whatever the problems you are facing, be it at work or wat.
i may not have the solution or the advice to give to you.
i may not clearly know all that is going on and put myself in your shoes totally.
but whenever you need a listening ear.
feel free to find me ok?
i may not be one that loves talking on the phone.
but i'm more than glad to just listen. :)


a photo with ps.
we were zi pai-ing quite a bit at man jia le where we just sat down and chill.


just look at all the wacky shots we took with our food.
haha.
thanks for all the fun girl. ^.^
looking forward to catching up with you soon!

and also.
went back in the middle of the night to move things back from hall to home.
thank God for hanfeng.
who just obligingly said yes when i requested for help.
so now my hall is really empty.
it only has the cable and the mailbox key which i'll have to return to the hall office on monday.
now. really out of hall for good.
hehe. gonna really miss the convenience.
gonna really miss the fun with the girls.
but no more of the zi-bi feeling when i'm alone in my single room.
no more of the cleaning up my dirty dusty single room.
no more of such crazy moving (until i move house).
no more of doing laundry at 1,2 am (i still remember the first time linda and i did laundry).
7th may.
i'm gonna be out of that place.
it's been quite a set of memory.

end

finally.
finished with the last paper.
yipee!
shall let you all take a glance at one of the examination halls in ntu.
hehe.
well. now is the time for a short holidays before i start my attachment.
and waiting for the results.
hehe. hope i do well. ^.^


spent some time at hall packing up the room.
gonna have to move back all the stuff that is there.
threw away my cute tissue box collection cos there's just so much to bring back! :(
only managed to carry a few things back.
and my shoulders and arms are aching already.
hmmm. shall really have to enlist some help before the deadline to return the key.
sigh.
quite a chore.

boo.
more things to focus on. shall have to get out of that laziness and complacency.
and get down to work.
blehh.

coming close

the final paper is approaching.
in 2 days time.
hehe.
shall have to work hard and just finish off this final lap for this semester.

have been rather slack.
though i havent been updating.


celebrated sis' bday on friday.
our family had a dinner together at coffee club holland v.
the food was rather good.
hehe.
not to mention the mudpie.
i'm so glad that the cough is more or less gone.
so i can actually indulge in stuff i like.
hehe.


took some photos with sis and mum.
and a family photo. :)
hehe.

happy birthday sis.
although this sounds late.
i was too lazy too blog on the actual day.
i owe you a present! eeks.
sorry sis.

happy birthday to teeseng too.
hehe.
the buddy who has the same birthday as my sis.
surely cannot forget.
funny fellow who insisted on giving me a treat when we can find time to catch up.
though my intention is to celebrate his bday (belated, that is).
well. i'll need to find time to prepare a gift somehow.
hehe.

i'm incurring 'presents givable' as liabilities.
haha.
high time to do shopping!

a week of blessings.
God is good!
hehe. :)
i've been blessed in many ways despite what is going on.

need the discipline to persevere and just give my best for the last paper.
been feeling as if i am too complacent.
some responsibilities at hand that i feel the pressure with the impending deadline.
but at the same time there are people there to encourage me to stay strong.
there are people offering their help.
some things that i need the resolve to settle.
i know clearly what is right to do.
yet at the same time i know it's not easy and it's going to be rather painful.
not wanting to stay in the middle.
yet torn in making a stand.
so really need the strength to be firm in making that deliberate choice.

seems as if it's going to turn rather stormy.
but i'm anticipating the sunshine after the storm.
surely God is faithful to see me through it all.
i know i'll be better. :)

Lord, prepare me to be a sanctuary

pure and holy

tried and true

with thanksgiving, i'll be a living

sanctuary

for You

1 more to go

finally down with 3 papers.

well.
according to sarah and edison.
there's some positive correlation between the stress level of examinations and the frequency of blogging.
i guess it's some form of stress relief.
and one way of just taking time off all the mugging.

i just completed my third paper for this semester today.
there's one more to go.
gonna have to persevere and just complete this lap.
need the discipline to get started with preparations for the final paper.

and soon i'll have to unpack from hall.
and move whatever there is back to home.
surely.
a few things that i'm so gonna miss.


my room.
during this study period.
whenever i'm just so bored.
i'll just stare out of the window.
sometimes get lost in my thoughts for a while.
before getting back to the books.
gonna miss this place.
it's quiet. rather conducive for studying.
and i do make it a point to make my table as neat as possible.
so that i feel more motivated to study.
the one thing i'm so going to make sure.
i need a neat study table at the new house.
haha.

and of course i'm going to miss my cl2.
the 2 of them are my best companion at hall.
without them i'll really get very very very very very bored at hall.
haha.
there's always fun with them around.
all the laughter as we go down to do laundry.
making quite a fair bit of noise at the lift lobby.
the 1 am, 2 am syndrome etc.
we sure have quite a fair bit of own jokes.
haha.
i'm so going to miss the slumber parties.
so gonna miss doing laundry with the girls.
so gonna miss all the silly entics.
so gonna miss the two of them!

one thing i'm definitely not going to miss.
moving out.
haha.
going to be quite a task.
still planning how to get it done more efficiently.
i'm trying to clear as much as i can on my own.
carried quite a fair bit back today.
so much so that i was quite worn out.
hehe. i'm quite lazy when it comes to packing.

anyway.
i'm glad for just a simple time tonight.
looking forward to spending more of such time.
just quietly sitting down and listening.
i need guidance in many areas.
and surely i need much help dealing with what i dont have the strength to deal with on my own.
i never realised certain things that i remember so vividly.
back in my mind i've always thought i've long gotten used to it.
yet i realised i can still remember it just as if it happened the day before.
God help me.
i really need to learn to deal with all these rather than running away.
i've ran away for too long.
with the different things coming along the way.
each time running away doesnt help.
i need to learn to face it with His strength.
i'm glad.

When my spirit grows faint within me, it is You who know my way.

...

"You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living."

- Psalm 142:3,5

well. something to look forward to.


i wanna watch spiderman 3.
hehe.
the movie highlight for this coming summer!
true enough.
one's biggest enemy can be the self.
who's on about watching it with me?